revisitation

my nap was styling. i woke up, showered, discovered some interesting work-related stuff, read web-comics, and eventually left on blades to go into tel aviv. i realized how silly that was when i got out the building, so i satisfied myself with a good downhill before coming back to change, and then left for the lizard.

the fireworks... well, what i could see of the fireworks was impressive. i had a pleasant walk (and munch, i ate dinner on the way) to the lizard. in a couple of nutshells: both parties were alright, it was a bit weird moving from hard rock / alternative to israeli rock and back. i finally met the mongoose's girlfriend, and i can see why he's smitten. spot arrived for a bit, so did the mermaid and her friend. i drank a lot. we witnessed an interesting motor-accident. all i could think of was "hey! at least the airbags worked!".

the first revisitation: i spent a large part of the evening talking to people outside. the mermaid reminded me of the main reason why i stopped seeing her - she lives in a bubble, and although she listens to what i have to say, she doesn't really get it, and that's rather frustrating. especially when her responses to arbitrary things are "wonderful! that's great!", it's quite irritating.

the second revisitation: one of the bartenders recently broke up with a girl he's head-over-heels in love with, and he's really suffering heartsickness. i sat with him after the party, and just talking about those kinds of things reminded me of my own experience with unrequited love, abandoned love, and my struggle to find someone to reactivate those feelings (the positive ones, i mean). unfortunately, i'm able to physically recall that feeling of being dizzy with love, but it's totally undirected. i've had the good fortune (twice) of being with a woman who was perfect for me, and knowing what i want and not finding it is killing me.

our favourite dj left about the same time i did, and he offered me a ride home. turns out we're practically neighbours, so that worked out well. we spent the drive discussing the aforementioned topics, so that's where my head's at at the moment.

the third revisitation: i got hold of a house tune that (probably because it's combined with these feelings) has got me missing those good ol' days of magnificent parties experienced with reckless abandon. i still consider that to be the childhood that counted.

the fourth revisitation: one of moonflake's recent blogposts reminded me of my contentions regarding the theory of creation. why are all the religious so damn literal-minded?!?! the story of creation may be just a *little* deeper than the physical creation of the planet. if so, then there's no problem with evolution. i maintain that the theory of creation has to do with our spiritual development, not our physical.

another non-conflicting look.

zenstar's right: sign this, PLEASE.

thank you, schpat. it would be cheating if i told you which were mine, and then to vote for them...

i'm off to bed. enough internet, already! (actually, i should be careful - somebody might take that seriously and i'd end up like the chinese gamers)