looming

 getting mr smear out of bed this morning was pretty tough. but we've had worse.

my back, on the other hand, threatened all morning to lock up. thank the gods we have the massage kit, it really helped. which reminds me that we still have the TENS NMES kit unopened on the table :P

[makes a note to unbox it tomorrow]

i've been reading the complete ballad of halo jones, which is amazing, and i got through quite a bit of it this morning before attacking the piles of paper that had been accumulating on various surfaces.

i did a lot of nothing, otherwise, and i didn't feel particularly good about it. i also did a lot of unhealthy snacking today. i felt antsy a lot today.

i did sign the revised contract, though, so that's good. and i discovered a bunch of interesting meetups in tel aviv, which i hadn't realized was a thing. and i filled out an onboarding questionnaire. and i redid the color on my not-so-white (and somewhat torn) shoes again.

in the afternoon, i took a walk to the library to get some work done on my side projects, but i spent most of that time onboarding. it's awkward joining chats before officially being welcomed. it's very quiet :P

i did get a little bit of work done on my "social" media project, at least, before i headed downstairs to pick up a graphic novel they were holding for me (hakim's odyssey), then return home via the mall in an attempt to find a grey sharpie (to make the white shoes intentionally not white).

i got home a little before mr smear, and most of the rest of the afternoon went smoothly. i made some side-project progress, he got through his music and quite a lot of the math exercises before breaking down, i did a lot of dishes, and by the time we were ready for dinner i decided that we could continue watching the highlander.

after dinner, i felt like the day had fallen apart. the thing gd went to the dentist to check is getting worse, so she's getting angrier and angrier with the dentist for being useless, and mr smear began behaving less than ideally... and i think a lot of my stress was due to the fact that the rest of the day had been positive, and my plans to go on a "date" with gd tomorrow morning were falling apart, and it was just a bummer.

by the time mr smear was in bed, though, i was ready to read some more of the ocean at the end of the lane to him. it was an even more horrific chapter than the one before, and i *had* to keep going until its end, which fortunately hit the turning point in the darkest part of the misery. mr smear had some interesting conversations along the way, and i think that helped because he went to sleep pretty easily afterwards, and in a good mood.

after saying good night i hit the shower, and then played balatro - finally earning the green chip! - and i think i'm going to bed soon.

probably.