fishy fear

i have a paralysing fear of sharks. it's an odd thing to be worrying about when i'm so very far away from any real danger. maybe my amygdala is psychotically bored.

unrelated, i think maybe i should find a way to somehow derive enjoyment from the highly-stressed state in which i more often than not find myself. like, maybe i need to just accept that state of wild anxiety as "normal" for me.