*** yesterday ***
right. i couldn't sleep AGAIN on Sunday night, at least not before 1 or 2am, and i was up again at 05.30.
i'm REALLY crap at waking up early.
i repeated the whole mission to holon. at the halfway point, the central bus station in tel aviv, i stopped to get a cup of coffee. and this weird old dude sat down next to me and began singing.
singing, shouting, same difference.
especially at 07.30. i gave him this dark look, and was about to ask him to kindly go strangle himself, when suddenly my previous experience (wisdom) kicked in and reminded me that that might very well make it worse.
so i gave him this pitying look and ignored him. and he went away!
good for me. *patting myself on the back*
when i got to holon, i sat down at the counter, gave the mean old *expletives deleted here* "woman" my stuff, and she stamped it all and signed, and gave it back.
i was in shock. she was still being unpleasant, but she did her job, and she did it quickly - i've never had that experience in a government bureau before.
i then had to get to a beach in tel aviv for our status meeting. the concept of a work meeting on the beach was weird - but we weren't really given a choice... the bus driver agreed to tell me when we got there, but he forgot about me and i got off the bus 3 stops past the beach.
CRAP.
as if i haven't done enough walking and been late enough this past couple of weeks.
and i was tired. did i mention i was tired? i was REALLY tired. not to mentioned tired.
as usual, i was the first person to get to the beach.
i then discovered that this was a compulsory meeting, but not a serious one - we were required to chill together, or have fun, or whatever.
at least they brought breakfast.
i've posted some pics of the meeting in the gallery.
around 11am i decided genoeg is genoeg, and went home.
i'm sure that i've already mentioned being tired.
it's approximately half and hour's walk from the beach to the closest busstop on a route home. i don't know how else to write that sentence.
i crashed for an hour, and then sammy invited me to a gaming session. of course, i couldn't not go. so we played starcraft, which was fun, until we realized that at some point we'd been disconnected - so we compared our strategies and quit.
i got home, i think, around 19.30. i made a pitiful attempt at reading shakespeare: i started with a comedy of errors, gave up (too difficult), and started on a midsummer night's dream. cute beginning, but i just couldn't concentrate.
made myself a styling supper (sezchuan), and watched tv until she came over.
i haven't seen her in a week - a very long week, so we played catch up for a few hours before deciding to call it a night.
*** today ***
i had to be up at 08.00. instead, my stupid, mean body woke up at 06.30, and i tried for an hour to get back to sleep, before giving in and getting up.
and it's not like i got enough sleep.
also, i'm having trouble breathing at night. i really need to get that sorted out, but then again i've been saying that since i was a kid, and every year it's the same shit.
so i walked to campus, gave some documents to my friend (social security sorter-outer (SSSO)), and walked to the OTHER other side of herzliyah, to try setting a date for my driver's exam.
firstly, it worries me that the policeman outside the police station, which is next door to the DMV herzliyah, couldn't tell me where to find said DMV.
secondly, it turns out that only a driving instructor can set a date, so i'd walked more than an hour for nothing.
while i was in the area of the mall, i went window shopping, and discovered two anne rice books, pandora and vittorio, for less than R30 each. NICE.
* NEWS FLASH (12.40) *
i just got a call from the psychotic american who's in my group for the marketing assignment - grootbek still hasn't sent us the project, and we have four days to hand it in.
i'm going to post the letter i just sent to him under mental masturbation.
i'm at work now - i'd better go earn some cash.
Tuesday, July 22, 2003
Sunday, July 20, 2003
20/07/03
i went to bed fairly early last night, but i couldn't get to sleep until around 2am.
i woke up at 05.30, got my shit together and got on the bus. it took about 1.5 hours to get there, but i made my way to the DMV equivalent and found the person that i needed to speak to.
big, horrible, ugly, mean-looking woman.
i thought to myself, "just be friendly, be nice, everything will be fine".
so i was - and then she told me i needed a medical. which i was told numerous times i didn't need. also, it doesn't make sense, because i'm converting my license, not getting a new one.
so i said, "are you sure?"
and then the monster came out. she got really upset, and said, in a non-too-pleasant tone, "I'M the one who decides WHO needs WHAT!"
so, thinking that i'd actually like to get my license, and that this uberbitch could stop me, i got VERY polite, and apologized, and left.
another 1.5 hours back. UGH.
organized a doctor's appointment, which lasted around ten minutes. thank god my doc's alright.
i then went to campus, to be told that the documents i need for the army aren't ready yet - should be, theoretically, tomorrow.
hopefully, sometime this week.
also, i received a promise that the social security people will call me sometime.
great.
i came home, and began sorting out my delicious (can i call it that?), newly-collected collection of invader zim episodes (epidodes - it's easier to type).
while doing that, i received a call from someone whose son is coming to our university. she wanted to see what the apartments were like.
turns out, her other son is one of my least favourite people in the whole world - made quite a lot of trouble for me in high school, and the idea of living with his brother is just weird. it was a long time ago, but it's still strange, and uncanny.
disturbing, even.
anyway, so we spent the afternoon discussing all sorts of stuff, i won't bore you with the details, but it really is freaky how connected everyone is.
just when i thought that i was safe from other south africans...
i mean, i only moved to a different city to get away from them, and now they're on my doorstep?
thanks, ye gods.
i went grocery shopping - heavy-duty shopping, and then passed out for a bit. i may have played cs first, i'm not sure.
my mom calling woke me up, and as soon as i put the phone down, hido invited me to cs on his server.
it is now established that i suck. but not THAT badly. i wasn't the worst person on the server, at least. and i got SOME frags. so i don't feel so bad.
although at the beginning, i did want to cry...
it's WAY past my bedtime (tomorrow morning, 05.30 again), and i still have to eat and shower.
i think i'll just go do that now.
i woke up at 05.30, got my shit together and got on the bus. it took about 1.5 hours to get there, but i made my way to the DMV equivalent and found the person that i needed to speak to.
big, horrible, ugly, mean-looking woman.
i thought to myself, "just be friendly, be nice, everything will be fine".
so i was - and then she told me i needed a medical. which i was told numerous times i didn't need. also, it doesn't make sense, because i'm converting my license, not getting a new one.
so i said, "are you sure?"
and then the monster came out. she got really upset, and said, in a non-too-pleasant tone, "I'M the one who decides WHO needs WHAT!"
so, thinking that i'd actually like to get my license, and that this uberbitch could stop me, i got VERY polite, and apologized, and left.
another 1.5 hours back. UGH.
organized a doctor's appointment, which lasted around ten minutes. thank god my doc's alright.
i then went to campus, to be told that the documents i need for the army aren't ready yet - should be, theoretically, tomorrow.
hopefully, sometime this week.
also, i received a promise that the social security people will call me sometime.
great.
i came home, and began sorting out my delicious (can i call it that?), newly-collected collection of invader zim episodes (epidodes - it's easier to type).
while doing that, i received a call from someone whose son is coming to our university. she wanted to see what the apartments were like.
turns out, her other son is one of my least favourite people in the whole world - made quite a lot of trouble for me in high school, and the idea of living with his brother is just weird. it was a long time ago, but it's still strange, and uncanny.
disturbing, even.
anyway, so we spent the afternoon discussing all sorts of stuff, i won't bore you with the details, but it really is freaky how connected everyone is.
just when i thought that i was safe from other south africans...
i mean, i only moved to a different city to get away from them, and now they're on my doorstep?
thanks, ye gods.
i went grocery shopping - heavy-duty shopping, and then passed out for a bit. i may have played cs first, i'm not sure.
my mom calling woke me up, and as soon as i put the phone down, hido invited me to cs on his server.
it is now established that i suck. but not THAT badly. i wasn't the worst person on the server, at least. and i got SOME frags. so i don't feel so bad.
although at the beginning, i did want to cry...
it's WAY past my bedtime (tomorrow morning, 05.30 again), and i still have to eat and shower.
i think i'll just go do that now.
Saturday, July 19, 2003
19/07/03
i have no clue what time i got to bed this morning.
what i do know, is that playing cs until early hours of the morning when you have to be up before 10am is a bad idea. i had to stumble out of bed, brush my teeth, and get dressed, all before i could open my eyes this morning, so that i could be in time for a breakfast at a friend's place.
at least the breakfast was nice.
she helped me figure out what was going on with my social security problem, and we'll deal with it sometime during this week. probably by going there in person and screaming at those retarded monkeys until something gets done.
i watched a movie today - unfaithful - very well made, rather unsettling movie.
i spent the afternoon playing cs and sleeping.
and watched a couple of invader zim episodes.
i like invader zim.
i have the theme tune stuck in my head.
i gave up, and uninstalled bittorrent today. it's a nice idea, but there're two things very wrong with it.
1) chances are you're the fool uploading, not downloading.
2) it takes all the space from the beginning. on a 10GB harddrive this is unacceptable.
basically, i'm sticking with kazaa (lite, i'm no luser).
i've decided that i'm going to holon tomorrow morning (driver's license). i'm guessing i'll get there and be told that i haven't brought something, but it's a risk that i'll have to take.
so tonight: not on e: i'm going to play some cs, and get some shuteye.
what i do know, is that playing cs until early hours of the morning when you have to be up before 10am is a bad idea. i had to stumble out of bed, brush my teeth, and get dressed, all before i could open my eyes this morning, so that i could be in time for a breakfast at a friend's place.
at least the breakfast was nice.
she helped me figure out what was going on with my social security problem, and we'll deal with it sometime during this week. probably by going there in person and screaming at those retarded monkeys until something gets done.
i watched a movie today - unfaithful - very well made, rather unsettling movie.
i spent the afternoon playing cs and sleeping.
and watched a couple of invader zim episodes.
i like invader zim.
i have the theme tune stuck in my head.
i gave up, and uninstalled bittorrent today. it's a nice idea, but there're two things very wrong with it.
1) chances are you're the fool uploading, not downloading.
2) it takes all the space from the beginning. on a 10GB harddrive this is unacceptable.
basically, i'm sticking with kazaa (lite, i'm no luser).
i've decided that i'm going to holon tomorrow morning (driver's license). i'm guessing i'll get there and be told that i haven't brought something, but it's a risk that i'll have to take.
so tonight: not on e: i'm going to play some cs, and get some shuteye.
Friday, July 18, 2003
18/07/03
*** yesterday ***
well, i got up fairly early again.
for nothing, again.
i really don't like getting up early in the morning.
i tried working on the drivers doohickey - i've decided i really have no freakin' clue what's going on. i understand each step, but i really don't know how to use the damn thing.
this is like a new kind of torture device. i can make decent cash if only i can learn how to do this.
ooh, hell is a place on earth... (bad 80's reference)
basically, i spent the day in front of the computer again. my brain is abuzz with radiation and i'm seeing scan-lines everywhere. i really need a break.
i couldn't even bring myself to play counterstrike.
i set myself up with a sourceforge account, and i'm planning on putting some of my ideas online.
i really wanted to make money out of them, but i really don't think it's going to happen. so maybe the credibility will do me some good.
i've already begun writing the documents, i just have to make a cute little website, and then post it, and see what happens.
it's kinda sad though. these are MY babies.
*** today ***
it's now 04.30, and i've been at work since 22.20. i've been writing the documents, and doing a leeeeetle bit of timewasting, and even answered a few calls.
and i only fucked up one helpdesk report :{o> (i have a beard now that she's gone for the week. i've been eating food with amba on it, too, which is this nuclear stuff which tastes amazing, but leaves your breath foul for days).
*** later ***
i was meant to go to holon, a really shitty city south of tel aviv, but JOSH didn't answer his phone until it was too late to go, so that didn't happen.
would have been nice, could have chilled the weekend, and spun on his decks, and then sunday could have made a really short trip to the DMV equivalent to sort out my license conversion.
but NOOOOOOOOOOO.
basically, i spent the day in a stupor - slept sporadically, and played some cs, and read online comics, and searched in vain for my poetry collection.
i really hate losing stuff, and the past few days i've thought of loads of things that i haven't seen or heard or smelled in ages, that i just can't find anywhere...
at least i finally found my id documents.
i finally realized, after watching a few invader zim episodes, why moonflake kept saying "disgusting human worm-babies". it's contagious.
what worries me is, kids are allowed to watch this stuff? damn, but modern cartoons are DANGEROUS.
hido will appreciate this more than anyone else: i have learned, the hard way, that i absolutely stink at counterstrike. i'm not going to stop playing, but i can't keep my average score:death ratio to more than 1:10.
except when i play on crappy servers. which is sucky.
not that i haven't had some satisfying kills, but i really need to improve my aim.
i forgot to go shopping today - this weekend is going to be survived with peanut butter sandwiches and spaghetti with olive oil.
and water.
bugger.
well, i got up fairly early again.
for nothing, again.
i really don't like getting up early in the morning.
i tried working on the drivers doohickey - i've decided i really have no freakin' clue what's going on. i understand each step, but i really don't know how to use the damn thing.
this is like a new kind of torture device. i can make decent cash if only i can learn how to do this.
ooh, hell is a place on earth... (bad 80's reference)
basically, i spent the day in front of the computer again. my brain is abuzz with radiation and i'm seeing scan-lines everywhere. i really need a break.
i couldn't even bring myself to play counterstrike.
i set myself up with a sourceforge account, and i'm planning on putting some of my ideas online.
i really wanted to make money out of them, but i really don't think it's going to happen. so maybe the credibility will do me some good.
i've already begun writing the documents, i just have to make a cute little website, and then post it, and see what happens.
it's kinda sad though. these are MY babies.
*** today ***
it's now 04.30, and i've been at work since 22.20. i've been writing the documents, and doing a leeeeetle bit of timewasting, and even answered a few calls.
and i only fucked up one helpdesk report :{o> (i have a beard now that she's gone for the week. i've been eating food with amba on it, too, which is this nuclear stuff which tastes amazing, but leaves your breath foul for days).
*** later ***
i was meant to go to holon, a really shitty city south of tel aviv, but JOSH didn't answer his phone until it was too late to go, so that didn't happen.
would have been nice, could have chilled the weekend, and spun on his decks, and then sunday could have made a really short trip to the DMV equivalent to sort out my license conversion.
but NOOOOOOOOOOO.
basically, i spent the day in a stupor - slept sporadically, and played some cs, and read online comics, and searched in vain for my poetry collection.
i really hate losing stuff, and the past few days i've thought of loads of things that i haven't seen or heard or smelled in ages, that i just can't find anywhere...
at least i finally found my id documents.
i finally realized, after watching a few invader zim episodes, why moonflake kept saying "disgusting human worm-babies". it's contagious.
what worries me is, kids are allowed to watch this stuff? damn, but modern cartoons are DANGEROUS.
hido will appreciate this more than anyone else: i have learned, the hard way, that i absolutely stink at counterstrike. i'm not going to stop playing, but i can't keep my average score:death ratio to more than 1:10.
except when i play on crappy servers. which is sucky.
not that i haven't had some satisfying kills, but i really need to improve my aim.
i forgot to go shopping today - this weekend is going to be survived with peanut butter sandwiches and spaghetti with olive oil.
and water.
bugger.
Wednesday, July 16, 2003
16/07/03
*** yesterday ***
last night hido introduced to me to a site, where i can find out my friends' nicks on irc.
so i've been using it a lot - playing catch up for the first time in AGES.
*** today ***
i really didn't do anything useful today. i suck.
last night hido introduced to me to a site, where i can find out my friends' nicks on irc.
so i've been using it a lot - playing catch up for the first time in AGES.
*** today ***
i really didn't do anything useful today. i suck.
Tuesday, July 15, 2003
15/07/03
*** early morning ***
i went for a walk, as my mum told me, and it turned out to be an okay idea - i definitely didn't feel worse, and i did buy something to drink on the way back.
i managed to get onto a cs server :) - the only problem is once you start playing you completely lose track of time.
i meant to stop playing around 00.30, and it's now 02.30 and i still haven't gone to sleep.
i sucked at the beginning, but then i picked up my game later on. but it took me ages to get the ten or so frags that i did, and i really can't tell if these guys are that good or if my aiming is that bad.
time will tell.
good night.
*** later ***
i have the most comfortable bed in the whole world.
thank you, bed.
i woke up at 08.30 to try to sort my life out. at this rate, this is never going to happen... i made some calls, discovered that i didn't have to leave my room, and started playing cs - again.
between maps i did my washing, moved a step forward in gaining ftp access to the site i'm supposed to be working on (they keep changing the username/password, and then wonder why i'm not doing anything), and i think at some stage i had breakfast.
details.
i got a really important phone call, just as i turned a corner and into the barrel of someone's gun, and i had to be polite and friendly when all i could think of was "you killed me!".
eventually, around lunchtime, or a little later, i went to the shops to organize a lock for my door - if i'm going to sa for a couple of months then i'm not leaving it open.
i got back, installed the lock, and continued playing.
i forgot to mention that today was a beautiful day - i was meant to go surfing this morning (finally, we have some waves), but i forgot. turned out to be a good thing though.
herzliyah had another sewerage leak today, so the water's crap. and this happens regularly.
you'd think in a country being terraformed they'd use the shit for fertilization, and stop dumping (tee hee) it.
but then, you'd think they'd have set up desalinization plants already.
enough politicking: i got my fifth of six results today, and it is 73%.
quite frankly, i don't give a crap if i got one of the lowest scores, it's good enough for me.
it's looking more and more like i'm going to be studying next year...
imagine. me with a degree.
i've spent the rest of my day playing - in the last two maps, i managed to keep my score higher than my deaths! i'm very excited, these guys are good and i'm starting to return to my original 1337 skills.
if i ever seriously type something like that - i EXPECT someone to shoot me.
it's stoopud.
i've just had supper, and i'm seriously thinking of playing some more...
oh, yeah - i had a breakthrough this morning with the drivers - i've been studying this driver, which looks really complicated and is difficult to understand, for two weeks now.
this morning i realized that i don't have to deal with it at all, so i've wasted a lot of time...
only problem is that now that i know how to do it, in my head it's done, and i have no inclination to finish it.
typical.
i went for a walk, as my mum told me, and it turned out to be an okay idea - i definitely didn't feel worse, and i did buy something to drink on the way back.
i managed to get onto a cs server :) - the only problem is once you start playing you completely lose track of time.
i meant to stop playing around 00.30, and it's now 02.30 and i still haven't gone to sleep.
i sucked at the beginning, but then i picked up my game later on. but it took me ages to get the ten or so frags that i did, and i really can't tell if these guys are that good or if my aiming is that bad.
time will tell.
good night.
