is it just me?

i'm not sure if i need to learn to control my emotions better, or if i need to find a job with people who don't make me anxious. i discovered this afternoon that it is not company-wide practice to make me take on-call responsibilities when i'm on authorized vacation, which led to me angrily firing off an email to my manager and line manager to retract my morning's concession. now i'm anxious about how that's going to play out when i get back into the office, instead of spending my evening doing things that *i* want to do.

not that i couldn't enjoy watching the karate kid reboot with my boy, or complete a particularly interesting level (is it the penultimate yet?) in exapunks. i'm generally not interested in the post-level stats, but primarily because really want to know what percentage of players have made it far enough to be included in those stats. it's one thing to tell me my solutions are average, it's another to tell me they're average for the top percentiles.