a bit stirred

today was rough. a lot of things didn't go as planned, and in particular nystire did a great job of demonstrating all the qualities that one doesn't look for in a coworker. at some point i had to approach his commander in order to get a response to a simple question, and i made sure that my TL understands the situation so that if tomorrow's "chat" doesn't go well i'll at least have someone who understands.

i discovered this morning that there's a chance that if i go to officer's course i'll have to sign on a year more than planned... this is not something i can enter into lightly. i'm now trying to weigh the opportunity to walk out sane versus the opportunity to walk out with more army cred...

i spent too much time on the telephone with my commanders today.

after coming home and changing, sammy picked me up for our almost regular and much-needed alcohol hit. ta2 cheated and i ended up with a bit more than i could handle, so when i have to get up in a few hours' time things might prove unfortunately interesting.

it bothers me that i *had* to have a cigarette. the thought grosses me out now, but the last thing i want is to start "reminding myself" of why i stopped. that's not helpful.

*sigh*

at least my stress-ball's still smiling.