eilat and back

there isn't much to do in eilat, aside from walk the promenade. so that's what my mum and i did for a day and a half - we walked and we talked (we talked a lot) and we sat down every now and again to eat or drink coffee.

the hotel was unsatisfactory as far as my mum was concerned, i was quite happy with it but my standards are kinda low at the moment.

this morning we took a bus back, me in my blues for the first time - a pity that the zip broke on the way :S

we had lunch at coffeeholic, i left my room in complete disarray and my computer's broken down properly (suspect: the power supply) to come to herzeliya and have dinner at her parents' place. everyone was excited for me, they broke out the champagne and presented me with a couple of stunning gifts, and the evening was loud and fun and filled with the joy of each other's company.

that's one of the kitschiest things i've typed in a while, but my mother and i have been having long conversations concerning family values and ours is a crazy and wonderful one... i'm really glad that i can appreciate it ^_^

her parents have given us use of their car for the weekend - i decided not to drive back to tel aviv because aside from being kinda tired, i'd have to find parking, tidy up my room, worry about my pc and get up relatively early in the morning. i'm happier staying here at her grandparents' place with my mum.

regarding the last couple of weeks:
there's a bunch of stuff i want to talk about and can't, and a bunch of stuff that i barely remember because it all flew by so quickly. lots and lots of marching was involved, many last minute items had to be dealt with and the last six months came to a rather discrete and sometimes surprising end.

it was only just over a week ago that it was announced that i would be attaining the rank that i was supposed to, and i'm extremely happy with that. my mother got to see me receive a highly respectable rank in a proper military ceremony and that satisfies me.

my team commander from the last few months had a few interesting things to say, and i've learned a lot about myself over the last three months (specifically about focusing my frustration and not stressing) that will take me some time to really tune into.

my commander from the first leg of the course (who my mother agrees with me is quite something) was glowing with pride: the course seems to have softened me, which is to say that i was too hard for the army. in my mind that shouldn't make sense, but that just shows that i have improved.

armed with that, i have attained a slight insight into the events surrounding my dating vision - if i wasn't accepting of myself how could i accept anyone else? a pity. i've thought about her a lot since it was her birthday yesterday, and i'm sad that i couldn't handle something that was so good.

but i've definitely gotten better. i told a couple of my cousins tonight bits of my history, specifically surrounding my siblings, and they were shocked and then laughing and saying things like "no wonder you don't have a girlfriend!". it's long past time for me to be finding myself a suitable girl and doing the family thing.

i'm going to have to work really hard to manage my spare time from now on to make sure that i get all the millions of things that i want to do done. from gym and sports to studies and art-relateds, seeing friends and catching up on movies and books...

and sometime this week i'm going to have to have a chat with my SC, he's managed to conveniently forget that i'm trying to move. i need his authorization to go for a second interview and he feels that he's invested too much in me to let me go.

i finally finished fall of hyperion! it's like watching the godfather - brilliant but horrifically slow. and then i read norah vincent - self-made man and it is a fantastic read. inspired and insightful, and filled with sardonic snickering.

my mind's fluttering from subject to subject, i'm going to go to bed before it sludges out my ears.