shutting down

do i always feel like i've never felt this way before
sad smileys face each other slowly swinging back and forth
garbage in my head and simply no space to retort
the sickness to my stomache giving brain solemn report
but what's this fiery itching, from everywhere i've skin
in all my secret spaces, and my eyes are burning in

those eyes that would betray me now
they're giving less and less
and each day that goes by would
have me less inclined to bless
those telomeres that seem to have abandoned me to you
how can i have done such wrong that for my heart you sue

"wait, wait, wait for the horse, wait for his hoofbeat applause"

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in my defense, i was delirious when i wrote the above. i went to bed agitated; between posting and getting in the shower, i suddenly began to itch. randomly. particularly around my knees, but pretty much everywhere. i wasn't comfortable when i went to sleep.

i was even less so when i woke up, at stupid o'clock in the morning, dizzy and feeling sick and suddenly remembering that i'd consumed a fair amount of alcohol last night and hadn't had much to eat or drink. that might have explained the feverish state, but not the itching which had become even worse. i think i'm going to take my hypochondriac self to the doctor tomorrow.

is this a part of approaching thirty? having one's body do all sorts of randomly unpleasant things? am i just going through a period of bad luck? or is this all psychosomatic and everything will be fine when my life feels in order?

i'm turning off my computer for the day. maybe it'll help.

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one woman faces the apocalypse: and is unable to defend us. as the teacher says in the first episode of invader zim:
"and will eventually implode in on itself. we're all doomed. DOOMED. DOOMED. DOOMED."

go on. you *know* you want to buy a jetpack.

the heading is incorrect, the summary complete rubbish, the comments insightful: MIT didn't disprove mythical man-month anything

HIV cures unlikely

the mongoose's superhero comics linkage

did you know? loopholed american stem-cell therapy