dramatuesday

holy shit. i can't believe today actually happened. it's now a dark and stormy night and i'm bombed, but i have to share.

the early day began with my finally getting back to the dermatologist's office to make an appointment. i overheard the guy in front of me wishing the secretary a happy new year, inferred that she's jewish and wished her as well. suspiciously, there's an opening early next week and not in a month's time. jewish mafia, i tell you. jewish mafia.

i sat down for coffee and serious thought collection, then headed to work. things at work seemed to be going well... until megaman walked into my cubicle and we had a talk that sounded a lot like a formal warning. it was a series of veiled threats that if i don't pull 60-80 hour weeks like everyone else then my credibility will be blown and i will have no added value to the company.

i'm kicking myself; i really, really, really shouldn't have told him that working under those conditions is illegal. that was stupid of me. the truth is that he was really intense and i was super-defensive, and only later my brain went "hang on, you've just worked an entire weekend of overtime and where the fuck was he?!"

the reality is that i'll happily do overtime if it's in the company's best interests. i won't do overtime if it's purely in megaman's or darn's interests. the more we talked the more despicable a character megaman became; a couple of things he said to me had some merit, but most of it just reinforced the image of him as sinister and conniving. he blatantly told me that if the cto's new tools would be so good as to render the past few weeks' efforts useless then we won't use them.

what the hell is wrong with these people?!

i sorted some things out and went to aota's who'd also had a dramatic day. we drank plenty of rum and she made the most delicious cous-cous i've ever tasted (and carried back home in tupperware). we talked things out (or as out as they can be) and i came home to work some more and get into bed.

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workwise: it's time to shape up, big time. "you're only in competition with yourself," he said to me, and he was lying through his teeth. the two of them have been undermining me from dang's first day and i need to pull the team back into the real world.