worst behaviour

... and i can't believe it's midnight already :S

i didn't nap on monday evening, and a couple of hours after posting the three of us went to rabin square to see what was happening. crap music and not too many people, so we took a walk and got drinks at a kiosk before heading back.

to be even more disappointed :(
i'd been expecting something along the lines of last year's.

we went to la gufra, to eat waffles and enjoy the fireworks with the mongoose's ex. the vibe on that side of the square was much better, and we didn't have to listen to the crappy music from the stage. just after i'd ordered, the girl from saturday night [cag] called, and i navigated through the crowds (narrowly avoiding a fight with some arsim) to meet her and get back just in time to share the waffle.

the kid and spot left, we sat for a short while and then took a bit of a walk, then returned to my place. i'm going to leave it at "things went really well" and we both enjoyed ourselves enough that it was a mad rush to pack everything and leave when ru55 arrived at 1.30am (i'm SO glad that i'd more or less organized everything before posting, including making sandwiches), and we gave her a ride home and then left to the desert.

ru55's gps and my phone's ability to record conversations really saved us, and we made it there in good time (we arrived around 4am). we went in, got our night gear sorted out (it's frikkin' FREEZING in the desert) and walked to the party. good stuff, we went to see haltya and he was playing a great set when we arrived. he had another set scheduled for 8am, specifically to introduce us all to his soon-to-be-released album which is why he was brought in in the first place.

at around 6am the music stopped, and we just assumed they were taking a break until sunrise. i don't know why we assumed that, it doesn't make any sense. we spent a couple of hours milling around and enjoying the view, along with everyone else, but at 7.45 we began to suspect that something wasn't right.

and it wasn't. the police had, very quietly, come in and shut down the event. we found haltya, who was walking around even more shocked than we were... it's so unbelievably disappointing that israelis can bring in a great dj and "forget" to organize the correct permits :S

at least our fellow fans tried - some guy brought in his car and put on one of haltya's discs, and everyone was bouncing around. when the battery died, a few people jumped to get it started, and they started up again ^_^

so yeah, we left. as disappointed as we were, we got to enjoy a fun and interesting drive back going the long way around (including pit stops at some really educational places), and after ru55 stopped to help some old people change a tire, we pulled in at our friend in pituach for the traditional independence day braai (barbeque).

there were even more people this year than last, and i didn't even get a chance to nap. hell, i didn't even manage to get food! i spent the day milling around, chatting with friends i haven't seen in a while, swimming and meeting all sorts of interesting people (including a really cute austrian girl, and it turned out we'd met before), and at 6pm mmf gave me a ride home.

i had a shower and put myself to bed - it was definitely about time. i still can't believe that i survived that long without a serious crash.

...

i was totally messed up when i awoke to my phone ringing around 11pm. i was a total wreck, and i should've just said good night, but cag made me feel bad.

that's when the warning lights should have begun flashing and the sirens screaming. i dragged myself out of bed to make super-strong coffee, then walked to meet her and go sit over dinner at a coffee shop in the area.

aside from shitty service and an unimpressive BLT, it was all well and good. we came back to my place, and were sitting and talking for a couple of minutes before she suddenly got demanding: i've known her for a grand total of a couple of hours, and she already wants some form of guarantee that we'll be going for the long haul.

it was at that point that i should've thrown her out with a "have a nice life", but i'm sticking with my excuse of being less than functional and i tried to make the best of things. hell, we even got quite intimate but there was definitely something wrong... around 2.30am i walked her out, said goodbye and tried to ignore her whining and guilting, and came back to pass out - discovering that she'd left an earring behind, which i suspect was left on purpose.

all i can think of is how i met your mom's crazy eyes - i'm hoping i'll be able to identify them in the future :S
to any women reading this: YOU CANNOT FORCE A RELATIONSHIP. if it's not enjoyable and natural, then it's not worth it. don't ruin it with unnecessary pressure.

i don't know how i got out of bed before 6am, and i was totally wasted the entire day. exhausted and dehydrated and braindead for all intents and purposes, the caffeine simply couldn't do its job.

we had a wonderful 1.5 hour lecture on sexual harrassment before leaving. i'd share with you how great it was in detail if it hadn't sucked so much.

irritable evening; my network card's screwed, i'm pissed off about last night and my screen resolution in linux has gone haywire. it got better after a great cup of coffee with spot and then going out for more coffee (do we notice a trend?) with the austrian girl who until tomorrow lives across the road - i helped her out with moving, which was quite fun :)