*** later ***
i have the most comfortable bed in the whole world.
thank you, bed.
i woke up at 08.30 to try to sort my life out. at this rate, this is never going to happen... i made some calls, discovered that i didn't have to leave my room, and started playing cs - again.
between maps i did my washing, moved a step forward in gaining ftp access to the site i'm supposed to be working on (they keep changing the username/password, and then wonder why i'm not doing anything), and i think at some stage i had breakfast.
details.
i got a really important phone call, just as i turned a corner and into the barrel of someone's gun, and i had to be polite and friendly when all i could think of was "you killed me!".
eventually, around lunchtime, or a little later, i went to the shops to organize a lock for my door - if i'm going to sa for a couple of months then i'm not leaving it open.
i got back, installed the lock, and continued playing.
i forgot to mention that today was a beautiful day - i was meant to go surfing this morning (finally, we have some waves), but i forgot. turned out to be a good thing though.
herzliyah had another sewerage leak today, so the water's crap. and this happens regularly.
you'd think in a country being terraformed they'd use the shit for fertilization, and stop dumping (tee hee) it.
but then, you'd think they'd have set up desalinization plants already.
enough politicking: i got my fifth of six results today, and it is 73%.
quite frankly, i don't give a crap if i got one of the lowest scores, it's good enough for me.
it's looking more and more like i'm going to be studying next year...
imagine. me with a degree.
i've spent the rest of my day playing - in the last two maps, i managed to keep my score higher than my deaths! i'm very excited, these guys are good and i'm starting to return to my original 1337 skills.
if i ever seriously type something like that - i EXPECT someone to shoot me.
it's stoopud.
i've just had supper, and i'm seriously thinking of playing some more...
oh, yeah - i had a breakthrough this morning with the drivers - i've been studying this driver, which looks really complicated and is difficult to understand, for two weeks now.
this morning i realized that i don't have to deal with it at all, so i've wasted a lot of time...
only problem is that now that i know how to do it, in my head it's done, and i have no inclination to finish it.
typical.
Monday, July 14, 2003
14/07/03
the last two days have had some pretty good moments, but my mood is severely shitty and i wanna break something.
*** yesterday ***
she slept here on saturday night, which was nice, but she had to be out of here around 7am, so i had to be up at that time to let her out.
i was supposed to go to campus, to sort out my social security problems, and to get some more results.
i also wanted to watch the rugby (sa vs. aus) which was at 9am.
i didn't do either, however surprising. i didn't go to the university because i was a) bombed and b) the person i needed to see wasn't in, and i didn't watch the rugby because i forgot (i was supposed to be in the university).
so i arbed around and wasted a perfectly useful morning.
*** the big news ***
early yesterday afternoon i discovered that my entire fucking pc (EVERY exe file) was infected with a virus. so i installed some antivirus software, but couldn't finish setting it up before i had to go to taekwondo.
that was extremely agitating.
taekwondo practice was with a group from kfar sava (the next city after ra'anana), in their gym. they're not olympic tkd, so the style's different - they do basic grappling and their legwork sucks.
they train in a bomb-shelter in the middle of a dump (not literally, but close). as you get to the entrance, the first thing that hits you is the distinctive lack of oxygen. the further down the steps you go, the more it smells like urine. and when you get to the bottom, it feels like someone's stuck your head in a heated urinal filled with vomit.
if you think my description's over-the-top, try to imagine doing heavy exercise and trying not to breathe at the same time.
oh - i don't think i emphasized the heat enough. it was like a really stuffy sauna.
there were two of us training, and we had to show up the other group (it's part of the training, apparently), and by the end of the two hours i was tired, soaked, sore, and willing to embrace death with open arms. i was also really frustrated - i've been doing tkd for myself, and i really didn't enjoy that training one bit.
i came home early, and began sorting out my machine. i really wanted to see her before she went off to camp for a week (as an instructor, bastards. i am NOT a paedophile.), but she had things to do and could only make it late (23.00).
i made myself supper, and arbed around until she got here, and while we were talking we both passed out.
we woke up sometime in the early morning (i'm guessing 1am, it's an easy number), both quite wobbly (it's been a tiring week for both of us), and we said goodbye and she went home.
*sniff*
*** today ***
i got up around 9am, and finalized the virus cleaning process. i then bladed to idc (the InterDisciplinary Center - my university), and received some extremely pleasing news - i received 85% for our exam in critical thinking, and 77% for macroeconomics!
i don't care if 85% was an average grade, and i honestly thought that i'd failed macro... so i'm happy with that.
i also discovered that in two years i've achieved 100 credits, and i have 28 more to go to get my degree. now unfortunately, that means a LOT of courses in my final year, but there's now a good chance that i'll do it, and that means that i can finish the degree before going to the army.
obviously, i still have to convince the army of that. but if i can, then i can go to sa on holiday in august.
i'm not holding my breath, though.
after eating a heavy lunch in the campus cafeteria (which is actually quite good), i made my sweaty way back home, and then went to work, to sit in on the usual, pointless status meeting.
and got suckered into doing some QA - so i only got home around 20.30.
at least the pay's good.
it's now 21.30, and i was supposed to be at tkd an hour ago, but after last night i just don't care.
and i'm annoyed at my argentinian flatmate, who left the boiler on, the gateway machine off, and has left all the american's dishes to me.
sod them both.
i'm now tired, and lonely, and restless - i don't want to sleep, and i don't want to do anything else.
maybe counterstrike will help - if it doesn't annoy me more by not connecting to any servers.
wake me when it's over.
*** yesterday ***
she slept here on saturday night, which was nice, but she had to be out of here around 7am, so i had to be up at that time to let her out.
i was supposed to go to campus, to sort out my social security problems, and to get some more results.
i also wanted to watch the rugby (sa vs. aus) which was at 9am.
i didn't do either, however surprising. i didn't go to the university because i was a) bombed and b) the person i needed to see wasn't in, and i didn't watch the rugby because i forgot (i was supposed to be in the university).
so i arbed around and wasted a perfectly useful morning.
*** the big news ***
early yesterday afternoon i discovered that my entire fucking pc (EVERY exe file) was infected with a virus. so i installed some antivirus software, but couldn't finish setting it up before i had to go to taekwondo.
that was extremely agitating.
taekwondo practice was with a group from kfar sava (the next city after ra'anana), in their gym. they're not olympic tkd, so the style's different - they do basic grappling and their legwork sucks.
they train in a bomb-shelter in the middle of a dump (not literally, but close). as you get to the entrance, the first thing that hits you is the distinctive lack of oxygen. the further down the steps you go, the more it smells like urine. and when you get to the bottom, it feels like someone's stuck your head in a heated urinal filled with vomit.
if you think my description's over-the-top, try to imagine doing heavy exercise and trying not to breathe at the same time.
oh - i don't think i emphasized the heat enough. it was like a really stuffy sauna.
there were two of us training, and we had to show up the other group (it's part of the training, apparently), and by the end of the two hours i was tired, soaked, sore, and willing to embrace death with open arms. i was also really frustrated - i've been doing tkd for myself, and i really didn't enjoy that training one bit.
i came home early, and began sorting out my machine. i really wanted to see her before she went off to camp for a week (as an instructor, bastards. i am NOT a paedophile.), but she had things to do and could only make it late (23.00).
i made myself supper, and arbed around until she got here, and while we were talking we both passed out.
we woke up sometime in the early morning (i'm guessing 1am, it's an easy number), both quite wobbly (it's been a tiring week for both of us), and we said goodbye and she went home.
*sniff*
*** today ***
i got up around 9am, and finalized the virus cleaning process. i then bladed to idc (the InterDisciplinary Center - my university), and received some extremely pleasing news - i received 85% for our exam in critical thinking, and 77% for macroeconomics!
i don't care if 85% was an average grade, and i honestly thought that i'd failed macro... so i'm happy with that.
i also discovered that in two years i've achieved 100 credits, and i have 28 more to go to get my degree. now unfortunately, that means a LOT of courses in my final year, but there's now a good chance that i'll do it, and that means that i can finish the degree before going to the army.
obviously, i still have to convince the army of that. but if i can, then i can go to sa on holiday in august.
i'm not holding my breath, though.
after eating a heavy lunch in the campus cafeteria (which is actually quite good), i made my sweaty way back home, and then went to work, to sit in on the usual, pointless status meeting.
and got suckered into doing some QA - so i only got home around 20.30.
at least the pay's good.
it's now 21.30, and i was supposed to be at tkd an hour ago, but after last night i just don't care.
and i'm annoyed at my argentinian flatmate, who left the boiler on, the gateway machine off, and has left all the american's dishes to me.
sod them both.
i'm now tired, and lonely, and restless - i don't want to sleep, and i don't want to do anything else.
maybe counterstrike will help - if it doesn't annoy me more by not connecting to any servers.
wake me when it's over.
Saturday, July 12, 2003
12/07/03
What a long, long time it's been since my last update. i feel like reality has struck with painful precision - and yet i know that it has yet to unleash its worst.
*** yesterday ***
yesterday was a beautiful day on the kibbutz, although i was exhausted and it took me a couple of hours to get up.
i ate chocolate cake for breakfast, played some stupid game on the pc, and went for a couple of short walks (shopping without money).
it was then "pack and go" time. it was already getting hot, and i really didn't want to leave.
the bus ride was quite long - i met a rather interesting soldier who had very little english, so i got a bit of hebrew practice, and we had a fairly comical conversation.
she picked me up from the busstop, and i went to her place (parents away) to pig out and rest.
she went out for a few hours, and when she returned we went to sleep.
i had some SERIOUSLY messed up dreams last night - nightmares within nightmares, which i thought only happened in bad movies. my deepest sympathies to all those who've had that experience.
*** today ***
the day started off slow, had a few minutes of regular time, and returned to a pace that is absolutely destroying me.
i have work to do, plenty of it actually, and i just can't get around to doing it.
the invader zim download finally finished, but unfortunately episodes 12 and 13 are fucked. oh well. but i watched the first three and they are GOOD.
i had leftover pizza from a few days ago and it didn't kill me. not yet, anyway. i'm taking this as a good sign.
tomorrow morning, fox sport is covering the opening game of the tri-nations rugby... i actually want to watch. what absolutely bites is that i have to be up and outta here early to go and sort out the mess at wingate, caused by the Very Responsible Organizer Person neither answering his phone, nor responding to his voice mail.
biznatch.
i gotta get away from this pc. my brain's buzzing.
*** later ***
i had a shower, which was the first proper one in days (does nobody in this country keep soap in the shower?), and was on my way to bed when she called, and told me to be ready in ten.
we went shopping for a friend of her's, who's about to go into the army - so as usual all my advice was ignored until the last minute...
but we managed a rather nice, and useful gift. based both on the needs of someone in basics, and girly properties that cannot be fully understood by any heterosexual man.
after i got back, i watched yet another episode of hunter x hunter, and then decided to give counterstrike another chance.
THAT was by far the most brilliant decision of the day.
my average ping was about 200, and so i played, and played, and played some more (this is about three or four hours). and it has been fair, and i have played well.
some of the guys on the server were REALLY good - there's was a constant challenge and loads of frustration, but nothing that could take away from my sheer delight at finally being able to play the damn game!
side note: sniping in the middle of a gun battle is f**king insane - the adrenaline kicked in and i managed six frags within fifteen seconds... oh yeah!
*** yesterday ***
yesterday was a beautiful day on the kibbutz, although i was exhausted and it took me a couple of hours to get up.
i ate chocolate cake for breakfast, played some stupid game on the pc, and went for a couple of short walks (shopping without money).
it was then "pack and go" time. it was already getting hot, and i really didn't want to leave.
the bus ride was quite long - i met a rather interesting soldier who had very little english, so i got a bit of hebrew practice, and we had a fairly comical conversation.
she picked me up from the busstop, and i went to her place (parents away) to pig out and rest.
she went out for a few hours, and when she returned we went to sleep.
i had some SERIOUSLY messed up dreams last night - nightmares within nightmares, which i thought only happened in bad movies. my deepest sympathies to all those who've had that experience.
*** today ***
the day started off slow, had a few minutes of regular time, and returned to a pace that is absolutely destroying me.
i have work to do, plenty of it actually, and i just can't get around to doing it.
the invader zim download finally finished, but unfortunately episodes 12 and 13 are fucked. oh well. but i watched the first three and they are GOOD.
i had leftover pizza from a few days ago and it didn't kill me. not yet, anyway. i'm taking this as a good sign.
tomorrow morning, fox sport is covering the opening game of the tri-nations rugby... i actually want to watch. what absolutely bites is that i have to be up and outta here early to go and sort out the mess at wingate, caused by the Very Responsible Organizer Person neither answering his phone, nor responding to his voice mail.
biznatch.
i gotta get away from this pc. my brain's buzzing.
*** later ***
i had a shower, which was the first proper one in days (does nobody in this country keep soap in the shower?), and was on my way to bed when she called, and told me to be ready in ten.
we went shopping for a friend of her's, who's about to go into the army - so as usual all my advice was ignored until the last minute...
but we managed a rather nice, and useful gift. based both on the needs of someone in basics, and girly properties that cannot be fully understood by any heterosexual man.
after i got back, i watched yet another episode of hunter x hunter, and then decided to give counterstrike another chance.
THAT was by far the most brilliant decision of the day.
my average ping was about 200, and so i played, and played, and played some more (this is about three or four hours). and it has been fair, and i have played well.
some of the guys on the server were REALLY good - there's was a constant challenge and loads of frustration, but nothing that could take away from my sheer delight at finally being able to play the damn game!
side note: sniping in the middle of a gun battle is f**king insane - the adrenaline kicked in and i managed six frags within fifteen seconds... oh yeah!
Thursday, July 10, 2003
10/07/03
i discovered last night that the girl that i met at the busstop was in the same class as her best friend! small world indeed.
i went to bed around midnight last night, or thereabouts (i think, at any rate), but i couldn't get to sleep until around 1 or 2am. i was finally relaxed for the first time in months, and it's as if my brain was on fire!
i kept having all these really good ideas, and i just HAD to write all of them down.
i woke up around 05.30, tired but my mind was still hyperactive: i lay there for an hour and a half unable to sleep, just thinking. around 7am i got up, wrote down some of my thoughts, and took the dog for a run around the kibbutz.
afterwards, i went for communal breakfast, which is nice and easy, and i learned a really nifty trick for removing the shell from boiled eggs.
i swam for a bit - but when i say a bit i mean i swam three lengths and just couldn't do any more.
and i used to be a good swimmer. it kinda sucks to be all out of breath when you haven't done anything.
so i spent the day chilling.
yep, that's what i do when i come here.
the ceremony / celebration / show was nice, the food was both good and plentiful, and now it's time for some sleep.
more is nog 'n dag.
i went to bed around midnight last night, or thereabouts (i think, at any rate), but i couldn't get to sleep until around 1 or 2am. i was finally relaxed for the first time in months, and it's as if my brain was on fire!
i kept having all these really good ideas, and i just HAD to write all of them down.
i woke up around 05.30, tired but my mind was still hyperactive: i lay there for an hour and a half unable to sleep, just thinking. around 7am i got up, wrote down some of my thoughts, and took the dog for a run around the kibbutz.
afterwards, i went for communal breakfast, which is nice and easy, and i learned a really nifty trick for removing the shell from boiled eggs.
i swam for a bit - but when i say a bit i mean i swam three lengths and just couldn't do any more.
and i used to be a good swimmer. it kinda sucks to be all out of breath when you haven't done anything.
so i spent the day chilling.
yep, that's what i do when i come here.
the ceremony / celebration / show was nice, the food was both good and plentiful, and now it's time for some sleep.
more is nog 'n dag.
Wednesday, July 09, 2003
09/07/03
i had serious pizza-dream last night.
and i feel compelled to share it. any analysis will be welcome, although anyone who's nasty about it gets a ten-pound hammer up the bunghole.
*** dream starts ***
it started off with me and her going to some dingy metal / rock club. we were parking off outside, and i had to go inside to get something.
instead of being bounced, i was put on a bus which went to a place that looked remarkably like glengariff road. but there was a kiosk / corner cafe in a side street that was definitely israeli.
i was then walking through the streets with this guy, who i didn't want to be walking with, and we were joined by someone else whose face i couldn't see.
i had on me a pentax camera that my mommy had given me before we left.
these two guys were trying to get the camera, and were going to kill me for it - strange thing was that all three of us had our hands tied to the front of our pants, and our pants were hanging around our thighs, so we were "running" very slowly.
so it was kinda like the slow-motion running away dream, but not quite.
*** dream ends ***
i woke up at 08.30 this morning to go to work, and my legs HURT. but i got dressed and made it outside just in time to get a ride with sammy.
unlike yesterday. i couldn't wake up yesterday.
work went smoothly - i goofed off for an hour, and we managed to get the job done in record time (i AM efficient, if nothing else), and i got a ride home with sammy again. i really like his new car - it's a citroen xsara, very slick and cute.
i went with her to have coffee, and to buy a card for my cousin's batmitvah - a picture she took was used for an advertisment on the back cover of a major art magazine! so we bought a copy along with the august wired, which i plan on reading on the bus tonight (if i don't pass out immediately).
so that's it then - i'm off in a bit (after a shave, of course) to greener pastures (literally), although i'll probably be able to update this from there.
if not - miss me.
*** later ***
god, it's so nice up here! everything's green, there's less heat and humidity, and everything is so laid back and chilled that one can't help but relax.
sometime in the past couple of months i bought my cousin a little elephant (she collects them), and this afternoon when she was helping me buy a card, we found another one: this one a toy where you press the button underneath and it collapses.
you know the type i'm talking about.
anyway, my cousin absolutely LOVED both of them - i am most pleased. the birthday / batmitzvah girl will be getting a present from sa, and hopefully i'll be buying and carrying it personally.
i had an interesting experience waiting for the bus here today - i met this girl many months ago while waiting at a busstop in herzeliya, and we talked for a while before going our separate ways.
very interesting girl, with a brother in japan and a sister in china somewhere, and with plans of her own to go thereabouts. plus she's semi-goth / semi-hippie. only problem at the time was that she was a little young for me, or i would have considered getting her number.
so i was sitting on the wall by the busstop, reading my new magazine, when i heard someone say, in hebrew, "your name's [my name here], right?".
so i look, and i'm STRUGGLING to remember her name, because it's not a common one. i got close (i remembered the translation had something to do with an eye), so she was impressed, and we resumed where we'd left off.
once again, i didn't get her number. this time, though, was only because of her - i don't want this girl to think i'm interested.
however, if there's a next time then i think i will get it - you never know who's good to know.
they have this cute concept in israel - "third time's an ice-cream". it doesn't translate well directly, but basically it's a warning: when you do something to someone three times, like stepping on their heels, you have to buy them an ice-cream. it applies for stuff like meeting people coincidentally too, so next time, whoever says it first gets one.
i just can't get over the atmosphere here - i adjusted immediately on arrival. it's nice that it's almost as if i hadn't left, and the last time that i was here was over two and a half months ago.
i know this because i was here the weekend she and i decided to hook up.
awww.
that's about it for today (i think it's been enough). it was all in all a really nice day.
and i feel compelled to share it. any analysis will be welcome, although anyone who's nasty about it gets a ten-pound hammer up the bunghole.
