creeping bile

i just got off the phone with my internet provider's helpline - it took convincing to get them to agree to stop automated-calling me with promotional shit. i mean, i had to explain why. ffs.

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i've been glum, awkward, and antisocial since the weekend. i can't figure this out. is this my depressive side? it's not cool.

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i woke up just after 6am to sms my SC and go back to sleep - about half an hour later idiot girl called me up to ask what was happening. still sleeping, i told her that if she wanted to know, she could call my SC... no, she was too embarrassed. but not too embarrassed to wake me up, and then continue trying to convince me after i'd already said no. i put the phone down on her after the third attempt to tell her that that's what i was planning on doing.

she called again around 7am, to inform me that she'd called and to tell me when to meet.
"great! so i can go back to bed, then?"
"what?! no! you have to get ready!"

unpleasant, but necessary. i still managed to arrive two minutes late :P

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the closer i get to the end of my service, the less tolerance i have for the stupid things. and i didn't start off with a whole lot. trying to move my project back to the network is proving to be an epic endeavour, with each person involved extending a leg to trip over. obviously, i have to lose my cool and get personal if i want things done - although the last idiot that i had to deal with ("last" as in "for the day") made me work to convince him to do the "not much" that he'd suggested he might be capable of.

i have very little hope left for these idiots.

speaking of idiots - captain incompetent got up my nose today. unlike my TL, i don't have the energy or inclination to waste my time trying to explain to him why he's playing with fire when he treats me disrespectfully. to be fair, though, i haven't really been showing him anything nicer than the finger for the last while - but that's only because i really can't stand him and his uselessness.

i didn't mention yesterday that one of the SCs moved all of my gear (pc, drawers, General Stuff) into the unlocked central airconditioning control room because it was bothering him. when i complained about the lack of respect for my property, i was told by two sources that he'd informed them that i'd been warned. which i hadn't.
when i spoke to him today, and told him that that wasn't cricket, his response was "go cry to someone else". another one to the list of people that need a solid series of slaps upside the head.

i have discovered something really interesting: it is illegal to use your car's horn unless in the presence of danger. i discovered that on our way to lunch off-base (nystire's old TL is leaving us), and that set us off on an argument / fight about social responsibility. the general consensus is that i'm wasting my time, whereas i feel that i'm at least making an effort and that has an effect on me (and a potential effect on others).

after lunch, i got into reading the iliad and was horrified to discover that i'd reached the end - warning or no, what a cliffhanger! i absolutely loved the entire thing, and i feel ready to tackle robert fitzgerald's the odyssey.

after captain incompetent ejected me from the main office and into mine, i played around with a couple of ideas and failed abysmally in a game of spider solitaire (four suits - and i just discovered that playing the linux version is far easier :P) before heading out. i joined a couple of the guys on the train, which was an excellent opportunity for a nap.

also, there was a really cute kid on the train who kept a couple of us entertained with his antics - his sense of wonder was palpable!

on the way to the train, one of the new kids was asked "why is the ocean blue?"
"isn't it because it reflects the sky?"
"no, it's because the fish go 'bloo, bloo, bloo'"
<pause>
"that's pathetic"
<a slightly longer pause>
"so it's not because it reflects the sky?"

i had a shower as soon as i got home, sat down in front of my pc while munching a sandwich i'd managed to produce unconsciously (i didn't even think i was hungry), and eventually got antsy and went to purchase a new folder for all the accounts and bills and things that have been accumulating in the corner for the last couple of months :P

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it's almost time to get on my blades. i *do* need some exercise. also, my right knee's been stiff for the last week or so, and i'm hoping to get it right.

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i never could get sea monkeys going :/

listening to dubstep radio, i just confused "so f***ing ill" with "so f*** an eel". considering the rest of the lyrics, it almost made sense.