maybe not the same direction

 let's start with the good stuff: the weekend. it was a good weekend. it was a quiet weekend, and although i had to have my laptop bag with me at all times, the pager never went off and i got to enjoy good times with my family.

on friday morning gd and i did some shopping and tried watching mad max beyond thunderdome. it was fun at the beginning but there was too much animal cruelty and gd had to walk away. same with an episode of adventure time we watched last night (angel face). we picked up mr smear from school - he hadn't been cooperative, but there were no serious incidents at least - and one of his friends, and then another one joined later. for the most part, the kids had a fun afternoon and i got back into tales of the neon sea, and now that i've poured a few hours into it i can say without any doubt that it is a phenomenally fun and beautiful game, with a great story and superb word-building so far. some of the puzzles are hard. the evidence gathering mechanism is really cute and elegant.

this game has gotten completely into my head.

yesterday morning we all managed to get it together early and headed off to the beach to meet some friends. it was a hot day and we were surrounded by pride revellers (mostly fine, but there were a couple of disturbing conversations that one of the kids might have overheard and the guy who rocked up with a blow-up doll was a bit much), but we generally had an enjoyable morning and i even jogged for a bit with the other dad until i realized that i'd left my phone behind and was still on-call :P

we stopped for a bite on the way home, then spent a very lazy afternoon doing not much.

i didn't get much sleep last night, and i'm feeling it today (possibly also the jogging and the sun exposure etc.)... my work on thursday was very frustrating, but it paid off this morning as i got everything running and demonstrated that one of our customers was wrong to blame our software... i was disappointed to learn that the exciting breakthrough discovery i made isn't going to be reviewed, and i've spent half my day trying to build up motivation for a task that i couldn't care less about. and this feeling that i have has been mixed up with the feedback session from wednesday, and i'm thinking that maybe we're just not aligned and not going to be aligned. maybe i should be thinking about moving on.

i'm not unhappy like i was half a year ago, but i'm definitely not happy either.

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i've only seen the first third of EMERGENCY EPISODE: Ex-Google Officer Finally Speaks Out On The Dangers Of AI! - Mo Gawdat | E252, but i can already say without a doubt that it's not merely "interesting", but should be considered mandatory viewing by everyone.