22/05/03

i got home around 7/8 this morning. and i was broken.

i finally did some work last night - fixed a bug and made my previous hack-'n-slash changes to the site i'm working on more elegant, so now i have to wait for this bastard company to fix the database, and then i'm pretty much done.

got a few phone calls last night on helpdesk. some of the cute ones were where the caller had no idea what day it was, literally. the one was a week in advance. americans.

and i only made a couple of screw-ups. they're getting fewer, but more severe. i need to start being careful with some of these.
let's just say helpdesk is not quite a career path for me.

last night i received a phone call, from my trainer, informing me that she didn't feel confident in my fighting and would rather i stayed out of the competition tomorrow.

at about 9am i got another call from her saying she wants me to fight. now how the hell am i supposed to deal with this? firstly, it means i have to cancel plans with her tonight - she was going to sleep over, and secondly, nothing has changed in my fighting between last night and this morning. how can i not be worried?

so in a few hours i'm being examined for a stripe, and i'll debate it then. but i haven't been able to sleep properly because i've been thinking so much about it.
FUCK.

and i'm not ready for the exam. i have to learn a whole lot of korean terms, and i can't concentrate. plus, i've had a long week, and i don't really have the energy to fight every person in the gym, which is always part of the exam.

good luck to me then.