gd's been really sick for well over a day now. mr smear's cough from the weekend still hasn't subsided. i got through yesterday with sudafed, but about an hour ago i started coughing too and now i can't sleep because i'm hacking until i tear up.
no, that's not right. the real reason i haven't been able to sleep is a chat with my manager yesterday: it turns out my team's holding a pretty low opinion of my abilities at the moment. i feel like i'm living the expression "when i do right, no-one remembers; when i do wrong, no-one forgets".
there's a part of me that wants to make this work. there's another part of me that recognizes that every job in my industry has trade-offs, and that this one's are relatively good. there's a third part of me that just wants out.
it didn't help my day that on top of that emotional overload, i had a chat with sailor in which he tried to dismantle one of my ideas in an attempt to convince me to consider his, not factoring in that my idea (at this point) is literally (aside from the time i spend with my family) the only thing giving me any satisfaction in lieu of my day-job.
last night i had a long chat with SxS for the first time in ages, it was nice to catch up.
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when is this damned cough syrup going to kick in??
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