war: week 2 begins

 another long day.

work-wise, this one was all about fixing a broken test that was essentially a dungeon full of traps. it was a very frustrating and demoralizing day on top of everything else that's going on. and from tomorrow i'm on-call again... the only comforting thing about that is that it's my last for a while.

on my way home from getting bloodwork done, i was power-washed by god in a sudden, dramatic downpour with thunder and lightning that lasted about a minute, and then became an undulating wave of drizzle/rain/drizzle. i was sad i didn't have an umbrella, glad that i wasn't wearing closed shoes.

i picked up mr smear's books from the school today; that could have been a better experience. it all went south when i arrived in front of his locker and discovered that he - along with half his class - doesn't have a single piece of paper or sticker identifying his locker or any of his stuff. and he was on gd's phone talking to a friend, and for five solid minutes he just ignored all my calls. i was pretty upset.

but i did get hold of him eventually, and brought his stuff home without having to open up the umbrella.

we had a couple more rocket attacks today. gd's been in a bad way, she's still very scared but something about today feels a little different somehow. all round. i mean, i'm still in shock, but i feel like i'm managing to merge in the new narrative a little. one day at a time.

[a break from writing to calm down from imagining some of the horrors of last weekend. this is going to take a long time to deal with]

there's talk about the kids going back to school in phases. i don't think we're ready.

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gd and i have been watching all sorts of random things this past week, and what's gotten in my head is what the terror attacks on israel mean for end times prophecy (with greg laurie), along with raptor news updates. if this is the end times, what are they the end of? it sounds like we might be seeing the end of the middle eastern reign of terror, with us leading the free world into battle. i mean, it's just a thought...