eenteresting day, not all good, not all bad

i woke up late this morning - i've been sleeping a lot lately. i've obviously needed it.

i spent the day farting around, doing a bit of work, playing tekken, and worrying over my back. i did some shopping too, and paid the electricity bill. which involved a horrifying queue experience, and it was apparently the hottest day this year. which i can believe.

i also played counterstrike with sammy, which was most entertaining. it's the first time i've known someone on my team :P

around 5pm or so yogi came over, and we had a long discussion about vr technology and his statistics program which we did for his project last year. we came up with a good design, now we have about half a year in which to develop it to the point where it can be tested in realtime. looks promising, hopefully there'll be lots of cash to be made.

he gave me a ride into tel aviv proper, and i walked to SB's place. we had a serious talk, and have reluctantly decided to call it quits. which sucks badly, but wasn't unanticipated. and it's for purely rational reasons, which makes it worse - we both still want to be together.

why? why does this happen to me? how am i going to find another someone like her? when? i feel really lost sometimes... and then god gives me a taste of something sweet, and takes it away again.
okay, i'm exaggerating a little, but it kills me that i can find another girl without any problem, just not the girl i'm looking for. and i anticipate disappointment, which kind of kills everything i start.

and i have no way of hanging in the right circles.

why?!?!?! WHY?????

SB made me supper, and then the dog and i went to see charlie and the chocolate factory. not a perfect movie, but perfectly delightful! i *DID* enjoy it.

i'm crashing at the dog's, now about to shower, clean and go to sleep. tomorrow will be a slightly more serious day.