morning splendour and grace

i'm still hurting.

my situation didn't improve this morning, and egg escorted me in the ambulance to spend three hours in emergency discovering that i didn't have alcohol poisoning. what i did have was a terrifying ordeal with dizziness, vomiting, a violent pain in my head that's only now beginning to subside slightly and my entire system in a flat panic for far too long.

so yeah, i'm going back to not drinking again. i am not going to repeat that experience. and i'm going to worry a bit more about these fainting spells.

there was a bunch of fun stuff i had planned to do today. a morning in emergency was not on the list. i think that's very important. there isn't any room for spontaneity, i have a list. a list that includes the beach, computer games and rollerblading, playing frisbee and reading a book over good coffee. you gotta stick to the list.