mixed

 for the most part, this week has been great. i have been really tired the last couple of days - emotionally exhausted is definitely a part of it, there've been lots of things to deal with and a lot of annoying details or frustrations.

a couple of days ago our new bed was delivered. i think it's great, so far, but gd's already sensing problems.

mr smear's class has a lice issue again.

gd had a freak-out while making sufganyot today and called me angrily (to vent, i guess?), which made for a shitty vibe that i think i shared with my teammates :/

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today's shitty vibe notwithstanding, i really like my new team, and i'm really excited to get into the thick of it. most of this week has been setup and learning, already a vast improvement over my last onboarding experience.

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the war / political situation is difficult to think about. it was comforting listening to sohail ahmed. it's  also distressing yet comforting knowing that so many palestinians themselves realize the position that hamas have willingly put them in, i only hope we'll be able to move forward with them once this disaster is over.

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maybe everyone else "got it" because it's so obvious, so... is "childish" the right word?

but i didn't get it.

it's so ridiculous, that although it seemed weird i just never stopped to think about it until today. but now that i've stopped to think about it, i can't stop thinking about it. 

mia schem was operated on by a palestinian veterinarian. why was she operated on by a veterinarian?

it's not because they didn't have any regular, "human" doctors available. it's because they wanted her, and us, to know they think of us as animals. it's the same reason why they've been keeping israeli hostages in cages.

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mr smear had his first ever "exam" today. i've been helping him with his homework the last while, and yesterday i got home and we worked hard to prepare for it. this morning, when i dropped him off at school, i checked to see if he remembered the three rules, and he did: read the whole paper first, if a question's too hard, move on and come back to it later, and go over everything once you're done. from the sounds of it, he got it, and he did well in spite of the question he insists is "impossible" even for me :)