feeling crap

i felt terrible again this morning; my throat's been up and down, so's my head - i saw the doctor in the evening, and aside from going tomorrow to begin a battery of tests, and beginning a pre-result phase of h. pylori treatment, i have apparently developed lateral elbow syndrome.

swak.

i was blown away when making the appointment this morning: professionalism? from my HMO's call centre? no way!

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first class was on rhythm, and i was only a bit focused because i'm was writing this and this. i had lunch alone, almost finishing the great gatsby. it's nice to have picked such a short text to write a paper on :P

between having a mole removed and seeing the doctor, i was in and out of work (old job) three times today. that was quite a bit of travelling, and i was most surprised to be on a bus which had two conductors on it, after having been checked by a conductor the night before. i think they're the first i've seen since i got back from india.

the surgeon's office: being asked if i'm next instead of calling out the name on the register? that's just weird. do i have a choice? what if the other guy got there first? and if there's no other guy, why are you asking instead of telling me to step inside?

the surgeon was amazed that i didn't have a problem with watching him insert the needle and wiggle it around. i was reminded of being told once that i should be a doctor because blood's never bothered me... and of the giant needle that i watched being inserted under my kneecap when an accident in my 12th grade exposed it to the elements. of course i *felt* faint then, but i didn't actually faint. fainting is what i do when i experience intense pain. or don't eat enough chocolate.

i've hit upon a project i want to begin, and i'm calling it "civilization NOW" - but the vision's big and it needs to begin a little smaller. it's basically collecting all of the things that piss me off under one umbrella instead of talking about them one by one. everything from hooting in anger to picking up after your dog to being counter-productively selfish and recycling...

being lectured at the pharmacy was a bit embarrassing, but somehow having another customer join in supportively made it all better. apparently h. pylori takes a while to disappear after the treatment. a long while: in her case up to a year. that does ease my concerns.

it took way to much effort to sort out the ssh tunnelling and it's still not clear what the problem was. now i'm going to shower and design some database elements.

i'm really proud of myself - on the way to the festival we discussed my travel journal and the fact that i haven't been transcribing it: i set myself an alarm to remind me to do so every night, and i've already begun to make headway :)

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i'm amused to have been the first person to buy lihi sagi's first album. it's good, and definitely worth a free try before you buy :)