the relief pt i

i didn't get any more sleep, my stomach gave me trouble all morning, and i had to switch my morning coffee for chamomile i was feeling so messed up.

distraught, and faint.

cancelling our plans to bake challah-peño for the office, i accompanied mr smear to school and then headed to the office early, which have me an opportunity to sit with the brit and understand that i'm not alone in my understanding of the situation. it gave me an opportunity to offer him some support and advise him according to what our boss had recommended.

from his side it sounds like the boss has heard us, at least.

i enjoyed joining my new team because we all already know and like each other. in our first one-on-one, i told my new lead what i'd practiced for my boss, and thanked him for taking me, and he corrected me saying that he wanted me on the team. we've worked together quite a lot before, but he then proceeded to explain the new role to me and it honestly feels like a *much* better fit. i was really nervous before learning what my first project would be, but now that i know what i'm tasked with i'm legitimately excited for it.

a bit later, i managed to corner the boss and we sat down for a very somber discussion, but he heard me out, reflected deeply and appreciated the feedback on the feedback. i managed to communicate my concerns without explicitly calling out anyone or any specific incident, and i feel heard.

my nerves immediately relaxed, and the rest of the work day was smooth and positive.