not a bad day at all: i almost missed my bus, but i didn't. and i couldn't sleep, because i got totally stuck into one of the most beautiful and bad-ass "neo noir"* films i've ever seen: angel heart.
another phenomenal classic that flew straight under my radar... i'm very grateful that spinnit mentioned it the last time we met.
* neo noir: it's noir, but in colour. jeez.
i walked into my old cubicle this morning, took stock a moment, then found my new one. i cannot express the difference! our pointy-haired boss arrived to make some bright-spark remark - probably intended to say something about the brad pitt hint i left him - and i took the opportunity to dig in and twist about something that's been staring me in the face for years:
there is one thing in the military that nobody of any rank has. his dignity.
i had an exceptionally productive day. the only real mistake involved purchasing timtams: again?! i never learn. too - much - good - chocolate.
there's a freaky kid in our unit, i've mentioned him before (can't find where). i heard the hand-dryer's noise as i got to the door of the bathroom, and decided to wait for it to stop before entering. it didn't stop. i waited some more... and it still didn't stop. so i pushed the door open, and found the kid drywashing his hands with a blank look on his face, which was held at an awkward angle.
i walked over to the sink behind him - still not stopping. i looked at him, stared, stared some more, and was about to say something about not wasting electricity when he got a strange smile on his face and skipped outside.
i had a chat with my mum regarding my near-future plans, and i think i'm going to take her advice. it's sound, but not an easy decision to make.
i thought a lot about the man in the suit (who eventually called me back) and what i'm going to say to him. i know it's not smart, but i have this weird condition that requires me to try to fix broken things. the sentence that popped into my head?
i'm one of the good guys, and you're playing cowboys and injuns with toy guns.
i was enjoying the ride home, still watching the movie... right until the cheeky shit opened his fat mouth about how it's not fair that i'm not doing him a favour and taking the bus instead of him: the route is defined by where *i* live, because *i'm* in the permanent force and the shuttle is for *us*.
i told him no, explained to him why, and then out came the gem: "but i have to carry a gun! it's not fair that you're exempt!"
little bastard has no manners; i let him have my best scowl and low-voiced threat (it all came out so naturally), and he shut up and turned back. i think i'm going to have words with the guy in charge of the shuttle.
shaking that wonderful experience off, i went to visit the hardware dude and help him with his printer... it's a bitch of a setup, but i managed to find a way. i hope somebody does him a favour and finds a better one.
i ran into one of my old neighbours and invited them for coffee, but it's their anniversary tonight. i'm trying to sort out something with another friend to help the first ones, so there are now two hosting evenings in the pipeline :P
shopped, posted, and now to get something productive going.
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
humidity rising
i thought yesterday's was bad... today was disgusting. i felt like the wickedest witch of the west after the bucket hits her. and being in uniform didn't help, either.
speaking of which, the feeling i got from the man in the suit today was positive. i'm praying that he's as honest as he comes across.
[i've never heard of anyone being told "TMI" in these situations]
[john milton - paradise lost: book ii, 236..249 - it's frightening how appropriate these verses are to both my current situation and my general outlook on life]
on the way to meet the man, the bastard bus driver "did me a favour" and told me i'd reached my stop about ten icky minutes' walk (and a slight navigational error) away; i found out when i left that the line stops right outside.
i made it back in time for the presentation of hive (tahoma was surprised), and lunch. we have a new kid who's hysterically unwittingly funny (he's trying to establish himself... badly...), and i was still giggling when i picked up the soup ladle. if i'd stopped to take a breath maybe i wouldn't have dropped it in the soup tureen :$
when we got back, it was time to hogtie and dowse the kinder, the cadet and the new kid (all at once). we were all having a raucous, grand old time - right until the unit commander appeared and put a stop to it.
even the victims were disappointed, it's a sign of respect. i had a go at the guy in charge for not checking beforehand that the unit commander was otherwise occupied.
i returned to an inbox containing a couple of mails between me and a kid with whom i share mutual disgust... someone else had been cutting and pasting mails to make it look like the two of us were having an online altercation. i sent a very serious threat (which i *really* hope nobody pushes me to carry out) to deal with any further forgeries in an official manner. that will not be fun.
