am i doing it right?

hint: probably not.

i've been restless, lately, and after a pleasant, meditative walk this evening i suspect that the primary reason is that i'm not used to dealing with life without the perpetually levels of anxiety and looming existential crises. i'm also noticing that i'm avoiding taking on any kind of additional stress lately, which includes not doing a bunch of things that i actually want to do. and quite a few things i need to, as well...

the half-day of work yesterday turned into a fair bit more than planned, but the outcome was pretty successful so i guess it was worth it.

today's holiday seemed needed. our financial situation is a little weird at the moment because our bank seems to have lost track of how much money we have or whether our remittance orders have been executed or not (this is not the first time for us, i went through a similar story a couple of years ago with a south african bank), but i splurged a bit on a month of playstation plus membership and the complete king's quest collection.

this morning we completed the first chapter of the console reboot of the king's quest series, and it is GLORIOUS! the interface is really well designed, the story is entertaining and the puzzles are clever enough to be a thought-provoking challenge but entirely solvable by a parent-child team :)

in addition to getting started on the second chapter, i got a taste of tetris effect: connected (beautiful) and played a little of the final fantasy vii remake, which my son insisted on playing a bit of and i'm not certain whether i'm being an awesome parent or a terrible one.

speaking of which, mr smear's behaviour has been trending very positively of late, it really does feel like he's maturing in a lot of ways.

...

we had a delicious dinner delivered this evening because gd's struggling with a headache, i went to bed quite early and then woke up a short while ago with indigestion / reflux.