the crawl back

 omg i'm tired, but about an hour ago my brain decided to start playing a weird awake-but-dreaming form of the three cups magic trick with itself while my muscles torture me and it took me until now to actually get out of bed.

today... was a good day. my team lead is back, we're aligned, and i finished the day with an actual plan for the work i've been doing (it's kind of a long story about tests and mocking, i've been trying to make something work for a new use case when it shouldn't have been built in the first place).

there's something magical about feeling ready to do things in the evenings, making plans and such. it's definitely a sign that there's some stabilization and healing going on.