our entire unit was subjected to a presentation, one of the highlights being that someone was written about and somebody else's picture was displayed - causing mass hysterics and embarrassing the person responsible no end. the picture was of someone with the same name as mine, and later on our pointy-haired boss came to my desk to make a joke about my picture being splashed all over the place... maybe i shouldn't have climbed into him for not recognizing me, as usual... [it was one of the points i raised a couple of weeks ago: he can't differentiate between us at all]
nystire and i have been pretty good about exercising every day! today was really sweaty.
i've been introducing another section's commander to the israeli indie scene after he expressed interest, and i've continued to bring him discs even though his positive responses seemed a little off... i realized today that he's really not into any of it. oh, well.
on the way home i was hit by two giant inspiration particles. then i went shopping, and came back feeling even more inspired. and then these two happened:
"i don't care if they *DO* call themselves heinz, mustard is NOT supposed to turn into juice"
"when בגל'ה go bad" [bagelleh, pretzels]
i'm back judging indie rock; squid hit the semi-finals ^_^
nap-time, then heading off to spinnit's to watch a movie. it's the 9th of av, a severe mourning day so we won't be going out. almost everything's closed, anyway.
i miss the animaniacs; i think i'm gonna buy a dvd or two.
speaking of which, the feeling i got from the man in the suit today was positive. i'm praying that he's as honest as he comes across.
[i've never heard of anyone being told "TMI" in these situations]
[john milton - paradise lost: book ii, 236..249 - it's frightening how appropriate these verses are to both my current situation and my general outlook on life]
on the way to meet the man, the bastard bus driver "did me a favour" and told me i'd reached my stop about ten icky minutes' walk (and a slight navigational error) away; i found out when i left that the line stops right outside.
i made it back in time for the presentation of hive (tahoma was surprised), and lunch. we have a new kid who's hysterically unwittingly funny (he's trying to establish himself... badly...), and i was still giggling when i picked up the soup ladle. if i'd stopped to take a breath maybe i wouldn't have dropped it in the soup tureen :$
when we got back, it was time to hogtie and dowse the kinder, the cadet and the new kid (all at once). we were all having a raucous, grand old time - right until the unit commander appeared and put a stop to it.
even the victims were disappointed, it's a sign of respect. i had a go at the guy in charge for not checking beforehand that the unit commander was otherwise occupied.
i returned to an inbox containing a couple of mails between me and a kid with whom i share mutual disgust... someone else had been cutting and pasting mails to make it look like the two of us were having an online altercation. i sent a very serious threat (which i *really* hope nobody pushes me to carry out) to deal with any further forgeries in an official manner. that will not be fun.
our entire unit was subjected to a presentation, one of the highlights being that someone was written about and somebody else's picture was displayed - causing mass hysterics and embarrassing the person responsible no end. the picture was of someone with the same name as mine, and later on our pointy-haired boss came to my desk to make a joke about my picture being splashed all over the place... maybe i shouldn't have climbed into him for not recognizing me, as usual... [it was one of the points i raised a couple of weeks ago: he can't differentiate between us at all]
nystire and i have been pretty good about exercising every day! today was really sweaty.
i've been introducing another section's commander to the israeli indie scene after he expressed interest, and i've continued to bring him discs even though his positive responses seemed a little off... i realized today that he's really not into any of it. oh, well.
on the way home i was hit by two giant inspiration particles. then i went shopping, and came back feeling even more inspired. and then these two happened:
"i don't care if they *DO* call themselves heinz, mustard is NOT supposed to turn into juice"
"when בגל'ה go bad" [bagelleh, pretzels]
i'm back judging indie rock; squid hit the semi-finals ^_^
nap-time, then heading off to spinnit's to watch a movie. it's the 9th of av, a severe mourning day so we won't be going out. almost everything's closed, anyway.
i miss the animaniacs; i think i'm gonna buy a dvd or two.
Friday, July 24, 2009
sleepin'
i started walking to the beach, but soon realized that my legs weren't going to carry me that far. i was just woken up by two phone calls - i answered the second one, it was wr having an interesting moment - and i think i'm going to go back to bed.
*way* too tired to go shopping, and i have no food :/
spinnit sent me an sms earlier, it has an odd tone... i'm beginning to lose the initial excitement and feel a bit... dispassionate.