*** dream starts ***
it started off with me and her going to some dingy metal / rock club. we were parking off outside, and i had to go inside to get something.
instead of being bounced, i was put on a bus which went to a place that looked remarkably like glengariff road. but there was a kiosk / corner cafe in a side street that was definitely israeli.
i was then walking through the streets with this guy, who i didn't want to be walking with, and we were joined by someone else whose face i couldn't see.
i had on me a pentax camera that my mommy had given me before we left.
these two guys were trying to get the camera, and were going to kill me for it - strange thing was that all three of us had our hands tied to the front of our pants, and our pants were hanging around our thighs, so we were "running" very slowly.
so it was kinda like the slow-motion running away dream, but not quite.
*** dream ends ***
i woke up at 08.30 this morning to go to work, and my legs HURT. but i got dressed and made it outside just in time to get a ride with sammy.
unlike yesterday. i couldn't wake up yesterday.
work went smoothly - i goofed off for an hour, and we managed to get the job done in record time (i AM efficient, if nothing else), and i got a ride home with sammy again. i really like his new car - it's a citroen xsara, very slick and cute.
i went with her to have coffee, and to buy a card for my cousin's batmitvah - a picture she took was used for an advertisment on the back cover of a major art magazine! so we bought a copy along with the august wired, which i plan on reading on the bus tonight (if i don't pass out immediately).
so that's it then - i'm off in a bit (after a shave, of course) to greener pastures (literally), although i'll probably be able to update this from there.
if not - miss me.
*** later ***
god, it's so nice up here! everything's green, there's less heat and humidity, and everything is so laid back and chilled that one can't help but relax.
sometime in the past couple of months i bought my cousin a little elephant (she collects them), and this afternoon when she was helping me buy a card, we found another one: this one a toy where you press the button underneath and it collapses.
you know the type i'm talking about.
anyway, my cousin absolutely LOVED both of them - i am most pleased. the birthday / batmitzvah girl will be getting a present from sa, and hopefully i'll be buying and carrying it personally.
i had an interesting experience waiting for the bus here today - i met this girl many months ago while waiting at a busstop in herzeliya, and we talked for a while before going our separate ways.
very interesting girl, with a brother in japan and a sister in china somewhere, and with plans of her own to go thereabouts. plus she's semi-goth / semi-hippie. only problem at the time was that she was a little young for me, or i would have considered getting her number.
so i was sitting on the wall by the busstop, reading my new magazine, when i heard someone say, in hebrew, "your name's [my name here], right?".
so i look, and i'm STRUGGLING to remember her name, because it's not a common one. i got close (i remembered the translation had something to do with an eye), so she was impressed, and we resumed where we'd left off.
once again, i didn't get her number. this time, though, was only because of her - i don't want this girl to think i'm interested.
however, if there's a next time then i think i will get it - you never know who's good to know.
they have this cute concept in israel - "third time's an ice-cream". it doesn't translate well directly, but basically it's a warning: when you do something to someone three times, like stepping on their heels, you have to buy them an ice-cream. it applies for stuff like meeting people coincidentally too, so next time, whoever says it first gets one.
i just can't get over the atmosphere here - i adjusted immediately on arrival. it's nice that it's almost as if i hadn't left, and the last time that i was here was over two and a half months ago.
i know this because i was here the weekend she and i decided to hook up.
awww.
that's about it for today (i think it's been enough). it was all in all a really nice day.
Tuesday, July 08, 2003
08/07/03
*** yesterday ***
i woke up at 7am to go to the wingate institute, in an attempt to discover the truth behind the language barrier.
on the way (between bus stops), i was introduced to this really crazy pet shop. when you walk in, it's an ordinary pet products store. if you know where to look, there's a hidden flight of stairs, and when you go down them, you find yourself in this enormous pet store, with rabbits and hamsters and dogs and cats and birds, and more fish than you can stick a shake at!
anyway, we eventually got there, and i was introduced to the organizer of the course. he's quite a nice man, and seemingly smart - but he talks a lot. and he repeats himself a lot. i think he was trying to impress something upon me, but it meandered off somewhere and got lost.
anyway, i got some of the course material, got booked for the algometric exam (the test to see if you're going to die real soon), and an explanation of how it's my problem if i'm unable to complete the course. R10,000 on the table, i'm doing some severe thinking about it. especially considering that i don't have that kind of money.
i got home, and made what i consider to be a valiant attempt at reading the book on anatomy. it only took me about twenty minutes to read and understand the first paragraph, which is in pretty good time for me.
and i even remember most of the words.
but it's still not good enough to read a book a week and be able to understand and answer questions in an exam. even though the material's fairly simple.
i bladed to training around 16.30, i trained real hard and stretched a lot until 22.00, and got home around 23.00.
broken.
at one point during the training i had a really freaky experience. i've seen people with sweat dripping from their faces, as it's hot and humid and we're training seriously. but for a few seconds sweat was literally pouring down my face, like when you dribble water out of a bottle.
insane.
*** today ***
i got to sleep last night at around midnight, and i was meant to get up at 7am again for a taekwondo fighting lesson. i have no recollection of turning my alarm off (a feeling not wholly unfamiliar to me), and i was woken by my instructor asking me where the hell i was.
after several failed attempts, i gave up trying to get out of bed and called in damaged.
it's now 12.11 as i write this, and i am HURTING. i have so much stuff that i've got to do, and i am completely wasted. and all sorts of weird dreams last night didn't help.
on the positive side of things, today's gaming day - a few hours of multiplayer half-life and starcraft with sammy.
*yay*
*** later ***
i didn't suck in starcraft! he still destroyed me, but i put up a decent fight (i was human, he was protoss), and i learned a lot for next time.
i love human beings. never could figure them out, but they're a very sweet moronic race. we should do something about that.
i don't know how to explain what happened today - but it was very, very stupid.
*** later ***
i got her to watch thursday with me, and surprisingly enough, she actually enjoyed it!
and here i was thinking that she had no taste (she hated akira and refused to watch johnny mnemonic after the intro).
and i enjoyed watching it again too.
supper was a typical israeli pizza - by sa or usa standards we wouldn't touch it, by israeli it was pretty good - it's hours later and i'm stuffed. i reckon it's pizza-dream time soon.
i tested command & conquer: generals: it is pretty and it runs on my machine. what i didn't realize is that i had about 50MB left on my harddisk after installing, which explains why it ran slowly and with a few jumps.
i really need a harddisk with more than 10GB on it.
anyone caring enough, mail me and i'll set up one of those whatsits that allows people to donate money to me.
i have been inspired by the wiki system - i'm considering putting up a section for recent changes. i hope it's reasonable.
i woke up at 7am to go to the wingate institute, in an attempt to discover the truth behind the language barrier.
on the way (between bus stops), i was introduced to this really crazy pet shop. when you walk in, it's an ordinary pet products store. if you know where to look, there's a hidden flight of stairs, and when you go down them, you find yourself in this enormous pet store, with rabbits and hamsters and dogs and cats and birds, and more fish than you can stick a shake at!
anyway, we eventually got there, and i was introduced to the organizer of the course. he's quite a nice man, and seemingly smart - but he talks a lot. and he repeats himself a lot. i think he was trying to impress something upon me, but it meandered off somewhere and got lost.
anyway, i got some of the course material, got booked for the algometric exam (the test to see if you're going to die real soon), and an explanation of how it's my problem if i'm unable to complete the course. R10,000 on the table, i'm doing some severe thinking about it. especially considering that i don't have that kind of money.
i got home, and made what i consider to be a valiant attempt at reading the book on anatomy. it only took me about twenty minutes to read and understand the first paragraph, which is in pretty good time for me.
and i even remember most of the words.
but it's still not good enough to read a book a week and be able to understand and answer questions in an exam. even though the material's fairly simple.
i bladed to training around 16.30, i trained real hard and stretched a lot until 22.00, and got home around 23.00.
broken.
at one point during the training i had a really freaky experience. i've seen people with sweat dripping from their faces, as it's hot and humid and we're training seriously. but for a few seconds sweat was literally pouring down my face, like when you dribble water out of a bottle.
insane.
*** today ***
i got to sleep last night at around midnight, and i was meant to get up at 7am again for a taekwondo fighting lesson. i have no recollection of turning my alarm off (a feeling not wholly unfamiliar to me), and i was woken by my instructor asking me where the hell i was.
after several failed attempts, i gave up trying to get out of bed and called in damaged.
it's now 12.11 as i write this, and i am HURTING. i have so much stuff that i've got to do, and i am completely wasted. and all sorts of weird dreams last night didn't help.
on the positive side of things, today's gaming day - a few hours of multiplayer half-life and starcraft with sammy.
*yay*
*** later ***
i didn't suck in starcraft! he still destroyed me, but i put up a decent fight (i was human, he was protoss), and i learned a lot for next time.
i love human beings. never could figure them out, but they're a very sweet moronic race. we should do something about that.
i don't know how to explain what happened today - but it was very, very stupid.
*** later ***
i got her to watch thursday with me, and surprisingly enough, she actually enjoyed it!
and here i was thinking that she had no taste (she hated akira and refused to watch johnny mnemonic after the intro).
and i enjoyed watching it again too.
supper was a typical israeli pizza - by sa or usa standards we wouldn't touch it, by israeli it was pretty good - it's hours later and i'm stuffed. i reckon it's pizza-dream time soon.
i tested command & conquer: generals: it is pretty and it runs on my machine. what i didn't realize is that i had about 50MB left on my harddisk after installing, which explains why it ran slowly and with a few jumps.
i really need a harddisk with more than 10GB on it.
anyone caring enough, mail me and i'll set up one of those whatsits that allows people to donate money to me.
i have been inspired by the wiki system - i'm considering putting up a section for recent changes. i hope it's reasonable.
Sunday, July 06, 2003
06/07/03
last night i spoke to my instructor, who's no longer certain that i should go to the instructor's course.
this morning i went to sort out the social security issue. it turns out that they can't really help me, but we've managed to delay their retribution a bit.
i went to get my results.
for the BIG exam of the semester, investment theory.
i
got
this is abso-$#%@ing-lutely AMAZING!!!
i'm going to arb around campus for a bit, dancing my little jig, generally being happy. this is SUCH a relief.
*** later ***
she's gone to her prom. without me.
hmmph. oh well, not much i can do. i went shoe shopping with her this afternoon, so i think i've done my bit.
grootbek convinced me to accompany him to the mall this evening, which was the biggest mistake. he went shopping for his sister and mother - as if this afternoon wasn't enough!
do i LOOK like a shopping fairy?
i did get ice-cream out of him, so i suppose it's all right.
so the good news is, we're rid of him for MONTHS! he's on his way back to the states tonight.
i've inherited his full length mirror, mosquito killer, and a box of really sugary american candy.
um, so that just about covers everything. except for the fact that i just discovered, while closing my room up in preparation for the airconditioner, some alien creature has been laying eggs on my windowsill.
i ain't never seen shit like that before in my life - i used a dustpan and some tissue, and they're probably going to hatch in our trash can and get revenge by morning.
oh, yeah, and i played counterstrike today.
in spite of the lag - roughly 500 on average, i still maintained 2nd place with seven or eight people on each team. i'm still good! i was worried. the only thing that kills me is the lag, for which there's no real solution. there aren't any israeli servers, and our connection's not that good (i'm behind an xp system...)
i got a call from the drivers dude - turns out i don't need to know all the shit i've been studying. ignoring the waste of time and brain-power (lacking), this is pretty good news. only the description he gave me seems too simple.
i wonder if i'm gonna get fucked again.
oh well. there's nothing to lose but sleep. and dignity.
and money. and err... i better stop there.
this morning i went to sort out the social security issue. it turns out that they can't really help me, but we've managed to delay their retribution a bit.
i went to get my results.
for the BIG exam of the semester, investment theory.
i
got
84%!
this is abso-$#%@ing-lutely AMAZING!!!
i'm going to arb around campus for a bit, dancing my little jig, generally being happy. this is SUCH a relief.
*** later ***
she's gone to her prom. without me.
hmmph. oh well, not much i can do. i went shoe shopping with her this afternoon, so i think i've done my bit.
grootbek convinced me to accompany him to the mall this evening, which was the biggest mistake. he went shopping for his sister and mother - as if this afternoon wasn't enough!
do i LOOK like a shopping fairy?
i did get ice-cream out of him, so i suppose it's all right.
so the good news is, we're rid of him for MONTHS! he's on his way back to the states tonight.
i've inherited his full length mirror, mosquito killer, and a box of really sugary american candy.
um, so that just about covers everything. except for the fact that i just discovered, while closing my room up in preparation for the airconditioner, some alien creature has been laying eggs on my windowsill.
i ain't never seen shit like that before in my life - i used a dustpan and some tissue, and they're probably going to hatch in our trash can and get revenge by morning.
oh, yeah, and i played counterstrike today.
in spite of the lag - roughly 500 on average, i still maintained 2nd place with seven or eight people on each team. i'm still good! i was worried. the only thing that kills me is the lag, for which there's no real solution. there aren't any israeli servers, and our connection's not that good (i'm behind an xp system...)
i got a call from the drivers dude - turns out i don't need to know all the shit i've been studying. ignoring the waste of time and brain-power (lacking), this is pretty good news. only the description he gave me seems too simple.
i wonder if i'm gonna get fucked again.
oh well. there's nothing to lose but sleep. and dignity.
and money. and err... i better stop there.
Saturday, July 05, 2003
05/07/03
i woke up around 10/11am this morning, and immediately glued myself to my pc.
i spent the day watching the two hunter x hunter episodes and reading mac hall. also made many futile attempts to play counterstrike: i paid approximately R200 to be told by servers all over the world that i'm using the wrong protocol.
i washed ALL the floors in our apartment today - i'm quite proud of my level of sophisticated domestication.
while i was waiting for the floor to dry, i turned on the tv, and AI was showing.
i'd forgotten what a serious, sad film it is. also, just how long it is...
we had a "do" at my cousins' place tonight, and i ate so much it's unbelievable. 400g steak, juicy and so tender that when i touched the knife to it it opened up like a blooming flower.
add to that four or five kebabs, and a general assortment of veggies, by the time i was done i could barely breathe.
i have to be up early tomorrow morning to go to the wingate institute (to sort out all the details of my taekwondo teacher's course), and then it's mad rush time for our marketing project, which grootbek was so nice enough as to not only leave for the last minute, but he's leaving on monday for the states.
i don't care if i've mentioned this before, it pisses me off. but i'm not freaked out about it.
what will be, will be - it's really not my fault that we're in this mess, and if it comes to the worst i'll go and explain the story to our lecturer.
at least my psychotic american "friend" who's working with us will back me up.
due to heavy feasting tonight i shall as a baby sleep.
*** later ***
surprise. anyways - i managed to get onto a cs server! 1.6 even! and the game was smooth, although i lagged twice and both times died from it... :(. but all in all i'm a happy non-camper!
i spent the day watching the two hunter x hunter episodes and reading mac hall. also made many futile attempts to play counterstrike: i paid approximately R200 to be told by servers all over the world that i'm using the wrong protocol.
i washed ALL the floors in our apartment today - i'm quite proud of my level of sophisticated domestication.
while i was waiting for the floor to dry, i turned on the tv, and AI was showing.
i'd forgotten what a serious, sad film it is. also, just how long it is...
we had a "do" at my cousins' place tonight, and i ate so much it's unbelievable. 400g steak, juicy and so tender that when i touched the knife to it it opened up like a blooming flower.
add to that four or five kebabs, and a general assortment of veggies, by the time i was done i could barely breathe.
i have to be up early tomorrow morning to go to the wingate institute (to sort out all the details of my taekwondo teacher's course), and then it's mad rush time for our marketing project, which grootbek was so nice enough as to not only leave for the last minute, but he's leaving on monday for the states.
i don't care if i've mentioned this before, it pisses me off. but i'm not freaked out about it.
what will be, will be - it's really not my fault that we're in this mess, and if it comes to the worst i'll go and explain the story to our lecturer.
at least my psychotic american "friend" who's working with us will back me up.
due to heavy feasting tonight i shall as a baby sleep.
*** later ***
surprise. anyways - i managed to get onto a cs server! 1.6 even! and the game was smooth, although i lagged twice and both times died from it... :(. but all in all i'm a happy non-camper!
Friday, July 04, 2003
04/07/03
all things considered today was a nice, nice day.
i woke up sometime between 10am and 12.00, after going to bed at around 5am (cross-eyed, mind you), and the first thing i noticed was a big fat roach swimming in our toilet bowl.
i really hate those things, so i had two things to do.
1) clean my room
2) buy roach killer
cleaning my room was a bitch - i haven't even thought about it in more than 6 months, and my room is still in cardboard boxes from my last move.
so i had to take everything out, which was not so simple, and found a shirt to mop the floor with. and used my bedside trash can as a bucket.
while i was at it, clearing out small colonies of rather advanced creatures (performing small experiments with their eggs, and so on), i decided to re-arrange a little, with interesting results. the only thing is, i couldn't find anything decent to get rid of roaches, and i was forced to settle on spray, which is far from ideal (especially considering that dead roaches attract their friends. imagine if humans were like that!).
while i was out shopping, i actually bought (exchanged money for) the original half-life. i spent most of the day upgrading and trying to connect to the neojapangz server.
this was not meant to be.
hido finally uploaded the missing hunter x hunter episodes! i can finally put this series to rest!
i finally got the vodacom sms doodah working - go take a look.
that's all the big news.
it's very late, and i'm practically dead, so i'm gonna try to get some rest before tomorrow hits me.
i woke up sometime between 10am and 12.00, after going to bed at around 5am (cross-eyed, mind you), and the first thing i noticed was a big fat roach swimming in our toilet bowl.
i really hate those things, so i had two things to do.
1) clean my room
2) buy roach killer
cleaning my room was a bitch - i haven't even thought about it in more than 6 months, and my room is still in cardboard boxes from my last move.
so i had to take everything out, which was not so simple, and found a shirt to mop the floor with. and used my bedside trash can as a bucket.
while i was at it, clearing out small colonies of rather advanced creatures (performing small experiments with their eggs, and so on), i decided to re-arrange a little, with interesting results. the only thing is, i couldn't find anything decent to get rid of roaches, and i was forced to settle on spray, which is far from ideal (especially considering that dead roaches attract their friends. imagine if humans were like that!).
while i was out shopping, i actually bought (exchanged money for) the original half-life. i spent most of the day upgrading and trying to connect to the neojapangz server.
this was not meant to be.
hido finally uploaded the missing hunter x hunter episodes! i can finally put this series to rest!
i finally got the vodacom sms doodah working - go take a look.
that's all the big news.
it's very late, and i'm practically dead, so i'm gonna try to get some rest before tomorrow hits me.
