what a long, strange trip this week has been

there's something decidedly awkward about receiving something that was yours to begin with, was stolen in a fit of malice and spite, and is now being returned - sixteen years later - because it was never actually wanted in the first place and is now simply taking up space.

this week we've "inherited" furniture, cutlery and crockery, beautiful paintings, and a car that might actually cost more to license than it's worth. i don't know what's more uncomfortable - that we're getting things that should have been ours in the first place, or that when i called my brother to thank him he was so indifferent about the whole thing. the car has literally been sitting sadly in his garage for a decade and a half.

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after last week's mad rush to make up hours, it's been another half-week. most of it spent being demoralised by *another* massive code review. at least it looks like the team is onboard with my suggestions to cut down on the size of our pull requests, but we'll see if that changes anything in reality.

otherwise, i've made a couple of excursions on principle (i'm increasingly uncomfortable with how out of shape i've become) and taken mr smear along with me, and he's mostly been pretty cool. all three of us went to the shops today and picked up insanely delicious vegan donuts on the way home. it was a good day.

the past couple of nights i've gone to bed straight after getting him in bed, so maybe tonight i'll manage to get something done before i crash. i think i might have been ill, i can't fathom any other reason for feeling so tired and low.