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i slept enough last night (but i won't tonight, it's already past midnight and i only just finished reading the horrors of the open-minded [when it's open on principle and the owner ceases to think]

i began the day with the final stage of my professional review, which went well except for the fact that my SC and i have agreed that i need to learn to flirt and joke in hebrew if i want to get to a point where i'll be ready for officer's course. that's a tad sadder than it sounds, believe you me.

my TL laughed at me today - he asked me to write something for a team-mate's birthday card. not being confident language-wise and hating my hebrew handwriting (it's all scribbly), i wrote it on a separate piece of paper (complete with scratching-out) and drew a quick diagram for my TL so he would know where to write it and how to attach the envelope to the gift.

he couldn't stop himself from giggling, and wanted to include the script alongside the card because he sees it as adorable as when his little kids (who can barely write) try to give their parents something sweet. i did a lot of blushing and arguing before he stopped making fun of me :(

we had an unusual lunch, and i was called into a long meeting for which i *just* had time to organize my coffee. i spent a lot of the afternoon studying... about fifteen minutes before the second meeting of the day, i was sitting on the steps when some tosser came up to bum a smoke. now i wouldn't have minded, but i abhor the idiocy required to produce a statement like "are you reading?" when my head's stuck in a book, and to then continue to attempt striking up a conversation (that's totally uninteresting in unexpected ways) in spite of the unpleasant and rather mean responses. including not noticing being ignored.

oh, yes, and the kinder pissed me off a number of times today - fortunately my TL was present for one of them and heard what set me off, because for once he didn't ask me to tone down my aggression. he's a right ponce, this one, and later on in the evening when i informed him that i wasn't going to do something that he should've done, he informed me that he was doing his job "as a favour" to me... i don't like him. my reactions towards him have progressed smoothly from friendly, to aloof, to curt, to snappish, and are now at downright nasty.

the evening's work was interesting, and educational, and we left having completed a lot and planned a lot more. unfortunately when i tried to think about what i'd done today (we do have to report hours) my brain stuttered, and i was almost home before the missing hours came back. it was just one of those days, i guess.

now i'm going to bed, and today (tomorrow) should be an interesting one...

during the meeting i drew the following, while listening with half an ear and chipping in two cents every so often: