even smiling a little

i've finally gotten over the initial shock and horror, and begun to think a little more rationally about the whole thing: well, i'm still screwed, but it's not the end of the world. i even managed to laugh with karnaf about it over coffee (i had to get out of the house), and i've done a few more lifts across to the pad and written down phone numbers for movers tomorrow.

i'm now going to have another shower (it's not the moving so much as the pre-move dusting), and then hit the sack for another glorious early morning in uniform.

i've been thinking that there's very little hopeful that i've been writing about, and maybe that'll be a part of the change i feel coming. as i sat with one of ze germans this evening, we discussed that - it's a period of transition for a lot of us right now. let's see which way the wind blows.