all the CLs

ha ha ha ha - i thought i was going to sleep last night, but BOY was i wrong! i spent most of the night writhing in agony, and only finally got to sleep a bit about an hour before alarm time. of course.

it was a blustery day, and work was slow and arduous. or was it? maybe it was just where my head was at. the day was split by a visit to the orthopedist, who informed me that my brutalized MCL looks like it's healing on its own, but it appears that i've torn my ACL. which is EXACTLY what i needed to hear :'(

so tomorrow morning i'm going in for an MRI, and then we'll see where that story goes. it's particularly bad timing as we're gearing up for gd to have back surgery... i don't know how we're going to manage all of this. and poor mr smear wanted to be carried this evening and that's just not happening.

my mom helped me home (with a big stack of books for mr smear), i spent the evening editing and posting the latest episode of the podcast, sorting out medical bills, and now... now i'm praying that i'll manage to sleep a bit tonight.