thank you for smoking

you know, ever since i quit smoking, i've been suffering from low blood pressure, general agitation and... i can sit for hours in front of the computer without getting up to go outside. and when i do take a break, there's no "nothing" to occupy myself with. i'm thinking / talking / doing... not just being.

if we're talking about health, i'd say that that last one really makes the case for smoking.

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i was dead yesterday morning - that tough wake-up was only shown up by this morning's.

it was a beautiful day, as was today. instead of finishing up with vacating my apartment, i slept in and met up with sammy for breakfast (his lunch). the place is called "jewish beef", it's sandwiched between strip clubs and their sandwiches are brilliant. a stack of meat, good garnishing... only the salad was ruined by excessively liberal use of otherwise decent mustard.

the music was great.

i went straight to the physiotherapist, who was shocked to learn about syncopes and how (seemingly) prevalent they are. the return shock of electro-therapy was unpleasant.

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i was so tired, i've been so tired for a couple of weeks now. and not regular tired, either. creepy when a guy i know asked on facebook if anyone else has been feeling off for the last short while... creepier when a bunch of people answered in the affirmative. it's probably meaningless.

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our svn is having me on. it's doing shit that should be impossible, only when the r&d guy came to show me how to use the system he discovered i was doing everything right, and he walked out of my office scratching his head. reminds me of something.

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"are you lonely planet people too?" asked the girl on the bus. then i watched as some funny-looking guy lurchingly half-ran at the side door, trying desperately to spit at it; his underpowered loogey *just* cleared his shoes.

that was kinda sad.

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i was early for the doctor and it was a lot colder than it should've been for a day that i'd left the apartment without a sweater. i was expecting the examination to be horrific (i always expect the worst), but was astounded by one of the few doctors i've come across in the country with a decent bedside manner. i've had worse.

i ran laundry before taking pg out to dinner - not a bad dinner, but the service was weird. then i went to work for an hour or so, and discovered on the way back that my headphones have died (only one side works). at least i've gotten good mileage out of them this time.

the rollerblading route was brilliant! and enjoyable socially as well. it was a good night, and pg and i finished it off with great sorbet at vaniglia before going to bed.

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today was simple. poetry in the morning, some of which was boring and some of which was completely fascinating. i suspect the boring bits were such because i wasn't totally concentrating.

the first meeting of the humanities forum was not entirely unsuccessful, in spite of the fact that only six people showed up. after an hour of speeches and arguments, and a little yelling, we had a first conclusion. i went off to the student union to hold up a mirror - the guys i spoke to all seem interested, we'll see if anything magically moves - and then had a decent lunch before coming to work.

i had a talk with the boss, which was quite amiable considering that i keep reminding him that i'm about to leave, then a talk with one of my co-workers on the benefits of dreadlocks. i then spent the rest of the afternoon going - over - every - script - in - minute - detail - to - check - that - i - wasn't - endangering - anything - by - overhauling - the - configuration - files. it was mind-numbing. and i was exhausted to begin with.

at least it's done. more or less. either way, i've had enough of today and i have yet to begin tomorrow's readings :(

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daddy ran away with the circus is cool.

taylor mali is freakin' AWESOME. so is shira erlichman.