over the last couple of days we've become really concerned by mr smear - he's barely eating, lately, either claiming that he forgets to eat or that he's just not hungry. we don't want to make too much of a "thing" about it, but it can't be good :(
otherwise, gd's continued to be pretty sick. it's not as dramatic as the last time (a few weeks ago), but she's finding it unpleasant and gross and demoralizing.
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the weekend is now over, after a very long and tiring week. i'm not sure what this one's going to bring, but i'm already feeling... unenthusiastic. i guess i need to find a technique to turn that around...
friday:
gd's dentist appointment didn't go as well as we'd hoped, but at least she got the filling for the cavity that was intefering with her crown being taken care of. we caught a bus, paid a visit to a pharmacy, hardware store and nature store, then walked to pick mr smear up from school.
the rest of the afternoon was spent quietly at home.
i started playing what remains of edith finch and journey. both really great so far.
so far, i'm feeling like planescape: torment is torment in more than name. maybe now isn't the right time.
yesterday:
the day started with a few hours of doing random online things (mostly reading, but also posting a comics update for the first time in months) and reading mona lisa overdrive (i'm about halfway through, and it's finally starting to feel like it's coming together), and playing more of what remains of edith finch, while mr smear played on the playstation.
it was the mongoose's birthday, and he invited us to join him and his daughter for an outing to the zoo. that ended up turning into a stroll in the park, which turned into meeting up with his wife and going for hummus, and ultimately it was a very pleasant few hours that saw us getting a very real amount of exercise and fresh air, with only a few mild complaints from mr smear about wanting to go on his phone.
i spoke to the mongoose about a couple of ideas that have been bouncing around my skull: he put forward some solid arguments as to why my property disruption idea can't work as i've envisioned it. it's a sad feeling to discover big blindspots...
on our way home, we picked up a couple of tiny tubs of ice cream and mr smear expressed the sentiment that it was unfair that gd couldn't join us, and that he should leave her half. i agreed whole-heartedly in principle, though only half-heartedly in practice - it's *really* good ice cream :P
shower / dinner / bedtime: the first two were pretty smooth, but bedtime was, as usual, problematic. his fear of the dark.
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i must have spent at least half an hour with him, trying to comfort and boost him but having a couple of fights along the way, but ultimately i got him to understand that i'm trying to help him out of love and that he's going to have to face this stuff - he might not find my specific advice useful, but that just means he's got to figure it out for himself. he finally rolled over without a shit feeling between us, and whatever he did appears to have been successful.
hopefully tonight will be easier.
