where to start? at the beginning, rufus!

my brain aches... dull, throbbing, low-intensity reminders that i'm not doing to well...

as said in fight club, babies don't sleep this good (well?). this morning, i must have woken up about 10 times between 6.30 and 8am. i had a slow start, with breakfast cereal and coffee, then got to the base about an hour late.

nobody noticed, except the dog - who i'd given explicit instructions to to make it on time. i can be a real bastard sometimes.

we did sweet bugger-all today. really. i'm horrified.

i noticed today that i'm rather down in general, and it's not easy to get out of something like this. i don't have a clue what i'm going to do about it. i'm totally unmotivated, totally lacking any care about anything. all i want to do is watch movies, read and sleep. and sod everything else.

i've been putting it off for a while - i went to buy (with my army allowance) a television and dvd player (divx, copies too). nifty stuff. the dog came with me, and i went with him as he visited a family friend.

we took a bus to his place, where his grandmother stuffed us with good food and we played tekken. seeing as my tv's arriving tomorrow, i brought my playstation back with me, along with some heavy books.

by the time i got home, loaded down, drenched in sweat (and having RUN to catch the bus), the last thing i needed was murphy's law in my face. somebody in our apartment put up a sign today (while i was out, obviously) saying that they're selling a tv for next-to-nothing.
figures.
whatever.

had a cool shower, and am now talking to my mum. g'nite.