tired

it's been a weird weekend. i've been tired and grumpy for most of it. i feel like i'm not getting shit done. i feel like i don't have time for me, even when i do but i'm not using it constructively.

friday was a bit of a downer, i worked from the gym and i just couldn't get my head right. the new children's service at the temple was brilliant, and it set a really good vibe for the regular service.

i struggled with saturday morning, both being tired and not as well-prepared for the torah reading as i'd hoped to be. it was a pleasant morning nonetheless. i came home to swap with gd as she went off to a birthday party, mr smear and i had a pretty good afternoon together.

this morning gd went off to her monthly hypnotherapy course and i took mr smear to a birthday party. it wasn't terrible, but it wasn't great either. and the freaking snake dude, man - jesus, you'd think the parents would have warned us that they'd brought someone in to do a goddamned reptile show. we're trying to teach our kid compassion for animals, there i am at a birthday party explaining to my four year old why it's not cool to be imprisoning snakes and then passing them around to be handled by screaming children.

my mom picked us up, she didn't hang around for long but she and mr smear shared some sweet moments. by the time gd got back home it was late afternoon and i was desperately in need of a nap, but i'd had coffee to cope with keeping mr smear entertained and so i just lay in bed feeling like crap.

the evening was fun, though, after we got back from the jungle gym we introduced mr smear to TNMT (both the original and the 2003 series), mr smear totally beat me in a memory card game and shower and bedtime was pretty chilled. then gd and i watched most of dogma, and it's now past midnight and i'm going to be a wreck in the morning.