*way* too tired to go shopping, and i have no food :/
spinnit sent me an sms earlier, it has an odd tone... i'm beginning to lose the initial excitement and feel a bit... dispassionate.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
"poetically hectic"
* the above phrase hijacked from moonflake
wr just left after spending a couple of hours passing along english literature material from his bachelor's degree (and leaving me with absolutely wonderful books and things!). i'd forgotten that he loves william blake - tiger so much that he has a tiger tattooed on his chest, and he liked my response (dead eye) ^_^
it was really a lot of fun pouring over the material with him - the two of us and literature are like two little children with a chest of cool toys :)
i talked with spinnit on the phone a couple of times today, and it wasn't at all uncomfortable. that's actually very unusual. we agreed not to meet up tonight because we've managed, during the course of a week, to realize that we can't trust ourselves to meet alone and say goodbye in a short span of time. i'm very, very pleased. so pleased, in fact, that i'm also very, very worried that this is merely an illusory excitement...
and hell, i haven't figured out yet if we're playing the game or not. either something very good, or an aneurysm is on its way :P
stretched
a heart stopped
silence, dead
slow, agonizing pressure building up
and holds
an eon passes... and then
an explosion, fiery warmth flooding in
a tidal wave
rolling, slamming against the chamber wall
and the heart beats once again
---
today was a big day: and it began with a lucid dream. i don't remember what was a long and detailed back-story, but i do remember the bit where it suddenly turned into a crazy action movie, from a shoot-out in the street to being surrounded in an old-age home by our attackers.
i needed to wake up at 5.30am (and i'll need to repeat that for the next two weeks), but i forgot to set my second alarm and so woke up with only ten minutes to rub my eyes, shave, dress and exit. the fact that it's possible doesn't make it suck any less.
nystire made a terrifying point today: we really are living out dilbert. it was my turn to talk to the pointy-haired boss today, and i threw a full page essay on the things he does that demotivate me.
to be fair, i really didn't expect his response to be as mature as it seemed. he started off making notes of his responses, and towards the end read my comment on his responses and justifications... this caused him to go back and re-read it from the top. we had a very interesting and positive-sounding discussion afterwards, and as i wrote at the end: i'm certain that nothing good will come of this, but i feel better for having the weight off my chest and i can always hope that some miracle will occur.
a kid in our sister unit got killed in a horrible accident on thursday, so our building was in the dumps today. it was in very poor taste that nystire and i had a laugh at the announcement, printed throughout the site, with dates that made it seem like the guy had been buried a month before he died...
the work i managed to get done today confused me. this bug-hunt i'm doing is extremely challenging.
[i don't know if nystire still reads my blog, but if so then congratulations are in order.]
the train home was nice; i had time to think, and there was a guy juggling in our car and that brought a smile to my face. i went straight to the mall to verify that the wedding gift i've been working on is good, and aside from positive technical confirmation the woman at the store pointed out a couple of "misses" which i'm really grateful for. i tidied those up when i got home, and will have the gift on order by tomorrow :)
but for now... to bed!
wr just left after spending a couple of hours passing along english literature material from his bachelor's degree (and leaving me with absolutely wonderful books and things!). i'd forgotten that he loves william blake - tiger so much that he has a tiger tattooed on his chest, and he liked my response (dead eye) ^_^
it was really a lot of fun pouring over the material with him - the two of us and literature are like two little children with a chest of cool toys :)
i talked with spinnit on the phone a couple of times today, and it wasn't at all uncomfortable. that's actually very unusual. we agreed not to meet up tonight because we've managed, during the course of a week, to realize that we can't trust ourselves to meet alone and say goodbye in a short span of time. i'm very, very pleased. so pleased, in fact, that i'm also very, very worried that this is merely an illusory excitement...
and hell, i haven't figured out yet if we're playing the game or not. either something very good, or an aneurysm is on its way :P
stretched
a heart stopped
silence, dead
slow, agonizing pressure building up
and holds
an eon passes... and then
an explosion, fiery warmth flooding in
a tidal wave
rolling, slamming against the chamber wall
and the heart beats once again
today was a big day: and it began with a lucid dream. i don't remember what was a long and detailed back-story, but i do remember the bit where it suddenly turned into a crazy action movie, from a shoot-out in the street to being surrounded in an old-age home by our attackers.
i needed to wake up at 5.30am (and i'll need to repeat that for the next two weeks), but i forgot to set my second alarm and so woke up with only ten minutes to rub my eyes, shave, dress and exit. the fact that it's possible doesn't make it suck any less.
