restless leg

i'm tired of being tired. my knee's generally doing alright but not when i'm supposed to be sleeping, and my hips and back are sore from the exercises and from compensating. i can't really get comfortable when i'm not in bed.

the last week was a bummer, i didn't get much in way of a sense of accomplishment and i fell off the caffeine wagon right back into heavy coffee drinking - which i suspect is partially responsible for my being on edge and restless. speaking of restless, i've been suffering from particularly bad rls the last couple of days.

the new bed was delivered yesterday, it's great but not enough to beat all these other contenders for my attention...

i'm actually finding weekends more difficult than workdays, to be honest. i've spent a lot of time alone with mr smear and it's frustrating not being able to play with him or take him out to do stuff. it's also hard dealing with a boundary-pusher who knows i can't chase him around.

having said that, i've found a few great games for the ps3 and he's been playing really well with me. at least that.

gd and i had a fight the other day that i found quite demoralizing, in that i've been re-evaluating since and i'm really not sure how to be effective in communicating the things that are important to me. i feel like nobody cares what i have to say, even when they know i'm right, and especially if they're close to me.