Thursday, July 03, 2003
03/07/03
i've been trying all day to get the vodacom internet sms whatsit to work, and now i'm not sure if it does or doesn't. thanks to synkronos for the inspiration and advice (things not to do).
i haven't even thought of touching my tron game, and i definitely can't read the ddk stuff now.
my brain is fried and yet i still feel compelled to abuse my 'puter.
instead of studying today, i played starcraft (did a bang-up job on level 10, when the zerg overran i destroyed the little bastards), and read a bit of count zero.
invader zim is 20% and climbing, albeit ever so slowly. i kinda imagined that bittorrent would be faster than kazaa: i'm such a dreamer.
we have a marketing project that's due on wednesday - this is the biggest contributor to our final grade (ie if we don't do well i FAIL, regardless of supplementary exams). and grootbek, who's in charge of our group, is leaving on monday for the states. and we haven't even begun the nasty stuff yet. bugger.
the exam in corporate law was okay - i spoke a lot of legalese (read: crap), and generally bullshitted my way to filling in 85% of the paper. i was only 70% of the way through when i realized that we only had half an hour left...
*scribble* *scribble*
after the exam i chilled with the guys who work in our campus computer labs - every thursday evening is "happy hour", lots and lots of free booze and munchies. jack daniels and jonny walker type of booze, with some cheap tequila and vodka (written wodka in israel) thrown in.
i didn't drink. not for any other reason than that i had to go to training tonight. not that i could so much as walk in a straight line, but anywho i bladed there and absolutely killed myself with warmup and stretching.
and then there was fighting. twice i got kicked in the head, one of those to the eye, and i was tired, and hurting all over.
the guys i train with realized tonight, for the first time, that i really don't know how to fight. i kept trying to explain to them that the gold medal i won was a fluke, and they thought that i had a problem with self-confidence, so they kept telling me that i'm fine.
it's infuriating to watch yourself screw up and then have others tell you it's okay, like you're some sort of retard.
err... sorry, challenged person.
one of her best friends (male) has a visitor (female) from the states, so we took them out to play pool in ra'anana. it was quite fun, although i'm the only one who really knows how to play (she's getting better, but it takes time).
if there's one thing they know how to make in this country, it's ice-cream.
i haven't even thought of touching my tron game, and i definitely can't read the ddk stuff now.
my brain is fried and yet i still feel compelled to abuse my 'puter.
instead of studying today, i played starcraft (did a bang-up job on level 10, when the zerg overran i destroyed the little bastards), and read a bit of count zero.
invader zim is 20% and climbing, albeit ever so slowly. i kinda imagined that bittorrent would be faster than kazaa: i'm such a dreamer.
we have a marketing project that's due on wednesday - this is the biggest contributor to our final grade (ie if we don't do well i FAIL, regardless of supplementary exams). and grootbek, who's in charge of our group, is leaving on monday for the states. and we haven't even begun the nasty stuff yet. bugger.
the exam in corporate law was okay - i spoke a lot of legalese (read: crap), and generally bullshitted my way to filling in 85% of the paper. i was only 70% of the way through when i realized that we only had half an hour left...
*scribble* *scribble*
after the exam i chilled with the guys who work in our campus computer labs - every thursday evening is "happy hour", lots and lots of free booze and munchies. jack daniels and jonny walker type of booze, with some cheap tequila and vodka (written wodka in israel) thrown in.
i didn't drink. not for any other reason than that i had to go to training tonight. not that i could so much as walk in a straight line, but anywho i bladed there and absolutely killed myself with warmup and stretching.
and then there was fighting. twice i got kicked in the head, one of those to the eye, and i was tired, and hurting all over.
the guys i train with realized tonight, for the first time, that i really don't know how to fight. i kept trying to explain to them that the gold medal i won was a fluke, and they thought that i had a problem with self-confidence, so they kept telling me that i'm fine.
it's infuriating to watch yourself screw up and then have others tell you it's okay, like you're some sort of retard.
err... sorry, challenged person.
one of her best friends (male) has a visitor (female) from the states, so we took them out to play pool in ra'anana. it was quite fun, although i'm the only one who really knows how to play (she's getting better, but it takes time).
if there's one thing they know how to make in this country, it's ice-cream.
Wednesday, July 02, 2003
02/07/03
i think i have low-grade insomnia. err... i *think* that's the way to say it.
i finally went to sleep around 2am, woke up around 9am and just could not keep my eyes closed.
and the heat is so uncomfortable - i've just been feeling crappy all day.
bearing in mind our law exam is tomorrow afternoon, this is what i did today (until 20.00 that is):
28 days later is a great film. the cinamatography is excellent, the story is good, and the protagonist is great. the only problem i have is a rather major one - i think the movie would have been a LOT scarier if instead of silly b-movie type monsters, they'd stuck with the story and made it really angry people. much scarier, when your enemies are not restricted to stereotypical zombie attacks.
they don't sell toy boats/ships in my entire city. i went to every f#$@ing toy store, and there're a lot, and i didn't find a single one.
and it's a country that's proud of it's navy, too.
i actually bought healthy food today - and enough to last a couple more. i even bought fruit, which is such big news that i'm mailing my mother just to tell her.
it's now 20.13, and way past time to begin the studies...
*THAT SINKING FEELING AGAIN*
*** later ***
that sucked. i couldn't concentrate on the material - it's all legalese (OBviously), and i'm still buggered from not sleeping properly.
however, i'm coming up with all sorts of other bright ideas - for instance how to cover the vodacom sms site so that you only have to fill in the phone number and confirmation mail once.
i'll probably have that up VERY soon.
i went to get myself a midnight snack (i've been eating pita and humus all day - i WILL get gas from this, i'm sure. note: humus is a bean), and got caught by two tekken players. out of 15 games i lost one. i would be quite impressed and proud if only i hadn't been beaten by a completely lucky run - i know how grootbek plays and he had no clue what he was doing.
it sucks to see so much effort (by us trying to teach him) go to waste.
i've been reading william gibson's count zero for the last few days - it's VERY good. no wonder he got such acclaim (yes, i HAVE read neuromancer - this is cooler).
i finally went to sleep around 2am, woke up around 9am and just could not keep my eyes closed.
and the heat is so uncomfortable - i've just been feeling crappy all day.
bearing in mind our law exam is tomorrow afternoon, this is what i did today (until 20.00 that is):
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they don't sell toy boats/ships in my entire city. i went to every f#$@ing toy store, and there're a lot, and i didn't find a single one.
and it's a country that's proud of it's navy, too.
i actually bought healthy food today - and enough to last a couple more. i even bought fruit, which is such big news that i'm mailing my mother just to tell her.
it's now 20.13, and way past time to begin the studies...
*THAT SINKING FEELING AGAIN*
*** later ***
that sucked. i couldn't concentrate on the material - it's all legalese (OBviously), and i'm still buggered from not sleeping properly.
however, i'm coming up with all sorts of other bright ideas - for instance how to cover the vodacom sms site so that you only have to fill in the phone number and confirmation mail once.
i'll probably have that up VERY soon.
i went to get myself a midnight snack (i've been eating pita and humus all day - i WILL get gas from this, i'm sure. note: humus is a bean), and got caught by two tekken players. out of 15 games i lost one. i would be quite impressed and proud if only i hadn't been beaten by a completely lucky run - i know how grootbek plays and he had no clue what he was doing.
it sucks to see so much effort (by us trying to teach him) go to waste.
i've been reading william gibson's count zero for the last few days - it's VERY good. no wonder he got such acclaim (yes, i HAVE read neuromancer - this is cooler).
Tuesday, July 01, 2003
01/07/03
today was long, yet i accomplished nothing. i woke up around 10am to phone this guy at the wingate institute in order to negotiate my way into the course despite my distinct lack of hebrew.
he was a complete bastard. i couldn't get him to budge on anything. i phoned my instructor afterwards, and after twenty minutes with her on the phone, he eventually buckled, and agreed to allow me a translator.
i've been invited to go to my cousin's kibbutz next week, as her daughter's having her batmitvah ceremony. two or three days by the pool there won't kill me.
ummm. i played lots of starcraft today.
we had a special training in taekwondo forms today - three hours of pain and dizzy spells, and then getting told i wasn't doing my best when i was just proud of myself for not falling down.
i just got home from studying for our corporate law exam. we have fourteen cases to go through, all in perfect legalese, and all i could think of was "must - sleep".
well, i know what i'll be doing tomorrow.
studying.
i know, that wasn't obvious.
i'm so messed up that when i got home i had a really dumb argument with grootbek, who's convinced that i was smoking dope. you know, red eyes, vacant look, and (ok, i don't have a clue how to finish the sentence).
he was a complete bastard. i couldn't get him to budge on anything. i phoned my instructor afterwards, and after twenty minutes with her on the phone, he eventually buckled, and agreed to allow me a translator.
i've been invited to go to my cousin's kibbutz next week, as her daughter's having her batmitvah ceremony. two or three days by the pool there won't kill me.
ummm. i played lots of starcraft today.
we had a special training in taekwondo forms today - three hours of pain and dizzy spells, and then getting told i wasn't doing my best when i was just proud of myself for not falling down.
i just got home from studying for our corporate law exam. we have fourteen cases to go through, all in perfect legalese, and all i could think of was "must - sleep".
well, i know what i'll be doing tomorrow.
studying.
i know, that wasn't obvious.
i'm so messed up that when i got home i had a really dumb argument with grootbek, who's convinced that i was smoking dope. you know, red eyes, vacant look, and (ok, i don't have a clue how to finish the sentence).
Monday, June 30, 2003
30/06/03
i have no clue what time we left the apartment this morning. all i know is that i got home around 6.30, and absolutely had to finish level 9 of starcraft. i got to bed at 7: i could barely see to turn off the lights... and the hallucinations were heavily upon me.
if there's one thing i resent this country for, it's turning me diurnal.
i woke up around 12.00, and couldn't get back to sleep. i was absolutely wasted, and still nothing doing.
so i accessed zanet - it's really exciting to finally be able to talk to people back home!
i went to work for the weekly status meeting, and i barely understood anything our boss said (always all in hebrew), and i kept nodding off. and then getting meaningful looks whenever i came around. i'm not sure that's a good thing.
i did some training, which was pointless (i knew everything already), and left as soon as i possibly could. the bus ride home was hell.
i then bladed to training - my legs have recovered and i was surprised to find that in spite of my severe lack of energy, i was able to make it there in decent time and without too much strain.
this health thing is spooky.
training was heavy, but i felt pretty good afterwards. i went home, had a shower, and then it was out for coffee with her. we spent a couple of hours sitting on the beach - a most pleasant way to end a day.
if there's one thing i resent this country for, it's turning me diurnal.
i woke up around 12.00, and couldn't get back to sleep. i was absolutely wasted, and still nothing doing.
so i accessed zanet - it's really exciting to finally be able to talk to people back home!
i went to work for the weekly status meeting, and i barely understood anything our boss said (always all in hebrew), and i kept nodding off. and then getting meaningful looks whenever i came around. i'm not sure that's a good thing.
i did some training, which was pointless (i knew everything already), and left as soon as i possibly could. the bus ride home was hell.
i then bladed to training - my legs have recovered and i was surprised to find that in spite of my severe lack of energy, i was able to make it there in decent time and without too much strain.
this health thing is spooky.
training was heavy, but i felt pretty good afterwards. i went home, had a shower, and then it was out for coffee with her. we spent a couple of hours sitting on the beach - a most pleasant way to end a day.
Sunday, June 29, 2003
29/06/03
*** yesterday ***
we watched x-men 2 last night - fuck me, that movie is the SHIT!! every few seconds it was "ohmigod, that's my new favourite x-man!".
i was worried that the trailer might have spoiled it, but not at all. it was pure entertainment and eye-candy all the way.
*** today ***
i woke up this morning to find that 28 days later has finally finished downloading - i've been waiting so long to get my hands on it that i'm still in shock and disbelief...
i just got off the phone with a guy from the wingate institution. he tells me that all the exams for the teacher's course will be in hebrew, and that it's difficult even for native speakers.
all i can think of is that if i'm going to learn all this stuff for the first time anyway, then it doesn't matter what language i learn it in.
also, he did say that i can bring in a dictionary.
today's the day for our organizational behaviour: leadership exam. i haven't a clue how i'll fare - all i know is that i'm paying out of my ass for the exam notes (about R150) because i didn't buy the book. and i have no way of knowing if they'll help me.
*** later ***
i didn't use the notes in the end (so i could save myself the cash), because a friend of mine (the girl who came blading with us) had her own version and allowed me a photocopy.
the exam sucked anyway - it was always going to be an exam writing tons and tons of crap, but i wasn't prepared for the quality.
after two and a half hours of writing bullshit, my arm was sore and my creativity was drained. so i gave up and walked out.
whatever.
after the exam i got home to find it infiltrated by my niece and her friend - their belongings were all over the place, and there were <things> everywhere. like books and cd-players and little bags of <stuff> (ie. crap), and all the dishes were done (none of them were mine, but anyway) and my closet is now PACKED. i didn't have any space left before - now i'm in negative. i have overflow - and i'm supposed to be looking after this shit for a couple of MONTHS.
i don't remember volunteering for this!
we went to a crazy friend's place, to chill by the pool. we did nothing of value, just sat around and then ordered nando's (yes, they have a version of that here), and chilled some more.
but now, horror of horrors, not said sarcastically, we have to go to the airport. we're going to be leaving after midnight, and i have no clue how much time we're going to spend there.
and my week is fully booked; i have to be up early in the morning, and i just discovered that our last exam is on thursday, and not next week as i originally had thought.
fuck.
we watched x-men 2 last night - fuck me, that movie is the SHIT!! every few seconds it was "ohmigod, that's my new favourite x-man!".
i was worried that the trailer might have spoiled it, but not at all. it was pure entertainment and eye-candy all the way.
*** today ***
i woke up this morning to find that 28 days later has finally finished downloading - i've been waiting so long to get my hands on it that i'm still in shock and disbelief...
i just got off the phone with a guy from the wingate institution. he tells me that all the exams for the teacher's course will be in hebrew, and that it's difficult even for native speakers.
all i can think of is that if i'm going to learn all this stuff for the first time anyway, then it doesn't matter what language i learn it in.
also, he did say that i can bring in a dictionary.
today's the day for our organizational behaviour: leadership exam. i haven't a clue how i'll fare - all i know is that i'm paying out of my ass for the exam notes (about R150) because i didn't buy the book. and i have no way of knowing if they'll help me.
*** later ***
i didn't use the notes in the end (so i could save myself the cash), because a friend of mine (the girl who came blading with us) had her own version and allowed me a photocopy.
the exam sucked anyway - it was always going to be an exam writing tons and tons of crap, but i wasn't prepared for the quality.
after two and a half hours of writing bullshit, my arm was sore and my creativity was drained. so i gave up and walked out.
whatever.
after the exam i got home to find it infiltrated by my niece and her friend - their belongings were all over the place, and there were <things> everywhere. like books and cd-players and little bags of <stuff> (ie. crap), and all the dishes were done (none of them were mine, but anyway) and my closet is now PACKED. i didn't have any space left before - now i'm in negative. i have overflow - and i'm supposed to be looking after this shit for a couple of MONTHS.
i don't remember volunteering for this!
we went to a crazy friend's place, to chill by the pool. we did nothing of value, just sat around and then ordered nando's (yes, they have a version of that here), and chilled some more.
but now, horror of horrors, not said sarcastically, we have to go to the airport. we're going to be leaving after midnight, and i have no clue how much time we're going to spend there.
and my week is fully booked; i have to be up early in the morning, and i just discovered that our last exam is on thursday, and not next week as i originally had thought.
fuck.
Saturday, June 28, 2003
28/06/03
my god - i have watched a lot of movies today.
last night i caught most of mimic, which is one of the few horror movies that truly frightens, and repels me.
after that was lock, stock and two smoking barrels. turns out i forgot the whole damn thing...
i just watched solaris - not a bad film (ignoring the ten or so minutes of the cd that was so scratched that it would only play 3 to 4 seconds at a time - aaargh!), but seemingly pointless. i can only assume that it's about how nothing matters more than love? i dunno.
i've been trying since last night to download 28 days later, but i only succeeded in getting the trailer. looks good, but the download's still hovering around 500MB from 717, and i'm not sure when grootbek's going to come home and cancel it.
he always does that, and then claims no knowledge.
i've begun writing a multiplayer version of tron - i've been studying drivers (and learning nothing) for so many hours now that i just had to do some coding. it's really nice to be working in c++ again; i have to admit microsoft's system in vc++ for comments is nice.
respect where it's due.
as for the drivers, it's so hard to focus - it's all the same shit, and that which i didn't understand from the beginning has still not been explained.
not that i haven't learned ANYTHING.
i've learned to be a lot more patient with the system startup, and why i should be impressed when it takes so little time for the system to detect and install the correct drivers for things like usb mice.
not boring you, am i?
don't care.
so ja, my tron version is so far looking quite naff. okay, not visually. i have no clue what to do when i need graphics - i'll have to outsource. any volunteers that might be accepted will already have my email address. actually, anyone reading this who doesn't have my address should be shot on sight.
i'm planning some self-mutilation tonight - i'm shaving myself. my HEAD. no, the BIG one. i'm in shock over my haircut, still: if you haven't seen the photo's then go check them out. it's disgraceful.
never going there again.
and just think, that cost me the equivalent of around R70.
shameful.
i spoke to my taekwondo instructor today - i still have the go-ahead for the course, and i have to contact them tomorrow to find out when to go for my ECG. for some reason they think i might die on them. i don't get it.
surely, if you have a problem, you'd know about it?
and i thought *i* was paranoid.
i've got quite a bit of reading done today. i finished much ado about nothing, and although i didn't get every word or concept, i quite enjoyed it. i was wondering, though, about all the people on this planet who think that you have to be able to quote shakespeare word for word. i don't remember dick from hamlet, except maybe "now might i do it, pat". and i don't feel any less understanding of the story. in fact, it's quite sad just how much i DO remember.
damn school system.
i've begun reading count zero (william gibson), and the first couple of chapters are looking good.
and i spent some time listening to good ol' israeli music. i must admit, now that i understand some of them, the lyrics are really good. now i just have to understand ALL of them. so much WORK, living here.
