re-stabilize

 well, yesterday was a day. a very different day. i was still wired and weary, still feeling quite icky, but a bit less.

the work day started off strong, and i'm very excited to have figured out all the finicky cloudfront / s3 configurations i needed and am now very confidently writing up an article explaining all my learnings.

the officer in charge yesterday approved gd and i joining a zoom together with mr smear's therapist, and we ended up having a very positive session even if some of it was quite uncomfortable and difficult.

in the evening, she left the apartment for a few minutes so that i could go up and change out of my boots and coat (my coworkers were laughing at me for arriving all dressed up for the wrong weather yesterday, and after a particularly stormy and wet week it's not supposed to rain for the next few days), and then mr smear came with me and i took him to rainbow burger for a really nice meal.

we made gd a nice card for her birthday today, and picked up a couple of donuts. apparently that all went down well this morning.

by the time i got him home, i was pretty worn out, and i returned to my capsule. i showered, slept fitfully, woke up in the middle of the night for an argument with vfmp's brother who's all-in on the pro-palestinian propaganda, and then got up this morning to make arrangements for the day (including grocery shopping online for gd and agreeing to let me drop off laundry on my way to work), and after a little time spent working on the aforementioned article, i'm about ready to move.

gd and i are definitely in a good-ish place, but saying that from a hostel lobby feels somehow disingenuous. but hey, we're totally normative, right?