if half of me is asleep...

... and the other half wants to be asleep, where am i?

last night was cold. cool air was blowing in onto my face when i crashed, and i don't know from where. after the alarm went off, it took me a long time to work up the courage to get out of bed, drag on a shirt and get back under the covers to warm it up before venturing out for pants.

...

i missed my bus this morning. i was running late, but walking briskly and i would've made it if the bus driver hadn't stormed through the traffic light that usually catches him. i disappointedly walked to ibn gvirol, certain that i was going to have to fight crowds and arrive late.

of course, the bus i was looking for didn't arrive. there were two of us waiting for it, and the girl had arrived early for it. it took a while for the second one to come past. i was listening to bob dylan and vaguely considering scribbling. i arrived at the central bus station resigned to my fate, and was shocked to find that the usual 8am frenzy was non-existent: a handful of soldiers calmly waiting in line?

something was up. i began to wonder if today was a holiday or something.

as it was an internal bus i knew i could get away with falling asleep, and i was surprised to be woken up with a comfortable amount of personal space still surrounding me. i hopped off at our base, and walked past the mess hall idly thinking that it would have been nice if i'd made it in time for breakfast...

then i saw nystire walking towards me, on his way to eat. my internal clock had skipped forward an hour! not only did i make it in time for breakfast, but it was suddenly clear why there weren't many people at the station :P

i got straight to work when i entered my office, and decided to replace my manual search function with the internal Find. which doesn't work, so i had to put it all back after a lot of struggling. at least i found the HideSelection property - i could strip out a whole bunch of messy lines i'd incorporated to compensate :)

the SC that drove me crazy about listening to music last year came past to tell me excitedly about a show he went to on the weekend - maybe he's waking up :)

i spent the morning in the massage chair or discussing friday's rollerblading incident with the two guys who'd been with me, and then suddenly it was time for lunch. lunch wasn't bad - pseudo-lasagne - but i returned to the office unfocused, spending the next hour or two alternating between staring unseeing at my screen and napping uncontrollably.

i was woken to the excitement of a man who's finally acquired the carnivorous plants he's always wanted. i had three emergency doses of chocolate (finishing the nutella, begging for a peanut-butter bonbon, and finally being offered a standard milk slab) and made myself some coffee before sitting the rest of the afternoon finally closing the perl deal and trying to solve puzzles.

too much face-time with the monitor = very dry, tired eyes. i have to thank my mum for her comments the last time we spoke, because when i suddenly realized how focused i'd been i immediately took to looking away and squeezing them until they watered.

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i'm going to be very weird now: as much as i hate to admit it, my current situation is pretty good. i may be unhappy, but in the big picture it'll be quite the score if i'm released on my current date and not before.

essentially, while it may be tough on me i'm actually in a win-win situation.

i'm still going to request a bit of a push from the big boss, but at least i've finally relaxed into some perspective.

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i came straight home and have been online for the last two hours. not cool. i'm going to grab my netbook and get into bed. [okay, that sounds terrible but i do want to do some work on compiling my notes this week]

danny gilboa being awesome again: this is how it is :)

for anyone not familiar with freakangels, it's getting all shiny again

i like the idea, and welcome receiving one as a gift: selectively blocking out noise