*** later ***
it's now 22.45. at midnight, i'm going with some friends to see x-men 2, which is finally out in israel, and i'm right now trying to decide if i should shave or gel.
decisions, decisions.
on the weird side, i actually asked her for permission (to see the movie), as i told her we'd go see it together. there must be something wrong with me, as i've never done that before. and i knew that she didn't particularly want to see it anyway...
and finally, the starcraft news. i've had level 8 in the back of my mind for the past few days, because i've had no clue how to begin.
today, i thought i'd give it a try. not only did i manage to survive the first few minutes, but i totally wiped out the other side before completing the mission objectives.
that felt GOOOOOOOD.
i'm so proud of me.
last night i caught most of mimic, which is one of the few horror movies that truly frightens, and repels me.
after that was lock, stock and two smoking barrels. turns out i forgot the whole damn thing...
i just watched solaris - not a bad film (ignoring the ten or so minutes of the cd that was so scratched that it would only play 3 to 4 seconds at a time - aaargh!), but seemingly pointless. i can only assume that it's about how nothing matters more than love? i dunno.
i've been trying since last night to download 28 days later, but i only succeeded in getting the trailer. looks good, but the download's still hovering around 500MB from 717, and i'm not sure when grootbek's going to come home and cancel it.
he always does that, and then claims no knowledge.
i've begun writing a multiplayer version of tron - i've been studying drivers (and learning nothing) for so many hours now that i just had to do some coding. it's really nice to be working in c++ again; i have to admit microsoft's system in vc++ for comments is nice.
respect where it's due.
as for the drivers, it's so hard to focus - it's all the same shit, and that which i didn't understand from the beginning has still not been explained.
not that i haven't learned ANYTHING.
i've learned to be a lot more patient with the system startup, and why i should be impressed when it takes so little time for the system to detect and install the correct drivers for things like usb mice.
not boring you, am i?
don't care.
so ja, my tron version is so far looking quite naff. okay, not visually. i have no clue what to do when i need graphics - i'll have to outsource. any volunteers that might be accepted will already have my email address. actually, anyone reading this who doesn't have my address should be shot on sight.
i'm planning some self-mutilation tonight - i'm shaving myself. my HEAD. no, the BIG one. i'm in shock over my haircut, still: if you haven't seen the photo's then go check them out. it's disgraceful.
never going there again.
and just think, that cost me the equivalent of around R70.
shameful.
i spoke to my taekwondo instructor today - i still have the go-ahead for the course, and i have to contact them tomorrow to find out when to go for my ECG. for some reason they think i might die on them. i don't get it.
surely, if you have a problem, you'd know about it?
and i thought *i* was paranoid.
i've got quite a bit of reading done today. i finished much ado about nothing, and although i didn't get every word or concept, i quite enjoyed it. i was wondering, though, about all the people on this planet who think that you have to be able to quote shakespeare word for word. i don't remember dick from hamlet, except maybe "now might i do it, pat". and i don't feel any less understanding of the story. in fact, it's quite sad just how much i DO remember.
damn school system.
i've begun reading count zero (william gibson), and the first couple of chapters are looking good.
and i spent some time listening to good ol' israeli music. i must admit, now that i understand some of them, the lyrics are really good. now i just have to understand ALL of them. so much WORK, living here.
*** later ***
it's now 22.45. at midnight, i'm going with some friends to see x-men 2, which is finally out in israel, and i'm right now trying to decide if i should shave or gel.
decisions, decisions.
on the weird side, i actually asked her for permission (to see the movie), as i told her we'd go see it together. there must be something wrong with me, as i've never done that before. and i knew that she didn't particularly want to see it anyway...
and finally, the starcraft news. i've had level 8 in the back of my mind for the past few days, because i've had no clue how to begin.
today, i thought i'd give it a try. not only did i manage to survive the first few minutes, but i totally wiped out the other side before completing the mission objectives.
that felt GOOOOOOOD.
i'm so proud of me.
Friday, June 27, 2003
27/06/03
*** yesterday ***
i managed to sleep around six hours yesterday. i got up, had a decent breakfast, and thought to myself, "i'm going to study today."
i proceeded to develop a major headache, and basically wasted yesterday trying to focus. okay, i kinda learned some stuff, but nothing substantial.
i had falafel for lunch, and forgot to pay. a friend of mine i haven't seen in a while rocked up, and i totally didn't notice.
and i got a really crap haircut. i've dealt with it using serious gel (the stuff you get in this country comes in an enormous tub, and turns your hair into plastic. literally), but i'll take a photo after my next shower, IF i remember.
last night she took me to see how to lose a guy in 10 days. there's irony in a girl taking her boyfriend to see this film. most of the movie is really disturbing - i was cringing in my seat and feeling like a caged animal.
the movie kept true to it's name, and i'd rate it 4 stars just for the experience. it's a horror film.
*** today ***
i just woke up (11.40), and i've still got the headache. i was meant to be in jerusalem for a fighting competition today (coaching, not fighting), but apparently there was a screw up in transportation. so basically, i'm going to go shopping, find a glossary for shakespeare's much ado about nothing, and maybe study a bit.
maybe eat even.
or sleep some more. yep, that sounds like the best plan.
*** later ***
i'm feeling much better. i didn't get any more sleep, and i didn't find any help with much ado about nothing, but i did some basic shopping (if my mother saw what i bought she'd have a fit), and watched vampire hunter d. crap quality, but cool movie nonetheless.
it was a lot less hectic than bloodlust (shouldn't watch sequels first), but still interesting all the way.
i just remembered that i watched the usual suspects yesterday. i'd seen the ending a long, long time ago, and everyone told me that it wasn't worth watching the movie anymore.
they were wrong - dead wrong. it's a great film, and in a way knowing how it ends makes it more fun.
also just remembered to add that last night, to add to the irony, was our 2nd month anniversary. two things are unusual about this: a) me being in a relationship that's lasted this long and b) the fact that i'm in a relationship where the date matters (even if not much).
i'm listening to ministry at the moment, the land of rape and honey and the mind is a terrible thing to taste. fucking great albums - i haven't listened to them in so long i'd forgotten how much fun they were.
i managed to sleep around six hours yesterday. i got up, had a decent breakfast, and thought to myself, "i'm going to study today."
i proceeded to develop a major headache, and basically wasted yesterday trying to focus. okay, i kinda learned some stuff, but nothing substantial.
i had falafel for lunch, and forgot to pay. a friend of mine i haven't seen in a while rocked up, and i totally didn't notice.
and i got a really crap haircut. i've dealt with it using serious gel (the stuff you get in this country comes in an enormous tub, and turns your hair into plastic. literally), but i'll take a photo after my next shower, IF i remember.
last night she took me to see how to lose a guy in 10 days. there's irony in a girl taking her boyfriend to see this film. most of the movie is really disturbing - i was cringing in my seat and feeling like a caged animal.
the movie kept true to it's name, and i'd rate it 4 stars just for the experience. it's a horror film.
*** today ***
i just woke up (11.40), and i've still got the headache. i was meant to be in jerusalem for a fighting competition today (coaching, not fighting), but apparently there was a screw up in transportation. so basically, i'm going to go shopping, find a glossary for shakespeare's much ado about nothing, and maybe study a bit.
maybe eat even.
or sleep some more. yep, that sounds like the best plan.
*** later ***
i'm feeling much better. i didn't get any more sleep, and i didn't find any help with much ado about nothing, but i did some basic shopping (if my mother saw what i bought she'd have a fit), and watched vampire hunter d. crap quality, but cool movie nonetheless.
it was a lot less hectic than bloodlust (shouldn't watch sequels first), but still interesting all the way.
i just remembered that i watched the usual suspects yesterday. i'd seen the ending a long, long time ago, and everyone told me that it wasn't worth watching the movie anymore.
they were wrong - dead wrong. it's a great film, and in a way knowing how it ends makes it more fun.
also just remembered to add that last night, to add to the irony, was our 2nd month anniversary. two things are unusual about this: a) me being in a relationship that's lasted this long and b) the fact that i'm in a relationship where the date matters (even if not much).
i'm listening to ministry at the moment, the land of rape and honey and the mind is a terrible thing to taste. fucking great albums - i haven't listened to them in so long i'd forgotten how much fun they were.
Thursday, June 26, 2003
26/06/03
that was one long morning. it went okay though - i managed to appease some angry folk, and solve some problems - and i think i proved myself capable of doing it on my own.
and we got some quality pang! 96 time in. it's much more fun multiplayer, even if the keys do suck.
so aside from some new fridge quotes, nothing much interesting is happening, and i look forward to getting home and into bed (it's 05.10 already).
and we got some quality pang! 96 time in. it's much more fun multiplayer, even if the keys do suck.
so aside from some new fridge quotes, nothing much interesting is happening, and i look forward to getting home and into bed (it's 05.10 already).
Wednesday, June 25, 2003
25/06/03
*** yesterday ***
last night i went to her place again - had 3 slices of pizza before bed, and i didn't have a problem sleeping! that's a first in a long, long time. maybe my body's regressing to it's natural state. hell, i've almost (almost) got my pseudo-sixpack back.
that's the point where i can feel at least some muscle under all the flab.
*** today ***
i woke up at 07.15, walked home, brushed my teeth, got dressed (properly), and took the buses to my army base. i went to get permission to do the taekwondo teaching course in july, and after speaking with both the officer on duty, and my commanding officer, i discovered that no-one has a clue, as of yet, as to whether i'll be doing any service this summer.
which means that if i do get called up, i can go to them and say they knew and okayed it.
then something really freaky happened.
i was walking to the busstops to go home, and who's sitting there, in army uniform?
JOSH.
muthafunsta disappeared on us three years ago, and no-one's had a clue where to. so we had a crazy catch-up session, and then spent the late-morning / early afternoon walking through tel-aviv.
he's set up here with decks and a mixer, and loads of vinyl, so i reckon i'm going to be paying him more than the traditional once-off visits.
he also introduced me to the owner of one of the biggest clubs in the country, nice south african dude, and a couple of his friends. nice, chilled people. good to know.
my legs hurt. a lot. after all the rollerblading i've done this week, my thighs are absolutely killing me, and i've tried stretching, massaging, and i've walked a lot today, but so far nothing's done any good.
also, we did gymnastics on monday night, and i hurt my neck again. it's quite frustrating.
i passed out when i got home, and woke up really tired and dehydrated. i have, like, four or five people i'm supposed to have called, since sunday, and everytime i get an opportunity i'm so messed up by SOMETHING that i don't get around to it until it's too late, and then the next day it's the same.
my niece is returning to south africa on sunday evening, so i'm expected to go to the airport with her.
the crap thing is that if i do go, i'll have no way to get back, and the idea of sleeping there does NOT appeal to me, at all.
and i'm sure that i won't be able to say goodbye at my place, cause she's got loads of shit to carry and that's not nice.
i'm hungry and no-one else at work wants to get food. and i really don't want to order by myself. it's sandwich time! if there's bread.
i'm working pretty much by myself tonight, for the first time. this should be interesting.
i hope it's not.
oh, and i just discovered that the japan section's being updated. there's a diary (oooh). thanks dude, i have something to read now too.
oh yes - i just updated the fridge quotes under mental masturbation.
well, it's concentration time. catch me on the flip side.
last night i went to her place again - had 3 slices of pizza before bed, and i didn't have a problem sleeping! that's a first in a long, long time. maybe my body's regressing to it's natural state. hell, i've almost (almost) got my pseudo-sixpack back.
that's the point where i can feel at least some muscle under all the flab.
*** today ***
i woke up at 07.15, walked home, brushed my teeth, got dressed (properly), and took the buses to my army base. i went to get permission to do the taekwondo teaching course in july, and after speaking with both the officer on duty, and my commanding officer, i discovered that no-one has a clue, as of yet, as to whether i'll be doing any service this summer.
which means that if i do get called up, i can go to them and say they knew and okayed it.
then something really freaky happened.
i was walking to the busstops to go home, and who's sitting there, in army uniform?
JOSH.
muthafunsta disappeared on us three years ago, and no-one's had a clue where to. so we had a crazy catch-up session, and then spent the late-morning / early afternoon walking through tel-aviv.
he's set up here with decks and a mixer, and loads of vinyl, so i reckon i'm going to be paying him more than the traditional once-off visits.
he also introduced me to the owner of one of the biggest clubs in the country, nice south african dude, and a couple of his friends. nice, chilled people. good to know.
my legs hurt. a lot. after all the rollerblading i've done this week, my thighs are absolutely killing me, and i've tried stretching, massaging, and i've walked a lot today, but so far nothing's done any good.
also, we did gymnastics on monday night, and i hurt my neck again. it's quite frustrating.
i passed out when i got home, and woke up really tired and dehydrated. i have, like, four or five people i'm supposed to have called, since sunday, and everytime i get an opportunity i'm so messed up by SOMETHING that i don't get around to it until it's too late, and then the next day it's the same.
my niece is returning to south africa on sunday evening, so i'm expected to go to the airport with her.
the crap thing is that if i do go, i'll have no way to get back, and the idea of sleeping there does NOT appeal to me, at all.
and i'm sure that i won't be able to say goodbye at my place, cause she's got loads of shit to carry and that's not nice.
i'm hungry and no-one else at work wants to get food. and i really don't want to order by myself. it's sandwich time! if there's bread.
i'm working pretty much by myself tonight, for the first time. this should be interesting.
i hope it's not.
oh, and i just discovered that the japan section's being updated. there's a diary (oooh). thanks dude, i have something to read now too.
oh yes - i just updated the fridge quotes under mental masturbation.
well, it's concentration time. catch me on the flip side.
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
24/06/03
*** yesterday ***
i was completely wasted by the time i got home yesterday. the weather here is not conducive to moving faster than 1kph, or not being in practically direct contact with a fan or air-conditioner.
i rested for about an hour, and then went to taekwondo training.
when i got there, i had to have a shower BEFORE i could put on my uniform: and it was a waste anyway cause after five minutes of warm-up i was soaked again.
my new year's resolution is going to be to figure out how to stop sweating. i hate sweating - i get all wet and disgusting and it doesn't lessen the heat. stupid human body.
for the good news, i found out that i can get sponsorship for the NIS 5800 that i need in order to do the teaching course at wingate. the deal is that once i've passed the course, i can teach to pay back the money.
the only problem is that i have to make sure that the army won't take me in during the course, and also i feel uncomfortable with the fact that if i screw this up, i'd somehow have to get the money back some other way. and it's a LOT of money.
i spoke to the guy who was in the call of cthulhu LARP on saturday. i can take a character who doesn't speak hebrew - this could be a lot of fun. i'm quite amped about this, i haven't done it much, or in a VERY long time.
i slept at her place last night (the parents are away), and then i had to
*** today ***
wake up at 07.15 this morning. i had 45 minutes to walk home, in my sandals (i must admit i find these things more acceptable as footwear as the days go by: i wasn't even the least bit self-conscious about my flip-flopping today), brush my teeth, put on my blades, and get to the university.
i barely managed - and then it turned out that i didn't have all the information i needed, so it was all worthless anyway.
figures.
i have an exam at 16.00 (it's now 10.00), and i'm not ready. and i'm tired. so i'm going home now, to a) sleep, b) study, and c) try to find the information i need so that i can get everything sorted out.
and then tomorrow morning, cock-fart (AGAIN!), i gotta get on the bus to go to the base so i can speak with my commanding officer, to see if i can get permission for the teaching course. and i get this sinking feeling whenever i think of him - he hates me.
i suspect it's because i don't speak hebrew with him.
fucking DIB (Dumb Israeli Bastard)
*** later ***
i had to sweat heavily to get my exam grade for our course in marketing research, but eventually i did it:
67%!!
more than the 60% requirement! now i just hope that my assignment scores won't bring it down.
i just finished our macroeconomics exam - it sucked. i had to figure out the formulae on the fly, and there were questions requiring memory retention. which i don't have.
so i'm hoping for another pass.
that's about it - i desperately need sleep before i go to the army tomorrow; i'm guessing food wouldn't go amiss either. i'm really hungry.
but i'm feeling much, much better with this grade.
*riverdances*
i was completely wasted by the time i got home yesterday. the weather here is not conducive to moving faster than 1kph, or not being in practically direct contact with a fan or air-conditioner.
i rested for about an hour, and then went to taekwondo training.
when i got there, i had to have a shower BEFORE i could put on my uniform: and it was a waste anyway cause after five minutes of warm-up i was soaked again.
my new year's resolution is going to be to figure out how to stop sweating. i hate sweating - i get all wet and disgusting and it doesn't lessen the heat. stupid human body.
for the good news, i found out that i can get sponsorship for the NIS 5800 that i need in order to do the teaching course at wingate. the deal is that once i've passed the course, i can teach to pay back the money.
the only problem is that i have to make sure that the army won't take me in during the course, and also i feel uncomfortable with the fact that if i screw this up, i'd somehow have to get the money back some other way. and it's a LOT of money.
i spoke to the guy who was in the call of cthulhu LARP on saturday. i can take a character who doesn't speak hebrew - this could be a lot of fun. i'm quite amped about this, i haven't done it much, or in a VERY long time.
i slept at her place last night (the parents are away), and then i had to
*** today ***
wake up at 07.15 this morning. i had 45 minutes to walk home, in my sandals (i must admit i find these things more acceptable as footwear as the days go by: i wasn't even the least bit self-conscious about my flip-flopping today), brush my teeth, put on my blades, and get to the university.
i barely managed - and then it turned out that i didn't have all the information i needed, so it was all worthless anyway.
figures.
i have an exam at 16.00 (it's now 10.00), and i'm not ready. and i'm tired. so i'm going home now, to a) sleep, b) study, and c) try to find the information i need so that i can get everything sorted out.
and then tomorrow morning, cock-fart (AGAIN!), i gotta get on the bus to go to the base so i can speak with my commanding officer, to see if i can get permission for the teaching course. and i get this sinking feeling whenever i think of him - he hates me.
i suspect it's because i don't speak hebrew with him.
fucking DIB (Dumb Israeli Bastard)
*** later ***
i had to sweat heavily to get my exam grade for our course in marketing research, but eventually i did it:
67%!!
more than the 60% requirement! now i just hope that my assignment scores won't bring it down.
i just finished our macroeconomics exam - it sucked. i had to figure out the formulae on the fly, and there were questions requiring memory retention. which i don't have.
so i'm hoping for another pass.
that's about it - i desperately need sleep before i go to the army tomorrow; i'm guessing food wouldn't go amiss either. i'm really hungry.
but i'm feeling much, much better with this grade.
*riverdances*
Monday, June 23, 2003
23/06/03
*** yesterday ***
i did get a little studying done yesterday.
i had supper consisting of canned sweetcorn (you don't get creamed in this country, which is most upsetting. you'd think other cultures might have learned of this by now), and two baked potatoes. now, everyone's given me the same advice on these things: prick them and leave them in the oven at roughly 175 / 180 degrees (celsius, you foolish americans!) for an hour. now i've done that, both covered in tinfoil, and merely resting on tinfoil, and they always come out hot, but HARD.
not nice at all. maybe it's just another sign from the gods that i should stay out of the kitchen.
anyway, when grootbek saw what i was eating he asked if i was on welfare. i don't get it.
she and i went to play pool last night, which was quite enjoyable. expensive (yes, i'm still whining about paying per hour), but fun. i learned a new rule though - when playing a beginner it's "5 for 1", meaning for every shot you take they get five. it works, and it does make it considerably more fair, and considerably less frustrating for the beginner.
