on my back

 i didn't mention it in my last post, which suggests that the trouble started on friday: i've been sick for five days now. i did a rapid antigen test for covid this morning and it was clearly negative, i've been feeling absolutely awful, dizzy and exhausted since friday and for the most part useless and needing to lie down perpetually.

friday and saturday were terrible, by sunday i was feeling marginally better and somehow convinced myself that it was caffeine withdrawl - i've been consuming a lot more lately than i'd realized - but it's definitely not caffeine withdrawal.

on sunday morning i managed to do the bike helmet run (we hadn't done that on friday), and on sunday evening i managed to get to our friends to indefinitely borrow a bike for mr smear. the walk back with the bike was hard.

yom kippur was unpleasant. partially because of how i felt, but mostly because of a series on incidents that left all of us having a miserable day. our "tradition" of building a puzzle was a lot less fun than it should have been, but it's a beautiful puzzle and it's slowly beginning to take shape.

another aspect of yom kippur that was unpleasant was that some of our neighbors decided to "protest" the public orthodox services. that's such a malicious, ugly, disgusting act that no matter how relieved i am that non-orthodox/secular people are standing against it, the fact that there's a group of jews who think it's okay or "the right thing to do" is simply beyond comprehension.

one positive aspect, however, was that we've been introduced to a progressive synagogue very close by, one that seems to fit our sensibilities quite nicely. our mission this week is to get there for kabbalat shabbat, hopefully this will be a good experience.

each night of the past four days has been weirder and more difficult than the last, but i woke up this morning feeling loads better. still not great, though, so i put in for a sick day and pushed the work that i completed on thursday to unblock my coworkers. the rest of the day so far has been resting, and playing around with unity.

i need to lie down again.