saturday

jesus. i just watched the rest of racing extinction and it's an intense emotional rollercoaster, a fair amount of which felt like watching a snuff film. how does one react in the face of one's own extinction?

i'm feeling profoundly saddened by what we're capable of, deeply troubled by what i think can and should be done and what that would cost us.

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most of today was spent driving to greyton, with gd and i struggling - her with nausea, me with a threatening belly. lunch with my mom's friend went on way longer than anticipated (although it was very good), and we arrived at the farm animal sanctuary so late that they were doing us a really big favour by letting us in at all. it was seering hot weather, but we got a good tour and got to connect with a bunch of the animals.

aside from us adults appreciating the visit, mr smear was very sad to be leaving and wished he could stay so that's a massive success in my book. he also spent most of the drive there and back staring out the window, i love that he loves seeing trees and mountains and rivers and animals because i used to hate family drives as a kid.

we think the antibiotics are working, i hope we sleep as well tonight as we did yesterday. i'm exhausted.