stress test: work blues

yesterday:

i didn't sleep very much yesterday morning, but what i got was great. my alarm dragged me out of what i now recall as having seemed to be an epic dream.

the entire procedure at the clinic was way more comfortable than usual, and they've flavoured the powder for the breath test and it's actually quite tasty. between samples, i organized travel insurance. sorted.

i returned home via the post office to do what i should have done about two months ago - redirected my mail. the teller was super-friendly, or perhaps super-nosy, but she seemed genuinely interested in me as an immigrant.
"which do you like more, israel or south africa?"
"you can't compare! it's a totally different world!"
"fair enough. i'll bet the bureaucracy there's just as screwed up."
"that's true of bureaucracy everywhere, it's universal."

i went to my old office for a decent cup of coffee and some tweaking after the overnight tests had failed. then set them again and walked out, amused by the fact that i'm never there very much and yet people still act surprised: "what? didn't you just get here?"

headphones - they're either too short or not long enough. my ipod ones are getting touchy :(

work was harsh - there's usually a lot of trash-talking in the office, and it's all in good fun, but things weren't working for me and i started taking it badly. it was a stressful day in general, and to make it worse mmf told me off on an aspect of the project that, sadly, he was completely correct in his assertion that i messed up. i'm referring to the planning or lack thereof, and the fact that i really should have known better than to begin working without a complete specification.

and now there's a whole section that needs to be done that i hadn't even considered yet :S

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realization of the day: i'm going to dragonfire. awesome! now i only hope that pg will find something she likes...

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i was tired and stressed, and three hours of poetry reading for the stanzaviv book launch was a bit much. some of it was great, some a bit crap, but on the whole it was a fun evening that i simply wasn't physically ready for.

i was going to get lots of things done last night, but i "wasted" it by going to bed instead.

a friend of mine sent me most welcome praise for my manifesto, and asked if i'd been exposed to the real value of intrinsic motivation. i may have, but if i did i didn't really remember the details and watching the video is a treat.

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today:

i'm still tired, but now i'm off to meet with the head of the english department. perhaps i'll be the next webmaster :P [oh, how the mighty have fallen!]

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suck it, mac users! (wtf?!?? my boss found that one)