*** today ***
i had to wake up too goddamn early this morning for the exam, as it was held off campus. in a suburb far, far away.
the exam, as was to be expected, sucked. it taxed my understanding of the english language heavily, and was most pointless. however, i think i managed quite well, and i might have not sucked, which, within the context of MY university experience, is both meaningful and impressive.
umm. i finally managed to meet with the person who's supposed to be helping me with my social security, but she couldn't help me today. so tomorrow it's once again waking up at cock-fart in the morning to meet and arrange everything.
i'm fucking starving. it must be lunch time (14.46).
i did get a little studying done yesterday.
i had supper consisting of canned sweetcorn (you don't get creamed in this country, which is most upsetting. you'd think other cultures might have learned of this by now), and two baked potatoes. now, everyone's given me the same advice on these things: prick them and leave them in the oven at roughly 175 / 180 degrees (celsius, you foolish americans!) for an hour. now i've done that, both covered in tinfoil, and merely resting on tinfoil, and they always come out hot, but HARD.
not nice at all. maybe it's just another sign from the gods that i should stay out of the kitchen.
anyway, when grootbek saw what i was eating he asked if i was on welfare. i don't get it.
she and i went to play pool last night, which was quite enjoyable. expensive (yes, i'm still whining about paying per hour), but fun. i learned a new rule though - when playing a beginner it's "5 for 1", meaning for every shot you take they get five. it works, and it does make it considerably more fair, and considerably less frustrating for the beginner.
*** today ***
i had to wake up too goddamn early this morning for the exam, as it was held off campus. in a suburb far, far away.
the exam, as was to be expected, sucked. it taxed my understanding of the english language heavily, and was most pointless. however, i think i managed quite well, and i might have not sucked, which, within the context of MY university experience, is both meaningful and impressive.
umm. i finally managed to meet with the person who's supposed to be helping me with my social security, but she couldn't help me today. so tomorrow it's once again waking up at cock-fart in the morning to meet and arrange everything.
i'm fucking starving. it must be lunch time (14.46).
Sunday, June 22, 2003
22/06/03
and i thought i'd get enough sleep last night.
i went to bed around 1am, and woke up at 6am, and just couldn't get back to my dreams. although, that's probably a good thing - most of my dreams were highly cthulhoid and most disturbing.
i suppose listening to hard rock / speed metal while one sleeps isn't the best idea after all.
i did some studying after getting up this morning - please read my latest addition to the mental masturbation section.
the woman i was meant to meet with today cancelled on me again. her brother's just returned from australia/new zealand, so it's justified, but still annoying.
i've got some dread work to do, and then i'm going to find out if i have a chance of actually doing the work on the drivers...
*** later ***
well, let's see. i finally replaced my cd-rom drive. with a burner, for which i now need to find the correct drivers (oh sweet, sweet irony). i bought extra ide cable so i can add an actual cd-rom reader, now i just have to install the damn thing.
i hate working with hardware.
i played an hour and a half of starcraft multiplayer with sammy. my god, even he kicks my ass! although not as badly as hido or sandman. i actually got a chance to build up and attempt to defend myself.
i have seen command & conquer: generals, and it is good. i now have a copy in my possession. it remains to be seen if it will, in fact, install.
i doubt it though.
i have to go shopping now, and then it's back to studying. tomorrow morning's the crap exam - i'm really not looking forward to it.
i went to bed around 1am, and woke up at 6am, and just couldn't get back to my dreams. although, that's probably a good thing - most of my dreams were highly cthulhoid and most disturbing.
i suppose listening to hard rock / speed metal while one sleeps isn't the best idea after all.
i did some studying after getting up this morning - please read my latest addition to the mental masturbation section.
the woman i was meant to meet with today cancelled on me again. her brother's just returned from australia/new zealand, so it's justified, but still annoying.
i've got some dread work to do, and then i'm going to find out if i have a chance of actually doing the work on the drivers...
*** later ***
well, let's see. i finally replaced my cd-rom drive. with a burner, for which i now need to find the correct drivers (oh sweet, sweet irony). i bought extra ide cable so i can add an actual cd-rom reader, now i just have to install the damn thing.
i hate working with hardware.
i played an hour and a half of starcraft multiplayer with sammy. my god, even he kicks my ass! although not as badly as hido or sandman. i actually got a chance to build up and attempt to defend myself.
i have seen command & conquer: generals, and it is good. i now have a copy in my possession. it remains to be seen if it will, in fact, install.
i doubt it though.
i have to go shopping now, and then it's back to studying. tomorrow morning's the crap exam - i'm really not looking forward to it.
Saturday, June 21, 2003
21/06/03
i am absolutely exhausted.
i got some studying done today - i learned a lot more about drivers, and i understand some more macroeconomics. the only use for which, at least that i can see, being simcity 2000.
but i don't know why i'm so sleepy - nay - lethargic.
her exhibition starts in less than an hour, so i'm about to get ready; i only hope i won't do anything embarrassing there. like passing out cold to the floor.
finding call of cthulhu stuff is difficult.
*** later ***
the exhibition was nice - i'd already seen all her photo's, but i didn't expect to see so many interesting ones - some of them were absolutely crazy!
so now i've got to get some more studying done. i'm really not enjoying this. it's still hot at 22.20... and humid.
yippee.
actually, i'm feeling much better now, so i suppose i really don't have too much to complain about. i just can't think of much to write, and i feel like writing. but i have neither the time, nor the material. or, at least, my material's spread out so thin that at this rate it'll take years to produce a couple of paragraphs.
feel sorry for me, please. after all, that IS what this is all about.
i got some studying done today - i learned a lot more about drivers, and i understand some more macroeconomics. the only use for which, at least that i can see, being simcity 2000.
but i don't know why i'm so sleepy - nay - lethargic.
her exhibition starts in less than an hour, so i'm about to get ready; i only hope i won't do anything embarrassing there. like passing out cold to the floor.
finding call of cthulhu stuff is difficult.
*** later ***
the exhibition was nice - i'd already seen all her photo's, but i didn't expect to see so many interesting ones - some of them were absolutely crazy!
so now i've got to get some more studying done. i'm really not enjoying this. it's still hot at 22.20... and humid.
yippee.
actually, i'm feeling much better now, so i suppose i really don't have too much to complain about. i just can't think of much to write, and i feel like writing. but i have neither the time, nor the material. or, at least, my material's spread out so thin that at this rate it'll take years to produce a couple of paragraphs.
feel sorry for me, please. after all, that IS what this is all about.
Friday, June 20, 2003
20/06/03
as was to be expected, nothing happened today.
i watched goodfellas last night (first time - ag shame), and i must say it was most pleasing. very long, but very good.
so i got to bed around 2, or 3am. i woke up around 10am, and finished reading othello.
HEY! i just realized why the game (reversi) is called othello!!
anyways, i must admit that i'd kind of ignored the fact that it's called a tragedy. i was expecting a happier ending. but it's still a great read, and i do feel more educated.
she came over for a while. and then i went shopping.
i bought blueberry, uhh, confiture (konfyt). why can't they just call it jam? there must be a good reason.
so i'm stocked and ready for the weekend. i'm expecting some heavy-duty relaxation, and maybe i'll get some studying done at some stage - i have two exams this week (monday and tuesday), and although i'm not ready for them at all, i'll be sure to do sweet bugger-all anyway.
i just remembered i need to find call of cthulu rules and stuff. beginning search...
search in progress.
hmm. found some interesting looking stuff.
thank you kazaa.
i'm going to take a nap.
i watched goodfellas last night (first time - ag shame), and i must say it was most pleasing. very long, but very good.
so i got to bed around 2, or 3am. i woke up around 10am, and finished reading othello.
HEY! i just realized why the game (reversi) is called othello!!
anyways, i must admit that i'd kind of ignored the fact that it's called a tragedy. i was expecting a happier ending. but it's still a great read, and i do feel more educated.
she came over for a while. and then i went shopping.
i bought blueberry, uhh, confiture (konfyt). why can't they just call it jam? there must be a good reason.
so i'm stocked and ready for the weekend. i'm expecting some heavy-duty relaxation, and maybe i'll get some studying done at some stage - i have two exams this week (monday and tuesday), and although i'm not ready for them at all, i'll be sure to do sweet bugger-all anyway.
i just remembered i need to find call of cthulu rules and stuff. beginning search...
search in progress.
hmm. found some interesting looking stuff.
thank you kazaa.
i'm going to take a nap.
Thursday, June 19, 2003
19/06/03
what a mess! i came in to work this morning, intending to check mail, brush up on what i learned the other day, screw around, and leave around 13.00, in time to sort out the trouble i'm in with my social security.
that's not how it happened.
it's now 15.00, and instead of learning how to handle event preparations at work, i had to do the damn thing for real. and i ran into a few problems, and got stuck here sorting them out.
on the plus side, i now know exactly how to do it, and i've repeated the process four times so i can be considered experienced.
wonderful. i'm so excited.
but it does mean that i actually earned the money i'm getting for today, which is always a satisfying feeling.
so now it's time to find out if i can rescue my day.
*SINKING FEELING*
*** later ***
well, well. that sinking feeling was intuitive - the person i needed help from (with the social security) was in a meeting all day, so that idea got blown out the water.
basically, every month they're adding on NIS 300 (R450) because i haven't paid them for the months that i wasn't working (because those dipshits don't realize that i wasn't earning any money).
they told me to send them a form to clear the debt (because they know it's bullshit to charge interest on nothing), but the longer it takes to sort this out, the more i owe, and i just can't get hold of them.
and nobody understands why some people just snap and go on machine-gun rampages.
so i see lots of screaming over the phone in my near future (they're lucky they're in a different city). but DAMN i hate beaurocracy, and DAMN i hate stupid people.
fortunately, the person who was in a meeting has graciously invited me to breakfast tomorrow morning, after which we'll sort this out. the reality is that i really shouldn't deal with this myself, as my command of the hebrew language leaves much to be desired - especially under pressured circumstances.
speak softly and carry a big stick? i want a BIG FUCKING GUN.
and a bullhorn.
i'm off to get some food and then i'm probably (around 90%) going to taekwondo.
which i'm not in the mood for. i just wanna chill.
*** later ***
my god. taekwondo almost killed me. i'm completely, utterly exhausted.
on the plus side, we didn't do any work on flexibility, so i can still walk, but we worked hard nonetheless. we fought for more than half an hour, and then we practised technique.
i need a hot shower, and then a masseuse with some fragrant oils. but that last part just ain't gonna happen.
*sob*
i just wish my training outfit didn't smell so bad - i have nowhere to put it. i'm blaming the climate for my being this disgusting... i actually found it strange when i trained in south africa, because i'd go hard for an hour without so much as breaking a sweat.
damn desert.
*** later ***
i just KNEW i was forgetting something important. i've been informed that i can sign up to play in a call of cthulu LARP in the streets of tel aviv!
ohmigod!
that's so cool!
the guy who told me about it is going to help me sign up, and then i have to learn all about the "other" great lord of the dark. the LARP's divided into three parts, and he's already played in the first. the description he gave was most enticing: i really hope this'll all fall into place.
and there was one other thing... mmmm....
nope. can't remember. good night.
that's not how it happened.
it's now 15.00, and instead of learning how to handle event preparations at work, i had to do the damn thing for real. and i ran into a few problems, and got stuck here sorting them out.
on the plus side, i now know exactly how to do it, and i've repeated the process four times so i can be considered experienced.
wonderful. i'm so excited.
but it does mean that i actually earned the money i'm getting for today, which is always a satisfying feeling.
so now it's time to find out if i can rescue my day.
*SINKING FEELING*
*** later ***
well, well. that sinking feeling was intuitive - the person i needed help from (with the social security) was in a meeting all day, so that idea got blown out the water.
basically, every month they're adding on NIS 300 (R450) because i haven't paid them for the months that i wasn't working (because those dipshits don't realize that i wasn't earning any money).
they told me to send them a form to clear the debt (because they know it's bullshit to charge interest on nothing), but the longer it takes to sort this out, the more i owe, and i just can't get hold of them.
and nobody understands why some people just snap and go on machine-gun rampages.
so i see lots of screaming over the phone in my near future (they're lucky they're in a different city). but DAMN i hate beaurocracy, and DAMN i hate stupid people.
fortunately, the person who was in a meeting has graciously invited me to breakfast tomorrow morning, after which we'll sort this out. the reality is that i really shouldn't deal with this myself, as my command of the hebrew language leaves much to be desired - especially under pressured circumstances.
speak softly and carry a big stick? i want a BIG FUCKING GUN.
and a bullhorn.
i'm off to get some food and then i'm probably (around 90%) going to taekwondo.
which i'm not in the mood for. i just wanna chill.
*** later ***
my god. taekwondo almost killed me. i'm completely, utterly exhausted.
on the plus side, we didn't do any work on flexibility, so i can still walk, but we worked hard nonetheless. we fought for more than half an hour, and then we practised technique.
i need a hot shower, and then a masseuse with some fragrant oils. but that last part just ain't gonna happen.
*sob*
i just wish my training outfit didn't smell so bad - i have nowhere to put it. i'm blaming the climate for my being this disgusting... i actually found it strange when i trained in south africa, because i'd go hard for an hour without so much as breaking a sweat.
damn desert.
*** later ***
i just KNEW i was forgetting something important. i've been informed that i can sign up to play in a call of cthulu LARP in the streets of tel aviv!
ohmigod!
that's so cool!
the guy who told me about it is going to help me sign up, and then i have to learn all about the "other" great lord of the dark. the LARP's divided into three parts, and he's already played in the first. the description he gave was most enticing: i really hope this'll all fall into place.
and there was one other thing... mmmm....
nope. can't remember. good night.
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
18/06/03
i'm still feeling messed up - i think i'm getting dumber as each moment passes. i'm beginning to worry that i'm rapidly losing brain cells.
the ddk shite is going quite well: i actually understand the basics of how drivers work, and now i'm moving on to the how-to's.
i tried to play multiplayer rogue spear today, but it sucks on the ps.
i did play a lot of tekken though. my studies are going so well!
i just got back from a show put on by grade 9's to celebrate their leaving middle school. it was definitely interesting, but i've forgotten what it's like to be a teenager.
weird.
the ddk shite is going quite well: i actually understand the basics of how drivers work, and now i'm moving on to the how-to's.
i tried to play multiplayer rogue spear today, but it sucks on the ps.
i did play a lot of tekken though. my studies are going so well!
i just got back from a show put on by grade 9's to celebrate their leaving middle school. it was definitely interesting, but i've forgotten what it's like to be a teenager.
weird.
Tuesday, June 17, 2003
17/06/03
taekwondo never happened last night.
starcraft never happened last night.
learning ddk never happened last night.
what did happen is
*** yesterday ***
i got home, fell asleep for about an hour, and then when i tried to leave my apartment i almost passed out. my head was spinning and i was feeling really drained, and then i got semi-delusional.
so i decided i was sick and went back to sleep.
she came over late and brought a huge container filled with tortilla chips and doritos, and stayed with me for a bit. when she left i passed out, and
*** today ***
woke up this morning, around 8/9am.
i started looking at the ddk, which is a hell of a lot more complex than i expected - but so far it seems manageable.
i also played some starcraft: i'm on level 7! all by myself! with no cheating!
this is a first for me, so i'm a little excited.
and not in the least bit embarrassed about being so. so there.
i also finished the latest wheel of time book, so i'm going to begin reading shakespeare (finally!).
i'm right now at the university, sorting some stuff out, and then it's off to collect some belongings from my previous apartment, where there're new people moving in who don't care for my needs.
which means i'm about to lose even more space in my room, where i can barely move as it is.
great.
*** later ***
it turns out there was very little for me to take, as i fortunately get to leave my fridge and oven there. i had to take my posters, which i wanted to get anyway, and two whiteboards, which i kinda needed. to go with the markers, of course.
when i got home, i found to my dismay that i was still feeling all messed up, and reached a conclusion (a tad late, but then, i'm a tad slow).
i have sunstroke.
from sunday.
and of course i'm feeling shitty. at least i've been drinking plenty of water, but sleeping hasn't been helping and i was getting worried.
as for the ddk: i realized after studying the stuff for a couple of hours that while i understand the language (it's pretty much standard c++ with some funky macros and pre-compiler trash), understanding precisely what these things are doing is a bitch. it seems that i actually have to understand ALL the details of how drivers work even to get the general idea of these things, so i'm stuck reading the (un)help(ful) files.
thank you, microsoft.
on a slightly different note - i've run into an obscure problem. i'm currently on level 7 of starcraft, and one of the mission objectives is to drop raynor off somewhere. but i kinda lost him. i think he's dead, but then it's supposed to tell me i failed the mission. so now i'm just confused.
i've been on a diet for a few days now - no sweets or chocolate, so i rewarded myself tonight by eating one of these tiny hamburgers made of chewy gum. it was most pleasing.
grootbek got bitten really badly last night by mosquitoes, so now that it's agreed i'm not the only one vulnerable, we're chipping in for a zapper.
yay!
and tech tv and the music channels are back. so i suppose it's been a good day, all things considered.
starcraft never happened last night.
learning ddk never happened last night.
what did happen is
*** yesterday ***
i got home, fell asleep for about an hour, and then when i tried to leave my apartment i almost passed out. my head was spinning and i was feeling really drained, and then i got semi-delusional.
so i decided i was sick and went back to sleep.
she came over late and brought a huge container filled with tortilla chips and doritos, and stayed with me for a bit. when she left i passed out, and
*** today ***
woke up this morning, around 8/9am.
i started looking at the ddk, which is a hell of a lot more complex than i expected - but so far it seems manageable.
i also played some starcraft: i'm on level 7! all by myself! with no cheating!
this is a first for me, so i'm a little excited.
and not in the least bit embarrassed about being so. so there.
i also finished the latest wheel of time book, so i'm going to begin reading shakespeare (finally!).
i'm right now at the university, sorting some stuff out, and then it's off to collect some belongings from my previous apartment, where there're new people moving in who don't care for my needs.
which means i'm about to lose even more space in my room, where i can barely move as it is.
great.
*** later ***
it turns out there was very little for me to take, as i fortunately get to leave my fridge and oven there. i had to take my posters, which i wanted to get anyway, and two whiteboards, which i kinda needed. to go with the markers, of course.
when i got home, i found to my dismay that i was still feeling all messed up, and reached a conclusion (a tad late, but then, i'm a tad slow).
i have sunstroke.
from sunday.
and of course i'm feeling shitty. at least i've been drinking plenty of water, but sleeping hasn't been helping and i was getting worried.
as for the ddk: i realized after studying the stuff for a couple of hours that while i understand the language (it's pretty much standard c++ with some funky macros and pre-compiler trash), understanding precisely what these things are doing is a bitch. it seems that i actually have to understand ALL the details of how drivers work even to get the general idea of these things, so i'm stuck reading the (un)help(ful) files.
thank you, microsoft.
on a slightly different note - i've run into an obscure problem. i'm currently on level 7 of starcraft, and one of the mission objectives is to drop raynor off somewhere. but i kinda lost him. i think he's dead, but then it's supposed to tell me i failed the mission. so now i'm just confused.
i've been on a diet for a few days now - no sweets or chocolate, so i rewarded myself tonight by eating one of these tiny hamburgers made of chewy gum. it was most pleasing.
grootbek got bitten really badly last night by mosquitoes, so now that it's agreed i'm not the only one vulnerable, we're chipping in for a zapper.
yay!
and tech tv and the music channels are back. so i suppose it's been a good day, all things considered.
