blur

 the afternoon was a blur of helping gd in the kitchen (she made an enormous lunch) while trying and failing to get some rest, then hosting our friends (mr smear preferring to read coraline while the kids put together a jigsaw puzzle), then taking mr smear out for a walk (more on principle because i was really struggling with feeling faint) while was actually really nice, and then reading / napping on the couch until i eventually got up with a stiff neck, but otherwise feeling better.

so naturally i'm now wondering if some of my feeling horrible wasn't caused by something pressing on my vagus nerve again...

i was very anxious during lunch, partially due to all the things that have been going on at work and partially due to stress about having to start looking for an apartment soon.

i've done a critical round of dishes, and i think i'm about to try getting some more sleep.