better?

it's almost 6am, i think i've spent at least a few hours in agonizing discomfort trying desperately to rearrange myself, stretch, and not damage my new knee. not knowing what's actually going on under the brace and bandages doesn't help, every motion feels like i'm tearing something (even if i "know" it isn't), and these three pillows i'm raising my leg with feel insufficient to say the least.

i do feel better for having showered yesterday, although that was logistically a horrible experience and sparked some tension.

aside from gd's dedication and efforts, mr smear has been doing a bit of show-stealing of late. gd and i have been disagreeing about discipline over the past few years, and recently it appears that we've finally hit the same page just with different techniques, and it feels like we're onto a more optimal path.