Monday, June 16, 2003
16/06/03
gosh, darn. my body hurts. like hell. hell hurts. i think.
i woke up this morning at 07.30 or so because my niece was coming to drop some stuff off with me. because she's going to south africa soon.
i'd complain, because i don't have enough space for my own belongings, but the truth is i'm rather happy that she's dropped off a beanbag, which i get to use for a while.
i just finished training at work - i got it all without any trouble, but i now have to hang around in order to make up hours, and all i've done with the potential writing drivers job is install the development kit.
at least it's a step, but i was led to believe that there's some time pressure, so i hope that i get a chance to play with it today.
on the plus (sic) side, i discovered last night (about 1am) that i remember c++ completely. i was worried that it'd been so long that i'd forget.
*** later ***
well, minutes later, even.
we just got back from lunch, which consisted of (for me) two eggrolls and corn soup. rather nice.
my brain's kinda shut down... i don't know what it is. maybe it's the lack of sound sleep that's finally getting to me.
naaah.
i just remembered that i still have to finish that contract i was doing - just started checking the site. i kinda haven't touched it in a while, so i hope that the guys aren't mad at me. especially seeing as they've paid me already.
DUM DUM DUM (scary soundtrack here).
i'm definitely, definitely going to have to get some sleep in before taekwondo tonight.
i woke up this morning at 07.30 or so because my niece was coming to drop some stuff off with me. because she's going to south africa soon.
i'd complain, because i don't have enough space for my own belongings, but the truth is i'm rather happy that she's dropped off a beanbag, which i get to use for a while.
i just finished training at work - i got it all without any trouble, but i now have to hang around in order to make up hours, and all i've done with the potential writing drivers job is install the development kit.
at least it's a step, but i was led to believe that there's some time pressure, so i hope that i get a chance to play with it today.
on the plus (sic) side, i discovered last night (about 1am) that i remember c++ completely. i was worried that it'd been so long that i'd forget.
*** later ***
well, minutes later, even.
we just got back from lunch, which consisted of (for me) two eggrolls and corn soup. rather nice.
my brain's kinda shut down... i don't know what it is. maybe it's the lack of sound sleep that's finally getting to me.
naaah.
i just remembered that i still have to finish that contract i was doing - just started checking the site. i kinda haven't touched it in a while, so i hope that the guys aren't mad at me. especially seeing as they've paid me already.
DUM DUM DUM (scary soundtrack here).
i'm definitely, definitely going to have to get some sleep in before taekwondo tonight.
Sunday, June 15, 2003
15/06/03
we bought a hub, but the flatmate (we've begun referring to him as grootbek) with the internet connection is running windows xp, so no dice on me having access from my machine.
and he's being a prick right now, so he won't let me use his, so not only can i not check email frequently, but i can't update this from home.
*** yesterday ***
i went to bed early on friday night, and woke up about 3am. i couldn't sleep - my body was killing me after the seminar. i also had the munchies, so after lying in bed for ages pondering, i finally got up for a midnight snack.
and watched the late show with david letterman. i've never seen it before, and i have to say that it's really not that funny.
kinda sad really. but then, that's americans for you!
i woke up around 09.30, and spent the day studying. with one short excursion to the beach. and we nipped into the mall to play air-hockey, and they had pang!! i haven't played it in years, and had forgotten the name, but i used to play it every day after school, and i've missed it.
check it out under fun stuff on my favourites page.
i got a call yesterday morning from a guy who wants some work done with drivers: i've been trying to figure out how to make them for a while now, and he's sent me the development kit so i can play with it. neat, huh?
*** today ***
my exam in marketing research begins in little over an hour, and i KNOW that i'm not ready. so i'm just going to pray and see.
on the plus side, however, no matter how badly the exam goes, SxS and i are going to the skate park today. we've decided to rent the protective gear, and we both reckon there's going to be some broken body bits, but i'm rather excited.
<BONG>
<BONG>
<BONG>
there are bells tolling in my head. i'm gonna go see if someone can help me.
*** later ***
oh my god! that was AWESOME!
we went to the skate park right after the exam. just so's you know, the exam sucked... i guessed about 3/4 of the questions. on the plus side, it's multiple choice so there's still a chance i passed :P.
anyways, we got there and skated for about an hour. a gruelling hour, as it was upwards of 33 degrees, and the sun was blazing. i actually got a tad burned.
i didn't really hurt myself much, a couple of scrapes here and there, but i learned how to do the basic "go up, turn around" on the half-pipe, and i'm feeling pretty chuffed.
i absolutely sucked on the rails - i just can't seem to slide. i even had to push myself with my hands :).
unfortunately, though, i didn't have the guts to try to drop into a ramp. too damn steep for me. next time - it's just that i've been so scared of doing it since i was a kid, and i'm still afraid.
although i did do one thing today that scared me: i went backwards over some stairs. that was okay. i was shaking horribly afterwards, but i did it.
the bottom line though is that i had a lot of fun - it was well worth the NIS 40 (about R80) for entrance and protective-gear-rent. but we're going to start going frequently, so i need to get my own.
afterwards we went to our friend's place with the pool, and swam. it was really refreshing - the guys got upset with me for the stupid grin i was wearing.
then we took the girl who came with us home to tel-aviv. she lives in this really naff apartment, overlooking one of the main streets. i dig that. we had some food, and watched tech-tv's x-play, which i reckon is the best place for game reviews: you actually get to see them being played.
it's 20.00. i just got back home (grootbek's not here), and until she visits (she's setting up for an exhibition at the moment, i'm sure i mentioned that she's an excellent photographer), i'm going to be playing starcraft and sleeping.
a wonderful combination, in my book.
so, for anybody who's had a crappy day today, i have only one thing to say:
sucks to be you.
and he's being a prick right now, so he won't let me use his, so not only can i not check email frequently, but i can't update this from home.
*** yesterday ***
i went to bed early on friday night, and woke up about 3am. i couldn't sleep - my body was killing me after the seminar. i also had the munchies, so after lying in bed for ages pondering, i finally got up for a midnight snack.
and watched the late show with david letterman. i've never seen it before, and i have to say that it's really not that funny.
kinda sad really. but then, that's americans for you!
i woke up around 09.30, and spent the day studying. with one short excursion to the beach. and we nipped into the mall to play air-hockey, and they had pang!! i haven't played it in years, and had forgotten the name, but i used to play it every day after school, and i've missed it.
check it out under fun stuff on my favourites page.
i got a call yesterday morning from a guy who wants some work done with drivers: i've been trying to figure out how to make them for a while now, and he's sent me the development kit so i can play with it. neat, huh?
*** today ***
my exam in marketing research begins in little over an hour, and i KNOW that i'm not ready. so i'm just going to pray and see.
on the plus side, however, no matter how badly the exam goes, SxS and i are going to the skate park today. we've decided to rent the protective gear, and we both reckon there's going to be some broken body bits, but i'm rather excited.
<BONG>
<BONG>
<BONG>
there are bells tolling in my head. i'm gonna go see if someone can help me.
*** later ***
oh my god! that was AWESOME!
we went to the skate park right after the exam. just so's you know, the exam sucked... i guessed about 3/4 of the questions. on the plus side, it's multiple choice so there's still a chance i passed :P.
anyways, we got there and skated for about an hour. a gruelling hour, as it was upwards of 33 degrees, and the sun was blazing. i actually got a tad burned.
i didn't really hurt myself much, a couple of scrapes here and there, but i learned how to do the basic "go up, turn around" on the half-pipe, and i'm feeling pretty chuffed.
i absolutely sucked on the rails - i just can't seem to slide. i even had to push myself with my hands :).
unfortunately, though, i didn't have the guts to try to drop into a ramp. too damn steep for me. next time - it's just that i've been so scared of doing it since i was a kid, and i'm still afraid.
although i did do one thing today that scared me: i went backwards over some stairs. that was okay. i was shaking horribly afterwards, but i did it.
the bottom line though is that i had a lot of fun - it was well worth the NIS 40 (about R80) for entrance and protective-gear-rent. but we're going to start going frequently, so i need to get my own.
afterwards we went to our friend's place with the pool, and swam. it was really refreshing - the guys got upset with me for the stupid grin i was wearing.
then we took the girl who came with us home to tel-aviv. she lives in this really naff apartment, overlooking one of the main streets. i dig that. we had some food, and watched tech-tv's x-play, which i reckon is the best place for game reviews: you actually get to see them being played.
it's 20.00. i just got back home (grootbek's not here), and until she visits (she's setting up for an exhibition at the moment, i'm sure i mentioned that she's an excellent photographer), i'm going to be playing starcraft and sleeping.
a wonderful combination, in my book.
so, for anybody who's had a crappy day today, i have only one thing to say:
sucks to be you.
Friday, June 13, 2003
13/06/03
*** yesterday ***
i left work at around 14.00 - 15.00 yesterday, slept for about 45 minutes, and then i bladed to taekwondo. where we stretched so much that we cried.
and then began training.
i got home late last night, after walking (well, blading really slowly) one of the kids from our gym back home. he doesn't speak much english, so it's good practice for me.
i had a shower, she came over for a bit, she left, i crashed.
*** today ***
i got up around 11.00, went shopping for the weekend, and went to a black-belt seminar in kfar saba.
which sucked. i was hurting so badly before, and it's amplified now. i had to rollerblade back from ra'anana because we finished at 17/18.00, so there were no more buses.
and now that i've quite finished abusing the internet, i'm going to bed.
good night to all, and to all...
i left work at around 14.00 - 15.00 yesterday, slept for about 45 minutes, and then i bladed to taekwondo. where we stretched so much that we cried.
and then began training.
i got home late last night, after walking (well, blading really slowly) one of the kids from our gym back home. he doesn't speak much english, so it's good practice for me.
i had a shower, she came over for a bit, she left, i crashed.
*** today ***
i got up around 11.00, went shopping for the weekend, and went to a black-belt seminar in kfar saba.
which sucked. i was hurting so badly before, and it's amplified now. i had to rollerblade back from ra'anana because we finished at 17/18.00, so there were no more buses.
and now that i've quite finished abusing the internet, i'm going to bed.
good night to all, and to all...
Thursday, June 12, 2003
12/06/03
last night i went with her to see the matrix, and i've updated the mental masturbation section to that effect, and added to my journal.
i went to bed around 01.30, and woke up at 08.00, and then again at 09.00 to come to work. where i am now. working.
i went to bed around 01.30, and woke up at 08.00, and then again at 09.00 to come to work. where i am now. working.
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
11/06/03
*** yesterday ***
i woke up early yesterday morning (around 9/10am) to study. i was having breakfast in front of the tv, and the power of one came on, so after i finished eating i alternated between studying and watching all the interesting bits.
i read the book when i was a kid, so most of the movie wasn't quite the same, but the intense bits, and the fight scenes, were great.
plus it's south africa, and i am a little homesick.
i studied for most of the day, slept maybe an hour and didn't play any games (okay, aside from 20 minutes of tekken after lunch...).
then last night i discovered a section i hadn't heard of, so it was frantic note stealing time.
*** today ***
i just finished writing the exam, and the notes i stole didn't help one iota - i had to leave out 20% of the paper. i really hope i passed, as i can't imagine anything worse than rewriting, but also as i don't think that the army will give me the opportunity.
i've pissed them off enough already.
i'm off home now to go and wash this icky "investment theory" feeling off, and then get some rest.
and maybe play games even. or go rollerblading.
anything but start studying for sunday's "the other big exam".
*** later ***
i didn't get to shower. i got a call from SxS as soon as i walked in, and we went to the industrial zone to rollerblade.
we went to the skatepark there, which is really not bad, and it costs NIS 25 (about R45) for a day. only problem is we need all the pads, or no entrance. :(
we then went to a friends place, swam in his pool, played frisbee, and generally chilled until the friend got home :D.
had drinks, and i was going to eat mielies with them, but i had to come home to shower and get ready - in a few minutes i'm finally off to see the matrix reloaded.
at least we remembered to book tickets.
i woke up early yesterday morning (around 9/10am) to study. i was having breakfast in front of the tv, and the power of one came on, so after i finished eating i alternated between studying and watching all the interesting bits.
i read the book when i was a kid, so most of the movie wasn't quite the same, but the intense bits, and the fight scenes, were great.
plus it's south africa, and i am a little homesick.
i studied for most of the day, slept maybe an hour and didn't play any games (okay, aside from 20 minutes of tekken after lunch...).
then last night i discovered a section i hadn't heard of, so it was frantic note stealing time.
*** today ***
i just finished writing the exam, and the notes i stole didn't help one iota - i had to leave out 20% of the paper. i really hope i passed, as i can't imagine anything worse than rewriting, but also as i don't think that the army will give me the opportunity.
i've pissed them off enough already.
i'm off home now to go and wash this icky "investment theory" feeling off, and then get some rest.
and maybe play games even. or go rollerblading.
anything but start studying for sunday's "the other big exam".
*** later ***
i didn't get to shower. i got a call from SxS as soon as i walked in, and we went to the industrial zone to rollerblade.
we went to the skatepark there, which is really not bad, and it costs NIS 25 (about R45) for a day. only problem is we need all the pads, or no entrance. :(
we then went to a friends place, swam in his pool, played frisbee, and generally chilled until the friend got home :D.
had drinks, and i was going to eat mielies with them, but i had to come home to shower and get ready - in a few minutes i'm finally off to see the matrix reloaded.
at least we remembered to book tickets.
Monday, June 09, 2003
09/06/03
*** yesterday ***
well, kind of yesterday, anyway. before going to bed last night, i received an sms telling me about the metallica concert on mtv last night. it's the first time i've ever watched them live, so i was really excited, and thoroughly enjoyed it.
*** today ***
i woke up early, bought a scouring pad and attempted to remove act ii double butter stains from our microwave, and this is not an easy task.
quite frustrating, really.
the good, nay, great news is that i finally got starcraft to work! and sammy has a small lan at his place, so we'll begin playing as soon as neither of us are studying.
half-life, too. it's so nice to know i'm not alone.
i received a call at around 11 telling me that i had to come to work today, so i'm there now, but hopefully i'll be able to go home soon, as i've only studied for about half an hour today.
this is not good.
*** later ***
i had to stay at work till after 5, because the guy who's training me got hold of me (for the first time in weeks) and taught me stuff. at least i got paid.
went with her to the park for an hour; got some really good ice-cream and chilled. afterwards i went to sammy's for some half-life. it was fun, but there was a lot of lag, and it took me a while to begin fragging.
i will beat his ass next time. what made a huge difference to the game was that there were only two of us, and we could see each other's monitors. so it was a bit strange... we'll have to fix that.
and now it's study-time again.
i hope i learn enough to justify today. i have no clue how this exam's going to go, but i'm not going to get any more stressed - i'm just gonna do this thing, hoping for the best.
well, kind of yesterday, anyway. before going to bed last night, i received an sms telling me about the metallica concert on mtv last night. it's the first time i've ever watched them live, so i was really excited, and thoroughly enjoyed it.
*** today ***
i woke up early, bought a scouring pad and attempted to remove act ii double butter stains from our microwave, and this is not an easy task.
quite frustrating, really.
the good, nay, great news is that i finally got starcraft to work! and sammy has a small lan at his place, so we'll begin playing as soon as neither of us are studying.
half-life, too. it's so nice to know i'm not alone.
i received a call at around 11 telling me that i had to come to work today, so i'm there now, but hopefully i'll be able to go home soon, as i've only studied for about half an hour today.
this is not good.
*** later ***
i had to stay at work till after 5, because the guy who's training me got hold of me (for the first time in weeks) and taught me stuff. at least i got paid.
went with her to the park for an hour; got some really good ice-cream and chilled. afterwards i went to sammy's for some half-life. it was fun, but there was a lot of lag, and it took me a while to begin fragging.
i will beat his ass next time. what made a huge difference to the game was that there were only two of us, and we could see each other's monitors. so it was a bit strange... we'll have to fix that.
and now it's study-time again.
i hope i learn enough to justify today. i have no clue how this exam's going to go, but i'm not going to get any more stressed - i'm just gonna do this thing, hoping for the best.
Sunday, June 08, 2003
08/06/03
today sucked - piles.
the good news is that i can write the exam on wednesday. the bad news is that i have to write the exam on wednesday.
at least the university's okay with me financially...
our fridge is officially dead, although still on life-support. and none of us can bring ourselves to flick the switch, but we all know the truth. some of the food has come out in protest, but other, more responsible items have been helping to keep everything peaceful and orderly.
i suck at starcraft, which i'm playing for the first time. and i can't play counterstrike online, so the most fun i can have with it is shooting the training targets over, and over, and over again.
whoopee!
Captain Butt Seriously, the studying is breaking me. i have spent so much time trying today and learned so little, it's as if my subconcious mind doesn't WANT to understand this stuff. funny that.
hmmm. i'm going back into the trenches now.
the good news is that i can write the exam on wednesday. the bad news is that i have to write the exam on wednesday.
at least the university's okay with me financially...
our fridge is officially dead, although still on life-support. and none of us can bring ourselves to flick the switch, but we all know the truth. some of the food has come out in protest, but other, more responsible items have been helping to keep everything peaceful and orderly.
i suck at starcraft, which i'm playing for the first time. and i can't play counterstrike online, so the most fun i can have with it is shooting the training targets over, and over, and over again.
whoopee!
Captain Butt Seriously, the studying is breaking me. i have spent so much time trying today and learned so little, it's as if my subconcious mind doesn't WANT to understand this stuff. funny that.
hmmm. i'm going back into the trenches now.
Saturday, June 07, 2003
07/06/03
*** yesterday ***
yesterday... was... friday. yes, i think that's right.
i slept for most of it, read a bit more of robert jordan's tenth book, crossroads of twilight, and ate really badly (bread and spaghetti pretty much cover it).
oh yeah, and i downloaded simcity 2000 special edition and started playing around with it. i haven't played that in years, and it's still a great game.
last night i watched dogma for the first time. i really enjoyed it.
she came over, and we watched orgazmo. she didn't enjoy it.
funny that.
*** today ***
i was meant to be studying today. i have this major exam coming up, for which i'm most definitely NOT prepared, and i just can't sit down and concentrate! it's really frustrating.
i downloaded and started playing starcraft (i never really got into it before), and was just beginning to have fun when the game crashed out, claiming a missing sequence file as the fault.
i can't seem to find any help online, so if anybody reading this has a clue, please send me the aforementioned clue so that i can be happy and fulfilled.
so basically, it's a beautiful day, which i'm missing for absolutely nothing, but i can't go outside because i need to study. this lying to myself is both pointless and painful. but i really do need to study.
bleah.
