the real llama

i posted before about the "drama llama" on our team, and here i am approaching 5am wrestling with how to deal with the fact that yesterday she literally couldn't hear what i was saying because she was so busy imagining me as an idiot, and when i finally got through to her she walked away with a condescending remark.

jesus.

but i also had a positive experience strategizing with a couple of people in our sister team which was cool.

this past week has been mostly good, but exhausting. doing my physio exercises is hard work and time-consuming, last night i couldn't bring myself to complete them. i'm supposed to be going to the gym today and i'm not sure how i feel about that.

a part of this week's exhaustion and stress is being back on coffee again and working long hours...

i've finally made some real progress this week on a personal project, so that's nice. i think it's in part due to our mornings being a little slower while my mom's away...

last night i went to say goodnight to mr smear while gd read to him, and he made it very clear that he didn't want kisses. then he clarifed: "mommy likes kisses. i like hugs." i can live with that.