foggy

i underwent a minor procedure on friday afternoon, the sedation included opioids. the first four or five hours afterwards were horrible, but i've been feeling alright since. except for the brain fog, i'm really not very functional right now.

it's been almost two weeks since i last posted? these past few weeks have been mad, the last one particularly frustrating with a lot of work hours being sunk into a project that's past deadline and we still haven't ironed out all the kinks. it's a devops project, and while i appreciate that it's all related and a real part of my job i'm *so* over fiddling with shit that really should just work.

mr smear update: some wins, some losses, mostly okay. we've all played through the story mode of little big planet, which just got better and better, crazier and crazier, and last night we finished the harry potter movies. i sobbed uncontrollably at the end, for two reasons in particular: the first, neville longbottom growing into such a Big Damned Hero, and the second, the naming of harry's child. *all* the feels.

gd's been having a really rough time, and she's panicking more and more about the political situation which has continued its relentless descent into comically villainous madness. the ANC have taken the pandemic as an opportunity to introduce a traditional african dictatorship, and while there have been some legal attempts to rein them in nobody knows how far things are going to go. people are starving, for the first time in decades kids are showing up at hospitals with malnutrition, and the only acquiescence to rationality has been that on thursday they finally allowed all e-commerce to operate instead of just their arbitrarily selected product categories.

it doesn't help that sorting out our documentation is a bureaucratic mess, and we're fortunate enough to have places to run to. and then our dishwasher packed up, which significantly added to our stress levels, but luckily a technician made it through yesterday and we seem to be okay again.

i'm tired, i'm going for a nap.

EDIT: oh! and i read infinite vacation this week, it inspired me to read stuff i actually enjoy because the last book has been dragging for months and i should've quit it a long time ago.