nystire made a terrifying point today: we really are living out dilbert. it was my turn to talk to the pointy-haired boss today, and i threw a full page essay on the things he does that demotivate me.
to be fair, i really didn't expect his response to be as mature as it seemed. he started off making notes of his responses, and towards the end read my comment on his responses and justifications... this caused him to go back and re-read it from the top. we had a very interesting and positive-sounding discussion afterwards, and as i wrote at the end: i'm certain that nothing good will come of this, but i feel better for having the weight off my chest and i can always hope that some miracle will occur.
a kid in our sister unit got killed in a horrible accident on thursday, so our building was in the dumps today. it was in very poor taste that nystire and i had a laugh at the announcement, printed throughout the site, with dates that made it seem like the guy had been buried a month before he died...
the work i managed to get done today confused me. this bug-hunt i'm doing is extremely challenging.
[i don't know if nystire still reads my blog, but if so then congratulations are in order.]
the train home was nice; i had time to think, and there was a guy juggling in our car and that brought a smile to my face. i went straight to the mall to verify that the wedding gift i've been working on is good, and aside from positive technical confirmation the woman at the store pointed out a couple of "misses" which i'm really grateful for. i tidied those up when i got home, and will have the gift on order by tomorrow :)
but for now... to bed!
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
40+ and swimming
yesterday was a really, really long day. i'm still not feeling so great; apparently six hours of sleep for over forty missed isn't quite enough :P
i spent most of yesterday staring hopelessly at my screen. i got a couple of phone calls - one from csn's friend and one from spinnit (like, "spin-it", the girl from monday's date). i wasn't really in a good state to be talking on the phone...
during the last couple of weeks it was announced that my TL would be replaced in the near future. i got all excited because i've been in this team since february / march and miserable since i got there - now he's going to be TL of my previous team and someone else (a definite improvement) will be replacing him!
the pointy-haired boss came over to happily inform me that i'll be moving back along with him.
i can't win :'(
it was nystire's 30th birthday, and the day began with cake and us making "over the hill" jokes. when i got back to tel aviv, i rushed off to secure a part of his gift - of course they hadn't prepared the order like i'd asked - and then came back home to switch into civvies and bus to his place for a surprise party.
it was nice to see his family again - they're all a bit crazy and loads of fun, but i was completely trashed and when ptsd needed to head off to tel aviv i joined her. i chatted with my mum, talked quickly with spinnit*, ate a sandwich and then crashed.
* i don't know if i'm supposed to be playing a push / pull game when everything seems great, but it's to early to tell and i'm worried about screwing things up for either of us by getting too excited :/
i just found out that my usual ride's not available - getting to base is going to be hell :(
i spent most of yesterday staring hopelessly at my screen. i got a couple of phone calls - one from csn's friend and one from spinnit (like, "spin-it", the girl from monday's date). i wasn't really in a good state to be talking on the phone...
during the last couple of weeks it was announced that my TL would be replaced in the near future. i got all excited because i've been in this team since february / march and miserable since i got there - now he's going to be TL of my previous team and someone else (a definite improvement) will be replacing him!
the pointy-haired boss came over to happily inform me that i'll be moving back along with him.
i can't win :'(
it was nystire's 30th birthday, and the day began with cake and us making "over the hill" jokes. when i got back to tel aviv, i rushed off to secure a part of his gift - of course they hadn't prepared the order like i'd asked - and then came back home to switch into civvies and bus to his place for a surprise party.
it was nice to see his family again - they're all a bit crazy and loads of fun, but i was completely trashed and when ptsd needed to head off to tel aviv i joined her. i chatted with my mum, talked quickly with spinnit*, ate a sandwich and then crashed.
* i don't know if i'm supposed to be playing a push / pull game when everything seems great, but it's to early to tell and i'm worried about screwing things up for either of us by getting too excited :/
i just found out that my usual ride's not available - getting to base is going to be hell :(
Friday, July 10, 2009
mixed drinks and a number
buffalo boots were amazing! and that said in spite of the terrible sound - the sound man's obviously a bit deaf.
i ran into csn's friend and a very cute french friend of hers, and then one of the mongoose's friends joined me. all in all, the evening was great fun and i got the french girl's number, in the form of a business card in response to mine :P
i ran into csn's friend and a very cute french friend of hers, and then one of the mongoose's friends joined me. all in all, the evening was great fun and i got the french girl's number, in the form of a business card in response to mine :P
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