holding our breaths

 backwards:

yesterday was a huge day for us. gd and i went to her appointment at misrad hapnim, and were extremely fortunate to find ourselves sitting across from an intelligent, sympathetic human being. there was only one moment of horror, when we were told that her divorce certificate wasn't the correct document, but gd and i translated it for them word by word and they eventually accepted it.

we've been told not to celebrate just yet, but essentially her aliyah has been approved and our next appointment (next week) is to get her formally registered. so we're relieved (kind of) and anxious (kind of) and praying that we get through it without a hitch. as soon as that's done, we'll have a ton of bureaucratic hoops to jump through but on a completely different set of feet.

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work-wise, last week was pretty awful and this week hasn't started out so well. i've been trapped in a piece of work that should have been quick and easy but needed so much yak-shaving to get it to function correctly that it's been my primary focus, even when the *real*, *important* work has been on my table and not getting done. that doesn't feel good.

and it certainly doesn't help that a good chunk of the failures - which take an hour or two to detect each time - are due to flaky tests that were introduced recently and fixing them hasn't been prioritized :(

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last week was mr smear's first week of summer school, and also his first week ever in aftercare. it's mostly gone amazingly well! although he's had repeated incidents with a bully in his class, and we're trying to work with the kid's parents to figure this shit out...

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i wrote a poem last week for the first time in forever, not a very good one but a sequel to a couple of others that i realized i hadn't recorded. so i tried recording the first one, and i really love the poem but it's so dark that it upset gd to hear it and i don't actually want to commit it to memory. i'm going to give it another few goes this week and try to "publish" it.

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on thursday morning we were supposed to go to ikea with the mongoose. i left later than planned, the bus i needed drove straight past us at the station, the expensive taxi i jumped into took longer than walking, and then i finally got in the van and couldn't find the ****ing handbrake. electronic parking / handbrakes are not standard, and the support agent couldn't understand me or help me once she finally did understand me, and eventually i lost my temper and yelled about bad service and how i was going to switch to their competition.

i found out later that their competition doesn't provide the same services at all.

so on the weekend, when i needed a van to pick up a table and bookshelf from the parents of one of the kids in mr smear's class that they were getting rid of, i bit down on my pride and rollerbladed three kilometers to try again. after having watched videos on the citroën berlingo's braking system on youtube. i released the parking brake, ignored the exclamation mark symbol on the dashboard warning lights, and had a pretty good experience.

what a stupid design.

anyway, the furniture is very heavy and was really difficult to move, but we managed it in the end and we're very happy with it.

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this shabbat we hosted the wife of one of our community's rabbis, and we had a really great time. we managed to get to the friday evening service on the beach, which was mostly great except that i was deeply embarrassed for most of it. mr smear had asked me to lift him up, so i tried to put him on my shoulders but he screamed horribly. i put him down and he yelled that he wanted me to lift him up, which was confusing (and i was already flustered), and when i tried to put him on my shoulder but differently he yelled again that he didn't want to be on my shoulders, he wanted me to hold him up in front of me (like simba?). this was very confusing and uncomfortable, but i managed to get it right and was deeply frustrated because i didn't understand what the heck was going on.

a few minutes later, after i'd put him down, i learned what had happened and then i became *really* embarrassed: i hadn't realized that we'd been standing under an umbrella-like installation, and when i initially lifted him up i smashed his head into a metal bar :$

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i woke up and hour or two ago with my brain buzzing about research grants and proposals and journals, and now i'm ready to try for another hour or so of sleep before hitting the new day.