two days feeling like a month

my neck and back are still sore, and it's definitely a part of me feeling exhausted. our new bed finally arrived, which i think has given us a bit of rest, but there's lots more needed.

yesterday:

i finally took the projector - which we haven't operated since mid-december - to the repairman, who a) informed me that resetting the lamp timer put us at risk of dealing with a lamp explosion and b) confirmed my experience that there's no real reason to own a large, expensive tv when projector price and quality are so much better. our lens broke a couple of years ago, which affected the focus a little, and it seems like we may as well have it replaced while we're there. still way cheaper than getting a flat screen of even half the size.

mr smear's second swimming lesson, then driving him to a playdate, then enjoying our new bed.

a friend from the shared workspace picked me up in the evening and we went to a tech talk; it turns out i knew a lot more about both the subjects than i expected but it was still interesting. unfortunately, it went way over time and we had to leave... but the exit was right next to the speaker and there was no way out without disrupting everything. so that was awkward.

oh! and another page is up. and mr cat's begun on the updates to pages 2 and 3 ^_^

today:

it was a pretty relaxed morning, although i've been reading kent heckenlively's plague: one scientist's intrepid search for the truth about human retroviruses and chronic fatigue syndrome (ME/CFS), autism, and other diseases over the last couple of days and it's as disturbing as anatomy of an epidemic and regardless of whether mikovits' theories are correct it's a truly horrifying examination of politics in science.

i went to the temple to meet with the rabbi for another cantillation lesson, it was very positive.

we picked up mr smear, i dropped him and gd off at home and went to get some printing done, spent an hour or two in bed again (trying so hard to fix my neck and failing), we played death squared, had a fantastic dinner and then gd left for a friend's birthday party. i put mr smear to bed and then watched this old interview with bill hicks, which is fantastic. gd's just come home, i'm about done with my evening and definitely ready for bed myself.

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i went in earlier to check on my boy. the last couple of days i've seen and heard about him doing things that have really made me so damned proud. i have a ton of doubts about myself, my behaviour, even some of my life choices, but every now and again i get to look at him and feel like i'm a part of something really good. like, this evening we watched the first half of princess mononoke, possibly for the first time. we had to stop it halfway for shower and bedtime, and he was really sad. but he was sad for all the right reasons, and he responded with a maturity and an understanding of our roles and responsibilities in this world that i can only pray will strengthen as he gets older.