can't sleep

 i'm still frazzled, even after most of a night sleeping well i've woken up a broken-record scratching imagined potential end sequences for my current employment.

yesterday had some good times, although some of them involved some mixed emotions. we went to play table tennis at a nearby park, we did have some good times but a big part of it ended up being trying to teach mr smear how the game works and it was less fun than it could have been...

i spent the rest of the day just trying to sort my head out and plan my next steps. a long chat with horseman and a shorter chat with sailor definitely helped a lot.

i also had a short but very important talk with gd about what she's up to after mr smear went to bed, we both needed that.