a bit of distance

i'm still coughing a little but, occasionally, but at least my sinus has cleared up and it looks like i don't have a csf leak after all... thanks, dr google!

i'm still a bit of a mess regarding my mom, but after a little bit of time and a long chat with my sister this afternoon i'm at least feeling a little less crazy.

mr smear and i accompanied gd to the pain specialist this morning, then the clinic, then raced home so i could get to work. it was a very long work day, it began with a positive sync with my boss but was interspersed with some awkward conversations with recruiters (and a potential employer).

i'm just full of discomfort from the interviewing so far. this is precisely why employers get away with treating their employees horribly - the switching cost is just so damned high.

i go on-call tomorrow. and then again the week after next. hoo-ray.

at least the work i got done today was alright.

i feel like my insides have all been smooshed together. i feel really tired, but restless. i'm still coughing.