4.30am anxiety

yesterday was a LONG day. a lot of the tough stuff was due to following my teammate's instructions where she'd left out critical details that i couldn't have figured out for myself. hours and hours playing sisyphus trying to get something to build and run when she knew it was broken.

it's now clear to me that the drama we experienced before i left for my surgery wasn't all caused by the problem dude, there were two "drama llamas" tangoing.

well, so be it. i'm trying to calm down because i know, intellectually, that i don't need to play stupid games if i'm not interested in winning stupid prizes, but i'm going to have to be cool in the face of toxic behavior and that's never easy for me.

in other news, once i got the nameservers set correctly my services went up without a hitch, so i'm very happily off godaddy.

i finally got my new physio exercises (at 10pm last night i realized he'd sent me a new code in an email, so... whoops), some of them are tough to do and they take a LONG time.

a little ffviii, a little fighting ignorance online, getting to bed around 1am blissfully unaware it was only for three and a half hours... hopefully after dumping this here i'll be able to make the most of the next hour before my alarm goes off.