ani - pashut - me'ushar ^_^

translation: i'm - simply - happy ^_^

i haven't felt this good in years, at least since the party days. and now it's happiness from satisfaction with life, myself, and almost everything.

it's not that everything's perfect - far from it - but since i've been in the army my attitude's received the biggest pickup. i feel good about the work i'm doing, i have all my confidence back. i feel like i'm living again, a feeling i haven't had since the turn of the millenium.

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i had this absolutely incredible revelation this last week: i've been saying for years that the difference between men and women in general is the same as the difference between any two men or women: we've just all been brought up to believe in the roles society has assigned to us.

what's changed? i've finally learned to apply my theory to the task of approaching an attractive woman. and it works! all i've been doing is imagining myself in her position, thinking of how i'd feel if it was a girl, either attractive or not, approaching me in the same manner. granted, it takes a bit of confidence, and a certain amount of ego, but hell - it works! and it's made me relax a lot in general.

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i am totally satisfied with my current station in my grand vision of the future. it's been a rough ride, but i'm on track and things are going well. the only thing i don't have time for is complainers, whiners, moaning, and the terminally stupid. and i'm not even getting impatient - i'm finding myself more and more amused, and less and less frustrated, the more i get in touch with who i am and what i'm doing.

on a slightly different note:

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due to a bit of influence from orson scott card, whose speaker for the dead is way better than i anticipated, coupled with my idea of living underground as protection from the general dangers of the universe, and inspired by a two second clip from the national geographic channel of a submarine, i have come up with a grand scheme.

we have PLENTY of space to colonize in our oceans. there have been plenty of ideas along these lines, but this one is mine. imagine an enormous titanium sphere, containing an inner sphere, much like those weighted balls we used to play with as kids, that seem to "slide" along the ground. there's no reason that we couldn't set up a biosphere (heh - "sphere") within, and there are plenty of methods to communicate with the outside world.
i think my idea totally r0xx0rs.

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i think i've missed AvP on the big screen. that's a bit crap. oh, and last night i totally wiped out the contents of the c drive on my cousins' pc. but, i did get everything back up and running, very quickly, and it's all better than before. and i've made better back-ups. i suck, but i rule!