*** later ***
i just finished watching back to the future part iii, and DAMN, it's hard to believe that they made those films so well back then, that they still can't really match them these days.
they just have a certain feel to them that's so right, even if the special effects aren't, by today's standards, amazing.
where did we go wrong?
before that, my mommy called and gave me an injection of "stop fucking around". she's 100% correct, i don't have enough faith in myself when it comes to studies. all crap aside, it's time to get down and get this shit into my head.
i WILL pass this exam.
let's just hope i still feel this way tomorrow. anyway, if i don't update this site for a couple of days, you'll know why. although the chances of that happening are slim to none. it's just an excuse for me to be lazy.
yesterday... was... friday. yes, i think that's right.
i slept for most of it, read a bit more of robert jordan's tenth book, crossroads of twilight, and ate really badly (bread and spaghetti pretty much cover it).
oh yeah, and i downloaded simcity 2000 special edition and started playing around with it. i haven't played that in years, and it's still a great game.
last night i watched dogma for the first time. i really enjoyed it.
she came over, and we watched orgazmo. she didn't enjoy it.
funny that.
*** today ***
i was meant to be studying today. i have this major exam coming up, for which i'm most definitely NOT prepared, and i just can't sit down and concentrate! it's really frustrating.
i downloaded and started playing starcraft (i never really got into it before), and was just beginning to have fun when the game crashed out, claiming a missing sequence file as the fault.
i can't seem to find any help online, so if anybody reading this has a clue, please send me the aforementioned clue so that i can be happy and fulfilled.
so basically, it's a beautiful day, which i'm missing for absolutely nothing, but i can't go outside because i need to study. this lying to myself is both pointless and painful. but i really do need to study.
bleah.
*** later ***
i just finished watching back to the future part iii, and DAMN, it's hard to believe that they made those films so well back then, that they still can't really match them these days.
they just have a certain feel to them that's so right, even if the special effects aren't, by today's standards, amazing.
where did we go wrong?
before that, my mommy called and gave me an injection of "stop fucking around". she's 100% correct, i don't have enough faith in myself when it comes to studies. all crap aside, it's time to get down and get this shit into my head.
i WILL pass this exam.
let's just hope i still feel this way tomorrow. anyway, if i don't update this site for a couple of days, you'll know why. although the chances of that happening are slim to none. it's just an excuse for me to be lazy.
Thursday, June 05, 2003
05/06/03
i woke up this morning bright and way-too early. i had a big, wonderful breakfast, and then ruined the mood by going to training.
after about two minutes training i managed to lock up my neck, completely. so my range of motion has been reduced to "forward".
but i had to carry on: i trained from 10 to 12.40. i was hurting badly by the end, and was absolutely drained and drenched. we're currently experiencing temperatures upwards of 30 degrees (celsius), with high humidity - so let's just say running around and fighting in these conditions (not to mention with a lot of neck pain) is not quite desirable.
so i had sambusak ("sum-boo-suck", a strange form of pastry) and ice-cream for lunch, and ran into a couple of friends. chilled in the shade for a while, drinking virgin colours (it's so nice to have those here now), and talking loads of crap.
i went with her to a barmitzvah today. she was the photographer - it was an interesting experience. it was a very pleasant place, and the food was okay, so all in all it was worth the mission.
after we returned, i finally showed her this website. and she finally agreed to a photo - go check out the photo gallery!
i actually have more, but i had to promise not to make those available to anyone... so sorry.
and we have some fridge-quotes: i've put those up under mental masturbation.
it's now 02.12, i think maybe i should disappear.
*POOF*
after about two minutes training i managed to lock up my neck, completely. so my range of motion has been reduced to "forward".
but i had to carry on: i trained from 10 to 12.40. i was hurting badly by the end, and was absolutely drained and drenched. we're currently experiencing temperatures upwards of 30 degrees (celsius), with high humidity - so let's just say running around and fighting in these conditions (not to mention with a lot of neck pain) is not quite desirable.
so i had sambusak ("sum-boo-suck", a strange form of pastry) and ice-cream for lunch, and ran into a couple of friends. chilled in the shade for a while, drinking virgin colours (it's so nice to have those here now), and talking loads of crap.
i went with her to a barmitzvah today. she was the photographer - it was an interesting experience. it was a very pleasant place, and the food was okay, so all in all it was worth the mission.
after we returned, i finally showed her this website. and she finally agreed to a photo - go check out the photo gallery!
i actually have more, but i had to promise not to make those available to anyone... so sorry.
and we have some fridge-quotes: i've put those up under mental masturbation.
it's now 02.12, i think maybe i should disappear.
*POOF*
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
04/06/03
i finally bought the hub, and we got ethernet cable.
wonderful.
now if only we could get the damn systems to talk to one another, everything would be just peachy-fucking-creamy.
bascially, our genius homeboy from new yawk is running xp, so my 2k system can't log on or use internet connection sharing.
so today's the day the geeks on campus actually provide some real assistance.
that'll be a first, mind.
last night, tekken happened. my flatmate and a friend of ours keep playing, more than i've ever played, yet whenever i join them they can't touch me.
last night our homeboy got all excited because in one of the last rounds i didn't perfect him.
that's fairly sad.
on the crap side of that, SxS still beats me fairly consistently, although i've finally begun putting up a fight (it's only taken roughly a year and a half).
i finally figured out how to finish the counterstrike training mission this morning. i feel like such a putz. but i'm ready to try online - i just need to get net access from my machine (my little pony?).
*** later ***
rant: well, i'm at home now (22.30), and i'm missing THE party of the year for my university.
and i so don't care it's not even funny.
i find it sad and uninspiring to go to parties where lots of snobs and losers get horribly trashed listening to crap music. and i know that everyone who was there is going to tell me i missed something really incredible.
yeah, incredibly BAD.
i almost feel sorry for myself, knowing that there're few parties that i can go to that will satisfy me.
and cheesy house ones are definitely on the list of those that won't.
i got my watch strap adjusted today - and after two attempts it's still too big by a notch.
rhymes with crotch.
i don't know why i felt like saying that.
i'm about to upload a pic of it to My Stuff in the photo gallery. anywho, i went with sammy (a strange nick, but a nick nonetheless) to the mall, and we went shopping for a desk and a mouse. the mouse we found, the desk we didn't, but we came across two things that stood out in my mind.
1. a really naff chair, real leather (i think), with wheels that make it a fine contender for nascar. only prob is the NIS 800 (+- R1500) pricetag.
2. a game called dogs of war. oh - my - god. this looks like THE game. it's a real-time strategy game that can be played from any point of view. and it's beautiful. go find a movie now, the address is in my favourites. (two months later - note: address removed due to crapness of game. pretty, but crap.)
it appears i'm in deep shite as far as my exams are concerned, as in i may not be able to take two of them, which pretty much implies army service beginning july.
which i don't want. i want to go in after my degree, but this is looking to be less and less of an option.
i'm so dramatic i scare myself. literally.
so i've been doing the productive thing: i downloaded all the course material for my exams, and then read webcomics.
for around an hour and a half. maybe two hours, tops - i swear!
it's late for supper time, but i'm going to have a go. tomorrow morning training, bright and chipper. goody, goody, gumdrops.
wonderful.
now if only we could get the damn systems to talk to one another, everything would be just peachy-fucking-creamy.
bascially, our genius homeboy from new yawk is running xp, so my 2k system can't log on or use internet connection sharing.
so today's the day the geeks on campus actually provide some real assistance.
that'll be a first, mind.
last night, tekken happened. my flatmate and a friend of ours keep playing, more than i've ever played, yet whenever i join them they can't touch me.
last night our homeboy got all excited because in one of the last rounds i didn't perfect him.
that's fairly sad.
on the crap side of that, SxS still beats me fairly consistently, although i've finally begun putting up a fight (it's only taken roughly a year and a half).
i finally figured out how to finish the counterstrike training mission this morning. i feel like such a putz. but i'm ready to try online - i just need to get net access from my machine (my little pony?).
*** later ***
rant: well, i'm at home now (22.30), and i'm missing THE party of the year for my university.
and i so don't care it's not even funny.
i find it sad and uninspiring to go to parties where lots of snobs and losers get horribly trashed listening to crap music. and i know that everyone who was there is going to tell me i missed something really incredible.
yeah, incredibly BAD.
i almost feel sorry for myself, knowing that there're few parties that i can go to that will satisfy me.
and cheesy house ones are definitely on the list of those that won't.
i got my watch strap adjusted today - and after two attempts it's still too big by a notch.
rhymes with crotch.
i don't know why i felt like saying that.
i'm about to upload a pic of it to My Stuff in the photo gallery. anywho, i went with sammy (a strange nick, but a nick nonetheless) to the mall, and we went shopping for a desk and a mouse. the mouse we found, the desk we didn't, but we came across two things that stood out in my mind.
1. a really naff chair, real leather (i think), with wheels that make it a fine contender for nascar. only prob is the NIS 800 (+- R1500) pricetag.
2. a game called dogs of war. oh - my - god. this looks like THE game. it's a real-time strategy game that can be played from any point of view. and it's beautiful. go find a movie now, the address is in my favourites. (two months later - note: address removed due to crapness of game. pretty, but crap.)
it appears i'm in deep shite as far as my exams are concerned, as in i may not be able to take two of them, which pretty much implies army service beginning july.
which i don't want. i want to go in after my degree, but this is looking to be less and less of an option.
i'm so dramatic i scare myself. literally.
so i've been doing the productive thing: i downloaded all the course material for my exams, and then read webcomics.
for around an hour and a half. maybe two hours, tops - i swear!
it's late for supper time, but i'm going to have a go. tomorrow morning training, bright and chipper. goody, goody, gumdrops.
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
03/06/03
today is a REALLY sucky day.
in fact, i would just love to get hold of a decent firearm and go nuts throughout the city.
let's just say i'm a tad annoyed.
nay, a mite.
i stayed up until around 2am trying to do the marketing research homework, but eventually i gave up because not only am i lacking in excel skills (although i did learn some nifty shit), but i have absolutely no frikkin' clue how to answer the question.
i then woke up at 7.45, exhausted, hurriedly put on some clothes (including my newly done shirt), and walked to school.
the class (marketing research) was fuck-off boring, and i learned that i'd approached the problem in exactly the wrong way.
great.
i then discovered that almost noone had done the investment theory homework, so everyone was scrambling to copy from those few who had. i have this really dumb thing about only copying what i understand. so i ended up handing in complete and utter crap.
it now seems that i might not be able to write the exam, and automatic failure where it counts the most is not good. so i'm depressed, and frustrated, and aggravated.
our class in corporate law was cool though - not only did i understand, but i could even get in my two-cents' worth... it appears i might be getting a really decent grade on THIS paper at least.
i whiled and wended (sic) my *merry* way home, went shopping for washing powder and spaghetti (staple student diet), and had lunch. i'm now catching up on some webcomics, and should soon be on my *merry* way to buy a hub, so that i can have net access from my bedroom.
we should have done this months ago. we're cheap and lazy.
i'm hoping i can add some good news to this pile of crud soon.
in fact, i would just love to get hold of a decent firearm and go nuts throughout the city.
let's just say i'm a tad annoyed.
nay, a mite.
i stayed up until around 2am trying to do the marketing research homework, but eventually i gave up because not only am i lacking in excel skills (although i did learn some nifty shit), but i have absolutely no frikkin' clue how to answer the question.
i then woke up at 7.45, exhausted, hurriedly put on some clothes (including my newly done shirt), and walked to school.
the class (marketing research) was fuck-off boring, and i learned that i'd approached the problem in exactly the wrong way.
great.
i then discovered that almost noone had done the investment theory homework, so everyone was scrambling to copy from those few who had. i have this really dumb thing about only copying what i understand. so i ended up handing in complete and utter crap.
it now seems that i might not be able to write the exam, and automatic failure where it counts the most is not good. so i'm depressed, and frustrated, and aggravated.
our class in corporate law was cool though - not only did i understand, but i could even get in my two-cents' worth... it appears i might be getting a really decent grade on THIS paper at least.
i whiled and wended (sic) my *merry* way home, went shopping for washing powder and spaghetti (staple student diet), and had lunch. i'm now catching up on some webcomics, and should soon be on my *merry* way to buy a hub, so that i can have net access from my bedroom.
we should have done this months ago. we're cheap and lazy.
i'm hoping i can add some good news to this pile of crud soon.
Monday, June 02, 2003
02/06/03
i woke up today at around 10 or 11.
or 12.
one of them, at any rate. i finally got through to the doctor's phone, and discovered that the tests i did on 05/05 all came back, and that i'm not only healthy, but i don't have HIV. good to know!
i bladed to the bank, and discovered that i'm actually going to have money this month, so i can cover my bills and eat AT THE SAME TIME.
wow, that feels good.
off i rolled to the university. this time i'd remembered to take iron-on transfer paper: i printed out the vampire smiley from life of riley.
there wasn't much else to do there, aside from drinking the staff's hot chocolate and learning bits of flash from the guru who resides there.
i then payed my bills (my most annoying flatmate was on campus - and i DIDN'T hit him, as much as i'd love to most-times), and went off to ramat gan to a meeting for all us very important helpdesk operators.
these meetings occur weekly, nobody ever says anything important, and what they do say is in tones to make a lullaby-singing mother jealous.
so i earned some cash, cleared some email, ate a free sandwich, and promptly left.
it's a really nice place to work.
i swear it took HOURS to get home, kinda like in the movie contact (with jodie foster? i never remember) in the transporter-thingy.
i've begun doing the homework for marketing research, which involves an in-depth understanding of regression analysis and ms excel.
neither of which i have.
i took a break, and ironed on my transfer (doesn't that sound weird?), and it came out quite nicely. a picture will be arriving in the photo gallery shortly.
considering the sheer unpleasantness of my current homework situation, it appears i will not be going to training tonight.
hurray.
or 12.
one of them, at any rate. i finally got through to the doctor's phone, and discovered that the tests i did on 05/05 all came back, and that i'm not only healthy, but i don't have HIV. good to know!
i bladed to the bank, and discovered that i'm actually going to have money this month, so i can cover my bills and eat AT THE SAME TIME.
wow, that feels good.
off i rolled to the university. this time i'd remembered to take iron-on transfer paper: i printed out the vampire smiley from life of riley.
there wasn't much else to do there, aside from drinking the staff's hot chocolate and learning bits of flash from the guru who resides there.
i then payed my bills (my most annoying flatmate was on campus - and i DIDN'T hit him, as much as i'd love to most-times), and went off to ramat gan to a meeting for all us very important helpdesk operators.
these meetings occur weekly, nobody ever says anything important, and what they do say is in tones to make a lullaby-singing mother jealous.
so i earned some cash, cleared some email, ate a free sandwich, and promptly left.
it's a really nice place to work.
i swear it took HOURS to get home, kinda like in the movie contact (with jodie foster? i never remember) in the transporter-thingy.
i've begun doing the homework for marketing research, which involves an in-depth understanding of regression analysis and ms excel.
neither of which i have.
i took a break, and ironed on my transfer (doesn't that sound weird?), and it came out quite nicely. a picture will be arriving in the photo gallery shortly.
considering the sheer unpleasantness of my current homework situation, it appears i will not be going to training tonight.
hurray.
Sunday, June 01, 2003
01/06/03
*** yesterday ***
where was i?
oh, right. i remember now.
i never went rollerblading. i didn't help out my friend with his ms access homework. i studied, a bit. read comics online, and i've now fallen in love with life of riley.
yesterday evening i went with her to watch the matrix ii.
but when we got there half an hour early, a week after opening, there were no tickets left.
which sucked.
so we decided to watch another movie - and settled on phone booth. which was an absolutely WICKED film. really messed up, brilliantly done.
*** today ***
i woke up this morning with all sorts of things to do, and i kinda started on getting them sorted out. mostly to do with the amount i owe my university - more than $6000. which i don't have. and if they won't let me write the exams because of this then the army will take me, and then i DEFINITELY won't be able to pay it.
what a great situation.
so i'm waiting and seeing. i went to our macroeconomics class, and even though it was stuff i couldn't follow it was just as boring as usual - nodded off at one point, and woke myself up by snoring loudly.
that felt wonderful... fortunately everyone was ignoring me, so i didn't feel too bad.
now i'm supposed to go home and study, but i'm not sure that's going to happen. i'll probably pass out and wake up late for taekwondo class.
oh well.
*** today ***
it's 02.24, time for bed. a shower first, and then bed.
taekwondo was good, i had a private lesson again. i stretched and i fixed some mistakes, and learned some more korean.
i also received some good news.
i may be able to get a scholarship for the teaching course in wingate, which was a concern. also, my instructor tells me that she'd be happy to give me permission to teach others, so if i can find students then i can train and make money at the same time.
sweet.
we had a major tekken tournament when i got home, and now we're on our way to get hamburgers, so it's time to go.
and i think i forgot to mention - i finally got hold of counterstrike, so i can get some gametime in.
it's been a VERY long while.
where was i?
oh, right. i remember now.
i never went rollerblading. i didn't help out my friend with his ms access homework. i studied, a bit. read comics online, and i've now fallen in love with life of riley.
yesterday evening i went with her to watch the matrix ii.
but when we got there half an hour early, a week after opening, there were no tickets left.
which sucked.
so we decided to watch another movie - and settled on phone booth. which was an absolutely WICKED film. really messed up, brilliantly done.
*** today ***
i woke up this morning with all sorts of things to do, and i kinda started on getting them sorted out. mostly to do with the amount i owe my university - more than $6000. which i don't have. and if they won't let me write the exams because of this then the army will take me, and then i DEFINITELY won't be able to pay it.
what a great situation.
so i'm waiting and seeing. i went to our macroeconomics class, and even though it was stuff i couldn't follow it was just as boring as usual - nodded off at one point, and woke myself up by snoring loudly.
that felt wonderful... fortunately everyone was ignoring me, so i didn't feel too bad.
now i'm supposed to go home and study, but i'm not sure that's going to happen. i'll probably pass out and wake up late for taekwondo class.
oh well.
*** today ***
it's 02.24, time for bed. a shower first, and then bed.
taekwondo was good, i had a private lesson again. i stretched and i fixed some mistakes, and learned some more korean.
i also received some good news.
i may be able to get a scholarship for the teaching course in wingate, which was a concern. also, my instructor tells me that she'd be happy to give me permission to teach others, so if i can find students then i can train and make money at the same time.
sweet.
we had a major tekken tournament when i got home, and now we're on our way to get hamburgers, so it's time to go.
and i think i forgot to mention - i finally got hold of counterstrike, so i can get some gametime in.
it's been a VERY long while.
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