homesickness remission

it's been a long, long time since i've felt it, but it's made a return since i began to feel better. that'd be about two hours, now. i'm guessing it's a direct result of being at home with nothing to do - i've only felt that during my holidays since i left sa so many years ago.

i didn't go to the circumcision this morning, i slept late and have been getting my head together since i got up. i'm wondering if my ill health has been the result of something physical, or merely a symptom of not having dealt with the recent transition properly.

i've been so lethargic and apathetic of late, i'm wondering if it's time to re-evaluate and go through some introspection. maybe it's time to re-prioritize and redefine objectives for all this free time i've been wasting.

it's not that i've been bored - ignoring the last couple of days, of course - more like i've been focused on a bunch of would be nice's that i'm not ready to tackle yet, as opposed to slightly less taxing and more enjoyable methods of getting into a groove.

or maybe the concept of not doing anything at all is still where i subconciously want to be.

it's a wonderful day today, all quiet as normal people are out there in the world "doing things", and now that i'm feeling more up to it maybe i'll just go for a casual meander and see if something tickles my fancy.