better + pinky issues

i went for a walk. mostly a sad walk, as i pondered my current state and dwelled on a whole bunch of things that have been on my mind. i was sitting on a bench by the river, staring into the reflections on the water, when i suddenly realized another possibility: it could just be that my life getting back on track, albeit slowly and not necessarily smoothly, is taking the lid off a well of emotions and that this is the most powerful of the lot.

the contemplation of that possibility put me in a far better mood, and i walked home feeling more comfortable. even if i am feeling quite alone at the moment.

i tried the intro to a perfect circle - breña, and my fingertips are going to be feeling it in the morning :P

for the day:

i heard horrible hebrew versions of guns 'n roses - sweet child of mine and pink floyd - the wall on the radio today. painful.
my temple troubles continue - i really need this sorted out.

i responded to an sms from egg this afternoon with what was meant to be a joke, and i think he got offended. or irritated, because it was particularly childish. i sent a follow-up sms almost immediately to apologize, but now he's not taking my calls (i hope i don't have to add him to what's unfortunately become a list of friends who aren't).

arguments: direct to dvd / israeli eating habits
the first one was with a girl who has decidedly old-fashioned ideas about the music and movie industries. the second with a girl who just wasn't aware of the fact that the israeli "rules" like "meat isn't good for breakfast", "you don't put vinegar on things" don't really have an intellectual basis.

it's almost bedtime, so i'm going to get back to i feel sick.