calm and collected

that was cleansing: i just watched forrest gump, and i haven't really cried like that in years. what a fantastic story, and so well told.

yesterday evening was nice - the food was a amazing, the company was great. ended on a weird note, however, as i got involved in an argument with an 18 year-old because he doesn't know the difference between killing and murder. and this started because we were discussing the fact that humans need to eat animals in order to survive.

the level to which modern "philosophy" has corroded our society astounds me.

afterwards i went to the lizard, which would have been a great party if the music hadn't sucked so much. i quite suffered, so at 3am i convinced the dog to come with me to the meimad. serious strippers with hard, hard rock and metal in the background was entertaining, but the crowd was weird and i just couldn't get in the mood. also, i saw the girl i was kind of dating a while back, and that wasn't too comfortable.

we left around 5.30 or so, and i crashed at the dog's place. i was shaken awake around 1pm, and rushed out the apartment. i walked home in the boiling heat - shirt off and most conscious of my odd body shape. funny, i wonder what i'd think if it wasn't mine.

i spent a lot of time thinking of my first israeli girlfriend - funny how i miss her, and at the same time would never contemplate getting back together with her. i miss the girl that i knew when i knew her, and i can never get that back. i'm glad i appreciated it at the time, but it totally sucks now. it upsets me that she's become who she has, and i really do feel sorry for her.

got back and watched the movie, now going to play some counterstrike, and maybe get some work done. i've been putting this off for too long.